"Felix, can I have a word with you? Alone.", I hear Chan addressing Felix from the distance, with a rather serious tone.

We were currently cleaning the kitchen after breakfast and I was about to head to my room to get ready for work, but Chan's words stopped me from doing so.

Considering the fact that Chan had most likely seen the dark mark on my neck and realised that Felix and I acted a bit weird today in the table, he had probably realised what was going on.

Hopefully not though.

Before he walked towards Chan, Felix and I exchanged looks with each other, both understanding that we won't go unnoticed that easily from Chan.

"Coming mate.", Felix gulped before walking off towards the corridor, following his older groupmate to the rooms inside.

To say that I am feeling nervous, would be an understatement.

Thinking about Chan lecturing Felix seems unfair to me, since it wasn't totally his fault.

Although, as an idol, he should have thought twice before acting like he did last night.

Or maybe he did thought it twice but he didn't care of the consequences afterwards?

I don't even know what he was thinking last night. Why would he do such thing when he knows damn well that it could cause him a lot to his career. And why does it look like that I'm the only one stressing over for him here?

Seriously, this boy drives me crazy.

Coming back to reality, me and the rest of the boys finished cleaning the kitchen.

I'm so grateful that I have them with me right now. Not only because they are a huge help to me when it comes to finishing the house chores, but also because they genuinely make me smile every moment.

They make me happy.

Seeing them acting like little kids all the time is the most entertaining thing of the day.

I just love staring at them, basically doing nothing sometimes, just a small movement of theirs could make me go crazy.

Just by looking at them makes me happy.

"No but seriously though. What's the best way to tell someone that their baby is ugly?"

I turn my head to face the person that asked such a random question, only to see Changbin having a questioning look towards the boys.

It seems like they had been talking about something that I didn't even listen. Looks like that I was too caught up on my daydream about my love for these kids to even pay attention to their conversation.

"Well, it would be rude if you tried to say such thing but-"

Seungmin was cut short when Minho interrupted him and spoke instead.

"Aww it looks just like you.", he answered Changbin's previous question.

I just couldn't prevent myself from laughing.

Well, I expected nothing less from him. I sometimes believe that his job is to be savage all the time and I can say that he's doing a great job.

"Yah! Why did it look like you referred to me?", Changbin seemed offended by the older boy's words, but he still managed to form a slight grin on his lips.

"You were the one asking such a stupid question. You should have expected a stupid answer as well.", Minho stuck out his tongue and flipped his imaginary long hair.

On the other hand, Hyunjin and Jisung couldn't stop laughing their heart out. Hearing Minho's reply and seeing Changbin's reaction, was enough for them to budge into laughter.

Including me as well.

As I was wiping my few tears of laughter, my eyes automatically landed on the clock infront of me.

And when I saw what time it was, my eyes were about to pop out and roll down the ground.

"Fudge!"

It was 9:30 a.m. and that meant that my shift starts in half an hour.

And I still haven't got dressed!

I quickly dash out of the kitchen and run to my room, praying in the inside that I won't be late.

Midway my run, I heard voices coming from the art room.

I then remembered that Chan wanted to talk to Felix about... something.

Being the curious cat I was, I sneakingly tip toed behind the wooden door and tried to, at least, pick up some words of their conversation.

Controlling a bit my breathing, in order for me not to get caught and bringing my ear closer to the door, I successfully managed to hear some things.

At first, the only thing that I could hear was silence and then someone sighing.

"Are you mad at me?"

"To be honest with you, no. I know sometimes we cannot control the way we feel, but Felix... what you did with Rosa last night was risky. Of course I'm gonna say nothing to anyone but, what happens after we leave?"

...

"You do realise that you will be spacing out, thinking about her all the time and won't focus on your career, right? And STAYs will get worried. But seems like you are aware of this and still chose to make it harder for yourself.", Chan continued with a sigh.

Chan's right. It will cost him a lot. But Felix knew about it and still he...

Goodness Felix, why are you so stubborn?

"I know mate. I knew it from the start but hoped that I could make it. We could make it...", Felix sighed.

"How could you guys make it, huh? You can't take her with us neither run away with her. You could never make it.", the older stated.

"I just- I don't know anymore. I wish things could be different..."

"Me too mate, me too.", another sigh.

"Do you like her this much?"

"I love her, mate."

And that's how I choked on my own saliva.

I can't believe Felix has actual feelings for me. And he even admitted it to Chan.

I don't want him to feel this way towards me. I don't deserve him. He has a bright future awaiting for him and I'm like a dark shadow that holds him back.

I do feel the same way for him, and maybe more, but that's not important.

I'm not important.

But Felix is. Felix has a whole fandom that loves him and expects the best of him. There are millions of girls swooning over him and would be disappointed and sad if they saw him spacing out for a reason that will never know.

And I can say that possitive because I would think the same way.

If I were to see Felix in a bad state and I didn't know the purpose, I would be devastated. I would be devastated even if I knew the purpose also.

He deserves to be happy and I'm not helping him with that.

As hard as I tried to compose myself, I still made an audible noise by trying to suppress my cough. But I failed miserably and there was a huge possibility that they heard me from the inside room.

"Who's there?"

Forkforkforkfork

Gotta go fast.

I quickly sprinted to my room and hurriedly closed the door behind me, before they could see me running to the corridor like a cheetah.

Phew. That was a close call.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply, resting my body by leaning on the door behind me.

Now I have to get ready.

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"You're leaving already?", Jeongin whined like a baby once he saw me, not wanting to let me go and leave him alone with his older groupmates.

Poor baby.

"Trust me, I don't want to leave either but I have to.", I gave him a sad smile and he returned it back.

"Please come home earlier. I want to spent more time with you.", he pouted and made me melt at his cuteness.

"I'll try, okay?"

"Promise?"

"Promise.", I smiled and stretched out my pinky to him.

But instead of locking his pinky finger with mine, he pulled me by my arm and hugged me. Taking me in his big embrace as I automatically wrapped my arms around his waist.

I would hug him from the neck, if only I was tall enough to do so.

But apart from that...From where is this affection coming from?

It's not like I'm complaining, even though I am a bit taken aback, but he is oddly loving today. Maybe because they will be leaving soon...

"She's not going to war, Innie. Let her go.", Seungmin came from behind and flashed me an apologetic smile.

"It's okay. Don't worry about it.", I assured him and broke the hug with Jeongin, who looked somewhat sad now that he is not hugging me anymore.

"Ready to go?", the familiar, oh so deep, voice said from behind me.

I actually had forgotten that he works with me for the time being.

I turned my heels to face him and gave him a nod. "Yes, let's go.", and he nod back, taking me to the door.

"We will be back, hopefully, soon. Bye guys, take care!", I waved at the seven boys infront of me and they flashed me a smile.

"You too. Have fun at work!"

"As if, Changbin. But thanks anyways.", I chuckled.

"Bring cookies with you!"

"Cookies or pastries, Jisung?"

"Both!", Hyunjin interrupted.

"Okay, okay will do. Bye now."

And with that, we both stepped out of the house and made our way to the coffee shop.

The weather was nice and warm today, the sun was shining brightly and the birds were chirping happily. It was a lovely day indeed.

During the walk, we stayed in silence. It wasn't awkward to be honest, but the thing that neither of us spoke made me feel weird.

I'm used on him being all noisy and bubbly, but he seemed more serious this time.

I could understand why, but it made me sad nonetheless.

"You were the one eavesdropping earlier, weren't you?", He broke the silence and caught me off guard with his question.

aYe-

I knew what he meant by 'eavesdropping' but I chose to casually play it dumd.

"What do you mean?", I tried to hide the embarrassment at the fact that I got caught earlier and not only that, but he knew it was me as well.

"Yup, it was totally you.", he chuckled at my reaction, realizing what a bad lier I am.

Sheesh.

I sigh in defeat and didn't even try to defend myself, since it was pointless of hiding the truth. It wasn't a big crime either way.

"Yeah... I kinda heard you guys. Not because I was curious or anything... It just happened."

'iT jUst hApPeNeD? Gurl you had practically become one with the door, in order for you to listen to their conversation.'

And here I thought I wouldn't hear from you today...

'Hah, in your dreams, honey. I'm always here, and unfortunately for me, I will always be. Forced to hear your stupidness.'

Chill woman, who hurt you?

'You, obviously. Can't you just drop everything and run away with him? You know you love him.'

Who's the stupid one here now? Are you listening to yourself right now? How am I suppose to leave back everything that I have here,my work, my home, my grandma. You know she's the only family I have, I can't just leave her behind.

'....'

Thought so.

"What exactly did you hear?", Felix brought me back to reality as his expression turned serious and stares deeply into my eyes.

Gulp

"U-um, well..."

"It's okay, I get it."

Again silence filled the air, but now, it was really awkward.

"It wouldn't have worked out either way. You know that, right?", I finally said after a minute.

"Yeah I know. But I still had hope.", His sorrow and bitterness was visible at his tone of voice.

"Your future is more important than a normal girl, Felix. I will only hold you back and I don't want this to happen.", I explained further.

"You do realise that you are talking nonsense, don't you? How are you suppose to hold me back when you are making me happier?"

'See? Even freckles says you are stupid.'

Shut up, consciousness.

As I raise my head to take a deep breath and to pay more attention to where I was stepping on, I realised that we had already reached our destination.

"Look, Felix. We will talk about it later, okay? We are here already.", I suggested, showing him the coffee shop that unwrapped infront of us.

"Yes, I believe we should.", He gave me a slight smile, even though I knew he faked it.

"Great. Let's go now before Ms Emily whoops our butt for being late."

He genuinely laughed at my words and he instantly made me happier.

I love it when he smiles.

"Yeah. And we don't want this to happen.", He chuckled and opened the door for me, like the gentleman he is.

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I believe it was a bit melodramatic at some point and I'm not fond of that, but I hope at least you guys enjoyed it<3

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