My mind is telling me to move on but my heart can't let go.

I'm still here cause..

I'm still here cause I care,

I'm still here cause my heart can't Let go,

I'm still here cause no matter how much I want to move on I just can't,

I'm still here because you showed me attention,

I'm still here cause you bring out a better side of me,

I'm still here cause you showed me a different version of my self.

You appear in my Dreams..

You appear in my dreams apologizing,

You appear in my dreams making up what you broke,

You appear in my dreams showing me the future,

You appear in my dreams for hoco,

You appear in my dreams for prom,

You appear in my dreams almost every night.

I'm realizing I'm not ready to let go and move on from you jz yet if your still in my dreams.

I used to not be able to breathe

Without feeling the weight of that breath.

Pushing it out as though

It wasn't some kind of burden

Like my life wasn't a mistake

And I was still fresh and not rotten.

I didn't deserve the air

That ran through my nose and throat

And fueled my lungs to go in and out

Slowly rocking like a ship.

And sometimes I still struggle to see

Any sort of reason to continue to breathe.

You destroyed me inside,

I hated you,

But I still love you,

Hurts seeing you with someone,

Who isn't me..

You make my heart ache, why am I still here for you? Because I care.

You are the only reason why i am still here and still trying. you give me hope beyond belief.

when i look in your eyes and you are looking back in mine, everything feels not quite normal. because i feel stronger and weaker at the same time. i feel excited and at the same time, terrified.

you are my reason.

Im still here but I don't know why,

I'm looking for an answer to be satisfied with the fact that I'm still here without a reason

I lost all my reasons

In a short amount of time

I lost them all

So I search for reason

Yet there is no reason to be found I hang on with the thought of finding my reason

But I wonder how much longer I can hang on for

Since I cant hang on forever

Why am I still waiting for us to happen?

12:05 am-

Why do i still wait for you.

You once told me i was all you had but now i think otherwise.

You've found your people, you've found what you were looking for while i was there to guide you.

You don't need me anymore, do you?

I miss when you'd make time for me.

When you would apologize for the smallest things..i miss hearing your voice dip with concern when i was a little too quiet.

I miss you.

You're right here but i miss you so much.

I still & I will..

I still have your info,

I still know your full name,

I still know your closest friends,

I still know your favorite color,

I still know your favorite food,

I still know your sister name,

I still remember ur cousins faces,

I'm still waiting for that 1am call..,

I would take you back instantly,

Maybe I'm not thinking straight but I don't really care,

You know why?

Because I know your not coming back.