I see how Matthew's expression turned to an expression that I've never seen before, an expression that scared the shit off of me, '' No respect you say? '' Matthew fake smiles. '' Afif we'll talk later. You should go now. '' I say, '' You sure? '' Afif asks me, '' Iii! Rohh Yalla! ()

He nods and leaves, I look at Matthew who's still holding my arm '' Boss calm down. '' I say trying to calm him down. '' Who was that man?! '' He asks frustrated. '' Boss ple- ''

'' WHO WAS THAT MAN?! '' He shouts so loud that made everyone's eyes on us. I started shaking off fear, '' Matthew calm down. '' Ryan says taking some steps towards us. '' Shut up Ryan! Don't tell me what to do! Do you fucking understand?! '' He shouts at Ryan. I see Ryan stepping back, I feel Matthew holding my arm tighter. '' Please Boss let go of me, you're hurting me. '' I say. He looks at me frustrated. Then he started walking towards the elevator while holding my wrist tightly. He pushes me against the elevator's wall and put's his hand next to my head.

'' Matthew, what are you doing! '' I ask him, I feel my heart beating so fast. Really fast, like It's going to fly out. '' Why are you doing this? '' I ask him again, '' Because I'm angry, I'm angry Nawal! '' He shouts, I look at him confused. Angry? Why would he be angry? I should be the one whos angry '' Why are you angry? '' I ask him. I look into his angry chocolate eyes. '' You wanna know? You really wanna know? '' He fakes chuckles, I nod carefully.

'' Because I'm falling in love with you! '' He shouts looking at me really angry. I feel butterflies going crazy in my stomach. Falling in love? With me? A billionaire who can have every girl in this world likes me? Me? Why me? I'm just a poor Muslim, what does he see in me?

'' And I'm angry because I know I can't have you! '' He says softly. I began to breath faster, I don't know what to say or how to even open my mouth. '' Matthew, why? Why me? '' I asked him looking so dumb, but that was the only sentence that could go out from my mouth. '' You tell me? Why did you have to get into my life?! '' He says, '' I want you out of my life! I don't want to see you anymore! '' His voice got louder.

Does he really feel this way about me? What have I done to make him feel like this, I look down for a second. '' Then I'll do what you want! '' I stutter trying to walk away from him when he pushes me against the wall again. He lifts my chin up and looks straight in my eyes. '' But my heart doesn't want the same thing... '' He says underneath his breath. I feel my body heat up like I'm on fire.

The next second he crashes his lips against mine. He's kissing my lips so roughly but gently. I try to push him away from me but he places my hands beside my head. He pulls away for a second and looks at me, '' Please, let me enjoy this moment. '' He whispers and continues. He kisses my lips so carefully that makes my heart pound out of my chest, I feel my blood flood around my whole body. His lips tasted like blueberry, the taste makes me let him kiss me and enjoy it. After some seconds of him kissing my lips, I started kissing back. I don't know what happened to me, I just kissed him. At that moment I forgot my name, where I am and forgot that I'm alive.

I realized what I was doing and pushed back the hardest I could, he looked at me confused. '' Matthew! I can't... I can't believe you! '' I shout. He looks down, '' I'm sorry Nawal, I don't what got into me. '' He answers. I took some steps closer to him, I slapped him the hardest I could.

'' You're full of shit! ''

'' You're full of shit! '' She says and runs out of the elevator, I just realized what I did. I just fucking kissed a Muslim woman! A Muslim who shouldn't touch any man. I run after her but see Ryan and Loren standing in front of me, '' Where is Nawal? '' They ask, '' I don't know. '' I answer.

'' But you were with her? '' Loren asked looking at me confused. '' I said I don't know! '' I say and with that, I left.

I walked into Leila's house, '' Who is it? '' I hear her say from the kitchen. '' It's me. '' I answer. I see her walking out of the kitchen. '' Babe, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at work? '' She looks at me confused. She takes some steps closer to me, '' Are you okay? '' She asks, her question made my tears flood from my eyes. She hugs me tightly, '' What's wrong? '' She asks me. '' He kissed me, and I kissed him back! '' I shout while crying so hard. '' What?! Did Afif kiss you? '' She pulls away.

'' Leila, Matthew kissed me. '' I hear her gasp. She looks at my lips, '' Did he kiss you, did Matthew kiss you?! '' She freaks out. '' Yes, and I kissed him back. '' I say wiping my tears away. '' How? When? Why? '' She panics. '' It's a long story. '' I tell her and she pulls me to the kitchen, '' Tell me everything now before Saja comes. '' She says and I start telling her everything.

'' But why did you kiss him back? '' She asks me, I look down at the table. '' Honestly, I don't know why. Something made me kiss him back, I don't what did... '' I explain. '' Honey, you're in love. In love with him. '' She says, I look at her confused. '' In love? Leila what are you saying? '' I ask her like she's dumb.

'' I know, you may not trust me, but I can see how you care and think about him. You talk about him a lot, you like him. '' She's right, I do that but does that mean I like him. I shake my head. '' So, do I really like him? '' I ask her.

'' Yes honey, you do. '' She says petting my cheek, '' Then what should I do? '' I ask her, I love Leila. She has the best advice and she accepts me for who I am and my actions, even if I was a lesbian she would stand by my side. I love her, '' You should talk to him, you should solve it. '' She explains.

'' He'll explain why he did it, he maybe had a reason for it. '' She says again. I sigh, '' Fine, I'll talk to him tomorrow. '' I say.

'' No, now. Take the bus to his house. '' She says and I look at her confused. '' What are you saying? '' I ask her. '' Trust me, It will be better. '' She smiles. '' I'll go to him in two hours, I'll just rest. '' I tell her and smile.

I'm standing in front of a big white mansion, It's almost as big as the white house, almost. Where is the entrance? I think I'm lost. I walk into the garden and see how beautiful the plants are, does Matthew really live here? I walk for a few minutes and finally, I found the door. I jog to the door and take a deep breath before I knock the door, what am I doing here. Ughhh this is so awkward, what am I doing here?!!

I knock the door a few times, but no one opens the door. I knock again and wait a few seconds. He may not be home, let me go back. When I'm about to leave I hear the door open, I turn around and see someone else open the door. Melissa?

Melissa, my high school bully. This bitch bullied me and my friends because of our headscarves and religion, she used to beat us and pull our headscarves in the bathroom. We didn't dare talk back or fight back, because she was the popular girl that could destroy lives with her dad's help.

'' Melissa? '' I say shocked, '' Nawal? '' She says shocked too. '' Who is it, Melissa? '' I hear a familiar voice say, I see Matthew coming to the door shirtless. Omg, I'm so stupid for coming here! Why did I even come here? '' Nawal? What are you doing here? '' He looks at me confused.

'' Nothing, just nothing. '' I say and turn around to walk away. '' Nawal wait! '' I hear him shout. I turn my face around and see him running towards me, I started running towards the bus station. '' Nawal! Wait! '' He shouts but I Ignore him again. After a few seconds he catches my arm and made me stop running. He pulls me closer to him. '' Nawal! Why are you running away from me! '' He shouts breathlessly.

'' Let go of me you jerk! '' I shout with tears flooding from my eyes. '' Nawal what are you doing here? '' He asks me. '' My dumb ass wanted to talk to you! But I found you shirtless with this whore Melissa! '' I shout and try to push his hands off my arm. '' You know her? '' He asks me, is this guy dumb?!

'' Let go! Let go! '' I shout breathlessly. '' Nawal, don't do this! Let us talk this out! '' He yells at me, '' I'm not talking to you! Just let go off me! '' I say while pushing him.

'' Why? Why won't you talk to me? '' He asks me cluelessly. '' Because you're a liar! You're a liar! The first second you tell me that you have feelings for me, the next second I found you with a girl in your house! '' I shout at him again. '' I can explain! Just let-''

'' Please Matthew, let go of me. I'm too tired for this. '' I say, he looks at me with an emotional sad face. He finally let's go off me, I wipe my tears away before I speak.

'' I just wanted you to let you know that I'm not a toy, So stop playing with me. ''

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