" Amma..."

I take the call and walk out immediately...

I return after ten minutes...

" Sam..." He closes me inquisitive...

" Shravan...I think I should leave ..."

I remove his T- shirt and correct my hair.. Collecting my bag and phone I gesture bye...

" But Sam....... Is everything fine?"

His face is sullen... His tone is uncertain that resonates his insecurity...

I smile , huffing out loud...

" Yea...". I simply nod and step to the door...

" Sam... I will drop you..." He is unable to read my thoughts ... And , tries to make the situation ease.

In a thought that I will not resist , he takes the bike keys ...

" No shravan...you need not to..take rest...I will manage..."

I pace to the door without turning at him...

I can feel his heart beat that plead me to stop..

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I fall on the bed reckless... Tears roll down aimlessly to wet the spread sheets..

The day has brought me two extreme emotions... I feel something that made me to realize who am I and why am I in this universe ... The moment I see Shravan in that ill state is the point when I had lost something ... Perhaps , my ego...?!!!

Then why do I really feel a flinch in my heart... I am not hesitant to take care of him... I never feel the same way with him how I realize today...

He is different today...

No....

We are different today...

It was a split second when I fly over the universe with him... Why does he get over my nerves... ?? Why am I thinking about him always... ? Why is it hurting to see him in pain...?

Is he the bestie ?!?! Perhaps , forever ?!?!

Surpassing the tears , a smile creep over my lips...

I close my eyes to recall the time our noses brush each other...

Sudden gush of blood run from my foot to head... My cheeks are warm...I touch my cheeks to notice that I am blushing...!!! I know , I am blushing now !!!! In a wink I close my face with my palms... My racing breath teased me that I have fallen in love...

Tring...tring...tring...

I get up in search of my phone...

Shravan!!!!

Think of the devil...!!!

I pick up the call at once...

" Shravan... "

There's a short silence...

" Sam... I thought you will not pick my call... Thanks for answering my call..."

I leap out of the bed...

" Shravan... What's this...? Why I wouldn't take your call... ? And , you are thanking me asif we aren't friends?!"

I speak from my heart , baffled with his reply...

" Sam... You didn't tell me anything... You left suddenly... I was like... embarrassed... I thought that I have hurted you... I was worried..."

" Shravan... You're a person who makes the people around you happy... You're such an energetic weirdo who passes the positive aura .. I was happy whenever I was with you.. Please don't speak like a despo..."

I understand now , how he would have felt when I left all of a sudden...

" Shravan..."

There's silence...

" Shravan..."

He doesn't respond...

I see my phone whether he's still on the call...

He's there in the call .

" Shravan... "

He's mute...

" Okay then , I have to cut the call..."

I pretend to cut the call...

" Heyyy.... Sam... Don't cut the call... "

He hurriedly speaks...

I chuckle ....

Breathing deep , I speak...

" Shravan... The call was from my mother... My grandma is not feeling well... Actually she's my great grandma... Like every other grandmas , she's so sweet... I was brought up with the virtues of her... I never went to bed without her stories.. "

" I was stunned that she's admitted in hospital with medical emergency... Actually I was clueless what to do.. I was little upset.. I needed space.. that's why I left ... Sorry... I didn't mean to hurt you..."

" Sam... You need not to be sorry... Actually what a fool am I ... You were in trouble and I was thinking that you have left because we were close.... and..."

He stops midway to realize that he's talking deep...

My body tingles to listen him talking about us...

We are quiet...

" Huhhh... How do you feel now?" I try to behave normally...

And , it's always been a pleasure to witness the man's love and to realize how they are desperate with your love..

I wish I could see his face now... I clench my eyes to imagine him...

" Feeling better... " He mumbles...

" But , I don't feel better" I whisper to my heart...

" What...?" His surprise exhibits on his tone...

" Shravan... I don't know yaar... I feel so sad and wanted to laugh like a mad..that , I have gone nuts... I wish you to be here now... I will be happy with you..."

He clears his throat deliberately...

" Sam... Think twice... If you just say yes , I will stick to you like your Shadow ..and you will regret for your words that you will be happy with me.. "

He mocks me...

" No ..I won't regret ... Because I trust you Shravan..."

I convey in a firm tone... " Shravan... It seems that you are my Bestie..."

My tone softens to the extreme where my heart shivers overwhelmed...

The word - Bestie is not so simple for me... It's unequalled , unconditional , selfless , soulful love...

" Bestie ?!" He sighs.. happily...

" Shravan... I feel sleepy... Will you talk with me until I sleep.. ? Or else , I will be alone. I will be worried , thinking Grandma's health..."

It is a kind of request ...

He shouts merrily... " Your wish is my command madam Sam... "

I lie down in bed , covering the sheets until my neck... He begins to narrate a story... He speaks few funny incidents in his life... He keeps on talking over phone... I listen to him , laughing .. grinning wide... Snigger...

Sometimes , scolding him..

Sometimes , teasing him...

I don't know when I have slept... But , to my last wink when my lids droop he is reciting a funny poem..

yes.. I sleep , listening to his crap which made me to forget the sorrow...I don't know when he has cut the call ...

The next morning , I receive amma's call again...

I check the time and grab the phone .

It's five o clock...

I have to inform shravan...!

I am about to dial his number...Then , I stop ... He must've slept late in the night...

He will be sleeping still...

I clench my eyes in despair.....

I have no other way... I have to inform him...

I quickly touch the text box to type the message...

Shravan... it's an emergency...I must leave to India .. by the next flight possibly... Call me once you wake up...

I put the phone down...

I don't know why life brings happiness and doesn't let us to relish ... Immediately, at the next page ,it brings deep trauma where we even forget the happiness... Perhaps the trauma stays forever overlapping the happiness...

I wash my face annoyed with what's happening with me...

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