Shawn, Andrew, and I were in the Uber, on our way to the VMAs. Our hotel was near the venue so the drive wasn't that long. As I waited for the car to approach our destination, my left leg was bouncing up and down as this was a subconscious habit of mine that occurred every time I was anxious.

My head rested on Shawn's right shoulder, I felt his hand position itself on my thigh. "Are you nervous, honey?"

I looked up at him. "You know I am" I whispered.

"Don't be" He whispered back. "I'll be there every step of the way"

The car stopped in the middle of a street, the sound of screaming people can be heard from outside. I looked out the window to my left and there was a larger crowd of people being enclosed behind a metal fence.

"It's showtime" Andrew said next to me, opening the door and going out. I followed him, stepping out of the car, one foot at a time, Shawn following behind me. His hand rested on the small of my back, leading me to the pink colored carpet, the sound of people screaming both of our names coming from all directions.

We walked down the pink carpet and stopped in front of a large group of photographers. They started taking photos of us, the flashes of all of the cameras almost blinding me. Different photographers from different areas of the crowd were calling our names, bringing me to a state of confusion on where to look.

I looked up at Shawn, placing my hand on his chest. He looked down at me with a smile. "You alright?"

"I don't know where to smile"

He chuckled. "Just look anywhere your heart desires"

I looked back at the photographers and smiled. On my right side, one of the photographers yelled, "Alana. Shawn. Give us a kiss!" This led to more and more people screaming at us.

I looked up at Shawn again and he looked back, a big grin on his face. "Do you want to?" He asked.

"Always"

He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss on my lips. The flashes continued as we said thank you to the photographers and went to the next area of the carpet, the interview area.

Shawn kept his hand around my waist, leading me into a pool of people and cameras. "Basically" He said. "Here you just walk around and people will find you to interview you"

I nodded my head, looking around to see some celebrities that I was familiar with. Ariana Grande, Kylie Jenner, Brendon Urie, the list goes on and on.

We walked around the carpet, greeting people here and there, until I heard the sound of my name being called.

"Alana Sinclair!" I looked in the direction of where my name was being called, a lady with blonde hair jumped up and down, trying to catch my attention. I approached her and at that same time, Shawn was being called for an interview so he left me with the lady.

"Hi!" She said, a wide smile on her face. She stood in front of a man carrying a huge camera and a big, fluffy microphone. "Would it be okay if I interviewed you?" She asked.

"Of course!" She gave me her hand to shake.

"I'm Katy! I'm just going to ask you a couple of questions!"

"Sounds good!" I smiled.

"Rolling the tapes in three, two, one" She counted down. "We are here at the VMAs with the beautiful Alana Sinclair! How are you doing tonight?"

"I'm doing wonderful! How about you?"

"I'm fantastic, thanks for asking. So we all know you're engaged to Shawn Mendes. Do you two have a specific date?"

"Yes, actually. We finalized everything about a week ago. It's going to be on June 21st of next year"

"How exciting! There's something that I and all the fans have been dying to know. On Shawn's tour last year, when he went to Japan, he called you up on the stage and he brought you up to sing with him. Can you tell us what that was like and are you going to start releasing music of your own?"

I thought about my answer for a second, unsure if I was allowed to talk about the song yet since we haven't announced it. "It was an incredible experience. I actually wasn't expecting him to call me up because he didn't tell me about it prior to the performance. When I went up there, I was absolutely mesmerized. The lights from the bracelets on everyone's wrist looked like I was in space, looking out into a bunch of stars. I finally understood why Shawn loved doing what he does so much, it's beautiful"

"And music? You sounded incredible up there by the way"

"Thank you" I smiled. "As of right now, there's no music. Am I going to make music in the future? Who knows. We'll see where life takes me"

"We would all love it if you made music. Your voice is so beautiful, like silk"

I felt a hand snake from my waist to my stomach and a head rest on my shoulder. I looked towards my right side and it was Shawn, smiling. "Her voice does sound like silk"

"We are now accompanied by Mr. Shawn Mendes. Hi how are you?"

He lifted his head from my shoulder and smiled at Katy. "I'm doing amazing, thank you for asking"

"Now that the two of you are here," She said. "Would you guys be up to do something we do on here called the 'Newlywed Game'? We know you two aren't married yet but it would still be a fun thing to do"

Shawn and I both nodded. "Absolutely!" I said.

"Alright" Katy responded excitedly. "You two will alternate with answering the questions. Who wants to go first?"

"I'll go" Shawn volunteered.

"Okay. First question. When and where was your first kiss?"

Shawn ran his fingers through his hair, thinking about the question. "Well. It was a couple of days after we met" He paused. "July 13th. My Oakland performance. I invited her and we kissed in the parking lot outside of the hotel after our first date"

"Spot on, love bug" I beamed proudly. He placed a small kiss to my temple.

Katy smiled at our interaction. "The next question. Who said 'I love you' first?"

"He did" I said, immediately. "I just got back home from my trip to Canada and at like, 2 in the morning, he calls me and tells me to go outside. He pulled up to my house, said it, then had to leave to go to his next destination for the tour. Funny thing was that I was actually contemplating on saying it but decided not to because I figured it was too soon"

"Aww" Katy grinned. "Okay. It's almost time for the show so we only have time for one more question. This one's for both of you. Why do you love two each other?"

"That's an impossible question" Shawn said. "I mean. Just look at her! How could you not love someone who is as gorgeous, kind, compassionate, beautiful, smart, the list goes on and on, as she is? You'd be crazy not to"

I blushed at his answer to the question. "Why do I love Mendes so much? He's the most honest and caring person that I have ever met. I don't think that there is a person in this world that cares more about family than he does and this is very important to me. Also, my heart goes crazy when I see him"

"Thank you so much for coming on over here" Katy exclaimed. "Congratulations on the engagement!"

Shawn and I both said 'thank you' as we headed into the venue behind a large crowd of people also going in. We walked down a large aisle that separated two sections of seats.

We finally reached our seats near the front of the stage. I looked and our pictures were taped onto the seat to let people know who sat where. Shawn sat at the end of the aisle and I sat to the right of him. He reached his hand over to mine then brought it to his lips, placing a kiss on the back of my hand.

He looked over at me, raising his eyebrows, making me blush. "You okay there, honey?"

"Huh?" I asked, being taken away from my thoughts, the commotion of all the people finding their seats occurring around us.

"Your cheeks look a little flushed"

"Oh. It's nothing"

His lips curved upwards. "It's certainly something"

"No. It's nothing"

"Alana. You can tell me anything, you know"

I blushed even more. "I don't know. I guess you can say I'm having a fangirl moment"

He looked around the room. "Who? Where? I wanna know who it is"

I lightly chuckled. "It's you silly goose"

"Me?" He grinned. "Why me?"

"There are certain moments that hit me where I'm like 'wow. I can't believe that I'm with you. Out of all the people in the world, fate decided to bring you to me'. You kissing my hand was definitely one of those moments"

He leaned forward and placed a kiss on my forehead. "I love you"

"I love you more"

The awards show started, different singers going onto the stage to perform their songs, more people going up to announce the winners of the awards, and the artists going up to give their speech.

The moment that Shawn and I have been waiting for all night has finally arrived, the announcement of who won the "Song of the Year" Award. Shawn got nominated for his song, "If I Can't Have You".

I watched as Taylor Swift went up onto the stage with someone else who I wasn't familiar with. She was holding a blue envelope and the person next to her was holding the award.

"The moment you've all been waiting for" Taylor began. "We are about to announce the winner of the 'Song of the Year' Award. But first, let's take a look at this year's nominees"

The screen behind her began to show a slideshow of all the nominees and their songs. It ended, then the camera went back to Taylor and she leaned closer to the microphone.

"All right. Let's get this show on the road. The winner of the VMAs 'Song of the Year' is" She paused, opening the envelope and reading the name on the paper. "If I Can't Have You, Shawn Mendes!" She yelled.

My eyes widened, ecstatic that Shawn won. My hand instantly went to his arm. "Love bug, that's you!"

As he began to stand up to go to the stage, a large camera panned in on the both of us, and Shawn placed a kiss on the top of my head before going on to the stage. I began clapping my hands along with the crowd as Shawn took the award from Taylor and moved closer to the microphone.

"Wow" He spoke, looking at the award in his hand for a second. "This is truly astonishing, thank you. Thank you to all the fans for constantly listening and promoting the song everyday, your love doesn't go unnoticed. I want to say thank you to all the people who helped me write and produce the song. Teddy, Scott, Nate. I love you all; this is your award too" He cleared his throat. "I also wanted to thank one last person for being such a huge inspiration for me when I'm making music. Alana, my fiancee. I love you"

I smiled widely at him from my seat. "I love you more" I mouthed, not attempting to yell it to him because I knew he wouldn't be able to hear me through all the screams and cheers. He winked at me as a way to tell me that he saw my 'message'.

Shawn said one last 'thank you' before going back to his seat.

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Shawn and I walked into the hotel room, turning on the lights as I took off my heels. "Finally" I said, setting the gold heels next to my suitcase in the closet. I grabbed something from my suitcase. "My feet are killing me"

Shawn took off his green suit jacket and put it onto its hanger. "Did you have fun?"

"I did. Thank you for taking me, love bug" I walked into the large bathroom, leaving him in the bedroom, and closed the door. I set my things onto the bathroom counter and grabbed my makeup wipes. I began to wipe my face, taking off the makeup little by little.

"Of course" He said loudly from the bedroom. "You were wonderful"

I smiled at his response, taking off my dress, replacing it with black lace matching underwear lingerie set. To hide it, I put on a dark blue satin robe. I fluffed the fading curls in my hair, looking at myself in the mirror one last time before opening the bathroom door. Shawn was by the desk near the large window taking off his watch and rings.

"Hi handsome" I walked over to him by the window, placing my hands on his chest, and pressed my lips to his.

He smiled into the kiss. "Hi gorgeous. Is this new?" He rubbed his hands on top of my shoulders.

"Mhm" I nodded my head, then walked over to the left side of the bed, sitting down on top of the white comforter. I watched as he started to unbutton the top buttons of his white button-up shirt.

"Love bug. Come here" I motioned for him to go next to me on the bed.

"I'll be there. Let me just change first"

"That's why I'm calling you over here"

He raised an eyebrow in confusion but obeyed my wishes. He walked over to the right side of the king-sized bed and sat down next to me. I went on my knees, placing myself on his lap. I began unbuttoning each button of his shirt, exposing his toned chest.

"Someone's a little feisty, eh?" Shawn smirked.

I slid my hands behind his neck, brushing my fingers into his soft brown hair. "Mmm. Maybe a little" I grinned.

He kissed me passionately, the feeling of his soft lips against mine making my heart melt. I pulled away from the kiss, gasping for air. "Take off the robe" I whispered against his lips. He untied the robe and opened it to reveal what I was wearing.

His lips curled at the sides. "What happened to 'we're definitely not bringing this specific piece of clothing because we don't want to do it at my parents house'?"

"I don't think we're there yet, are we?"

He jokingly looked around. "Seems like we're not"

"Exactly. So, enjoy it while you still can" I winked at him with my right eye, gasping as he suddenly flipped us over to where I was pinned under him.

"Oh. You know I will"