on the side is a pic of ledamonsterbunny as Fate :p

I finally got home. I was soaked from the stupid rain. I angrily stomped upsairs. I was pissed off at Fate. She had a big mouth and I never said Jayy was hot. Well hes cute..... No! Bad Violet! Don't think that way!

I walked into my room and grabbed some gray old sweats since I wasn't going anywhere. I put on the sweats. 'Wow,' I thought. 'They're huge.' The pants were very big and baggy on me. The sweatshirt was also big. I wasn't even exaggerating. They were very huge. I forgot to mention, the close I wear now my mom bought them. She didn't buy me new sweats.

My mom wasn't home. And my brother was probably at his friends. I layed on my bed and I closed my eyes, but all of a sudden a voice went through my head, which made my eyes open wide. 'You better do something.' it said. 'Or you'll gain weight. Maybe try walking around your room.'

I hypnotizingly got up and paced back and fourth my room. I felt kinda scared because I thought about what the voice said. What if I did get fat? I stopped quickly to turn on music. I wasn't really paying attention to what song I was put on.

I walked around in circles in my little room. The next thing I knew, I was doing push ups. Then sit ups. The voice wouldn't leave my head. It was starting to get very annoying. I walked in my bathroom and sat in the empty bathtub. There were scissors in my makeup. I grabbed the scissors. I gently put the razor next to my left wrist. I clenched my teeth, ready for the pain. The pain was felt horrible. My wrist hurt really bad as I cut myself. 'Stop.' the voice whispered. I ignored it. I just wanted the voice to go away. The blood gushed onto my wrist.

"Violet! Come downstairs! Dinner is ready!" I was suddenly startled. I did not know my mom was home. My brother was probably also home. I jumped out of the bathtub and shakingly walked to my sink. I turned on the water. I grabbed a towl, I put the towl under the hot water and put the wet towl on my left wrist where it was still bleeding. I pressed onto my wrist. It took about 8 minutes for it to stop. "Violet! Come downstairs already!" Mom yelled. She sounded angry. I think it would be best if I left to the gym. I changed into blue skinny jeans and a plain black t-shirt. I also put on some shoes. "Violet!" my yelled again. I rolled my eyes. She was getting old, which ment she gets angry easy. (A/N that's how my mom is :D except I talk back but we still get along xD) I put on the bracelet Jayy got me so no one could see my cuts.

'Stop' the voice screeched into my head. It was back. I fell on the ground on my knees. I felt lightheaded. I ignored it and got up. My room was spinning. I closed my eyes, then opened them. I still felt lightheaded, but I could see clear now. I walked downstairs.

My mom was in the kitchen with my brother. My brother was just putting his dish away, while my mom had her hands on her hips with a very unhappy look on her face. Her angry frown wiped off right when she saw me. She suddenly looked sad. "Violet! Are you ok? You look very pale and sick."

I nodded. "I'm ok. And I'm going out."

"Oh no your not! Your staying home tonight! Tomorrow is school!"

"I always go out on school nights."

"I don't trust you! What if you faint or something?!"

"Violet, can you just stay home for once," C.J finally said. I glared.

"Violet. Sit down and eat. I made your favorie, lasagna. Except it vegetarian." mom said, trying to calm down.

"No." I said stubbornly.

"Please, Violet. Do it for your mom and I," C.J pleaded. He looked like he wanted to cry. So did mom.

"If your not going to eat then I'm going to have to take you to a doctor."

'Don't listen to them,' the voice said as mom put the lasagna on my plate. I sat down. 'Stop! They only want you to get fat again!' I rubbed my temples. The stupid voice wouldn't leave. I grabbed my fork and cut a peice of the lasagna into my mouth. It was very hard to eat. The second bite I felt like throwing up. My mom and brother were watching me carefully.

"I can't do this anymore," I whispered before running upstairs to throw up. I felt gross. I layed on my bed and fell asleep.

The next morning I got ready for school. It was raining again. I did my morning routine. I put on vans, with black skinny jeans, and with a black t-shirt that had gir on it. I went I the restroom and decided to put on makeup. First I put eyeliner all around my eye. Next I out green eyeshadow. Then mascara. Lastly a little bit of rose blush. I grabbed my backpack and walked to school.

Through school I've tried avoiding Jayy. I only talked to him when the teacher said to. Lunch was the worse. Today we had cheese pizza and salad. I ignored him when he tried to make me eat. Fate and Nate were absent. Jinx was also absent again.

After school was even more worse. "Violet," Jayy said before I could leave the school campus."You've been avoiding me all day and I'm getting fed up with it. Please tell me what's wrong. Is it because you have a crush on me?" I would've slapped him him but I didn't. I just wanted to get out of the pouring rain! Hes just lucky I brought my black gir hoodie. Jayy was wearing a red Angry Bird sweatshirt with black skinny jeans with black vans. His sweatshirt had a hoodie.

"Can we talk about this at your house?" he nodded and motioned me to his car. We drove off to his house in silence. I was too busy thinking to talk. I realized maybe I do have a crush on Jayy.

We go to his house. We walked inside his room, where we stood in the middle of his room. "So what's the problem? Is it because of your crush you have on me?" Jayy asked, smirking. His beautiful eyes were brown and curious.

I nodded sheepishly. That was true. Well, half true. The other half was because my eating problems. Jayy smiled, "it's ok that you like me. I mean... I like you too.... Well more like love?"

I smiled and hugged him. Jayy hugged back. He then gently kissed me on my lips.

"I love you too." I said smiling, gently pushing him on his bed.

(Not the end ;)))))) the video paper cut by linkin park check it out -------->