As I opened my eyes I found myself in hospital. I roamed my eyes and saw maan standing there with smiled on his face making my blood boiled.

We had little argument or say fight and then doctor came and call me mrs rahmaan Mirza which boiled my already blood even more. I rudely told her that my name is hana and she nodded. But then she tried to convince me for ultrasound which I never did before. Aapi asked me many time but I refused to go to hospital. Saying not now. But today when I came here and then doctor said that it's needed for my baby I couldn't say no and agreed.

While she was doing her work my mind thinking about maan. Who were stood beside me. I wanted him to go away but then again I was scared and it was my first time so I needed someone beside me. So I just tried to ignore him.

When she showed me my baby my heart jumped on my chest feeling a kind of happiness and pride. My eyes filled up with tears as I heard my baby's heart beat. My tears slip from the corner of my eyes and then I felt someone wiped my tears. I looked at the person and saw Maan who was looking at me with moisten eyes. I didn't remember anything that moment only my baby so when he smiled and came closer to me and whispered "our baby" and kissed my forehead I felt my heart skip a beat and a smiled come to my lips. But then..

"This is not my baby" his voice echoed my mind and all hatred and anger came back and I push his hand away from my head. He looked at me shocked but then he saw my furious look and moved back a little. I don't wanted to create any kind of scene here so I kept my mouth shut.

"So this is your baby.. you need to take care of yourself hana" doctor said firmly and after sometime she was done with her work and maan help me to sit up ignoring my protest.

"Why she fainted doctor?" maan asked in concerned.

"Because of weakness.. had you eaten anything since morning hana?" she asked me and I shook my head.

"See.. she isn't taking care of herself" she said and I see maan glaring at me from the corner of my eyes.

"First feed her something then take her home.. and hana you have to come for check up every month." she said and went out of the room after I nodded.

"How can you be so careless hana?.. you hadn't eaten anything since morning? Seriously?"he asked in loud voice and I felt infuriating rising in me hearing his demanding voice.

"Yes! It's my life I will do whatever what I want!" I yelled and got out of the bed to go.

"Your not going anywhere without eating something" he said coming infront of me.

"What made you think that I will obey you?" I asked mockingly crossing my arms. His eyes soften.

"Don't obey me jaan.. but think about our baby...." I cut him off.

"Don't! Don't you dare call my baby as yours! It's only mine!" I shouted at him furiously with all my hate while he took a steps back in shocked.

"Hana..." He tried to talk to me softly but hell I will let him do.

"Get the hell out of my way!" I yelled through my gritted teeth.

"Please.. just listen to me" he pleaded and I chuckled dryly.

"What you have to say rahmaan?"

"Don't call me that" he said irritatly closing his eyes like it's paining him.

"What? Don't you like your name... If not then change it... I don't care" I said with mocking smiled. And was about to passed him but he grabbed my hand stopping me from going.

"Please listen to... I'm extremely sorry for whatever I did... I wasn't thinking straight hana.. I wasn't ready for this responsibility..."

"You don't have to be responsible now... I'm enough for my child.. so go enjoy your so called Life" I cut him off yanking his hand away. And turned to go.

"I love you hana"

I stopped on my track. My heart stopped my breath caught in my throat. My eyes widened in shocked.

He never said those words to me. I was dying to heard those words but he never said. And I know he would have never said those words if he didn't meant it.

But he is late

I thought and a tear escaped my eyes.

He comes in front of me and cupped my face. I was still in my daze but I could see his moisten eyes.

"I love you Jaan... I really love you... I love you so much.. You become my heart's beat hana.. you become my peace.. you become my life.. You become my everything hanu... I don't need anything except you and our baby.. I was wrong to think that our marriage and being father will destroy my dreams but no being away from both of you will destroy me..." He paused in between his confession and came closer to my face and put his forehead on mine. And took my hand and placed it on his chest. Above his heart.

"Its hurting hanu... It's really hurting without you... My every heart beat give me pain.. i didn't realise when my heart become yours but when you left me my heart hurts. It's started giving me pain.. I want you hanu.. I need you... I need our baby.. I need my family to live... I will die if I don't get you both in my life..." i felt his tear slipped on my cheeks. He placed his one hand on my stomach making my heart skip it's beat. While my eyes closed their own.

"Please jaan... forgive me.. please give me last chance... I will make everything right.. I can't live without you hanu. I really love you.. trust me I do" he begged in whispered and I felt his lips touching mine.

And then the way he kissed Ariba in front of me and told everyone that my child isn't his make my eyes shot open before he could kiss me I pushed him and slapped him hard on his cheeks. He looked at me in shocked and hurt.

"Don't you dare!" I yelled with all my heart. No matter what, I will never forgive him. He broke me way too much to I ever think about going in his life again.

"I HATE YOU!" I yelled and grabbed his collar bringing him closed to my face.

"Did you hear me! I. HATE. YOU! I don't have any space in my life for you! Your dead for me! I will never forgive you rahmaan for what you did to me" I spat on his face and in the end whisper my tears started falling down.

"Zindagi bhar chaha tujhe.. intezar tera tha mujhe.. Wafa di Maine hamesha tujhe..

badle me diya tune sirf Dard mujhe" I was still holding his collar.

( I loved you all my life.. I was waiting for you.. I've always been loyal to you.

But in return.. you only gave me pain)

)

"I loved you rahmaan... I truly did.. but in return what I got.. your betrayal.. your cheating..." He cut me off cupping my face again.

"I never cheated on you Jaan.. trust me.. I never did.. that was my anger... What I did was just in heat of the moment. After accepting you as my wife I never think about any other women.. I swear on my child hana.. you have captured my heart and mind after my birthday night.. I was not able to think about anything and anyone but you. May I realised late but I love you. I really love you" he said with tear filled eyes. But I shook my head with broken smiled.

"You broke me! you broke that Hana's heart who wanted your love.. that hana died rahmaan.. that hana died" I said tears shamelessly rolling down our cheeks but I didn't care about him now. And what I said I meant it.. that hana died. I push him away. Wiping my tears I was about to go but then he fall on his knees. Making my eyes widened.

"Jaan Please.. give me last chance... I can't live without you" he begged in front of me holding my both hands. my heart wanted to melt but his words 'this is not my child' and how he kissed Ariba in front me, played in my head.

"I gave you enough chances.. now it's all over" I said freeing my hands and walked out of the room. Not before hearing his pleading voice.

"Hanu please don't go"

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I did it.

I confessed my love. I opened my heart infront of her. I know she will accept me and forgive me. That's what I thought but what happened next knock all air in my chest and stopped my heart beat. All the colours from my face drain.

She slapped me! Hana slapped me!

Still it didn't hurt me that much but her words. Her words Killed me thousands time more.

'I HATE YOU'

She said she hate me. Really? Is it possible for hana! Who loves me all her life, can hate me?

I felt my heart aching in pain. As my love confession got in return her hate. The look on her eyes make me want to die.

I can't see that look.

Hana please don't hate me.

I will die.

Please don't hate me.

My tears slipped from my eyes not believing that I was seeing Hana's hate. But still I tried to convince her that my love was true and what I did was my stupidity. Now I wanted to repent. Now I want her and our child. But she clearly told me that she didn't have placed for me in her life nor in my child's life. I did all I could for convinced her.. even I fall on my knees in front of her but she told me all over and walked out though I called her many times.

"Hana please don't go" I said while weeping like a child.

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I came back to my room and throw myself on the bed feelings exhausted dejected and vulnerable. I took my mobile out and saw Hana's pic which I took without her knowing. In the wedding.

Looking at her picture my eyes welled up. "I miss you hanu... Please please came back.. give me last chance Jaan.. I will never hurt you again i promise... And after today I'm damn sure I will die if I don't get you and our baby back" i spoke looking at her picture.

"I want you both hanu...I need you both... Please come back" i whisper last time before my eyes closed their own. And landing in dreamless sleep I felt tear escaped from the corner of my eyes.

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As I came to home aapi came running towards me.

"Where were you? Do you have any idea what time it is? And where is your phone? why were you not answer our calls? Tell me hana" aapi shower questions on me as she saw me.

"If you give me chance to say something then I will tell you aapi" I said softly trying to calm my worried aapi. She sighed.

"Okay.. first tell me are you okay?" She asked looking up and down.

"Yeah...I'm.." I cut off by a familiar worried voice.

"What the hell hana! How could you be so careless? Where is your phone? And why you didn't receive our calls i..." muneeb came in from outside and started his question making me yelled in frustration.

"Stop it! Can You guys give me chance to speak?" I asked frustrated. And they both sighed. I went and sat on the couch holding my head I could still feel little pain in my head. Khala and Nabeel bhai also there standing away from us looking at us silently.

"Are you okay?" Muneeb and aapi's asked in union in concern.

"Water" I uttered unable to say anything. Cause my head spinning. Maybe I haven't eaten anything since morning that's why.

"Take it" after sometime I heard muneeb's voice. Glancing up I take glass fill with water which he was holding.

"Thank you" gulping at once I said.

"Can you please give me something to eat" i asked aapi as doctor voice echoed my head that it's not good for my baby if i starving myself.

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After eating my food I sat in the living room surrounding by all family members. Their curious gaze on me. Asking me to inform them where were I was and whom.

"Can you please do the honour of telling us where were you?" Muneeb asked with sarcastic smiled.

"Hospital" I muttered thier face became tensed.

"What? What happened to you?" Aapi asked

"Hanu are you okay? Why were you at hospital?"muneeb.

"I'm okay... I fainted on the road so someone took me to the hospital" I said and first part looking at them and the next sentence looking down. I didn't wanted to bring maan's name.

"And who was that someone?" Muneeb asked I look up to see him looking at me suspiciously.

"Um.." I trailed off looking at aapi.

"Hana tell me whom with you?" Aapi asked sternly.

"Rahmaan" I uttered cause I didn't wanted aapi to think I hide something from her.

"What?!" Aapi yelled making me flinch.

"Aapi he came to my college... To talk to me but I fainted and he took me to the hospital" I told her and saw her face became seethed in anger.

"How dare he? What he think of himself ? Did he came your college first time? She asked and I shook my head.

"He went her college every day? Am I right hana?" Before I could say anything muneeb said.. he knew about maan coming my college every day. And many time he tried to convince me to make him confront maan. But i assure him that I won't talk to him.

"What? And your saying me now?" Aapi yelled angrily.

"Relax marzi" Nabeel bhai came and tried calm aapi.

"Relax? Didn't you heard? Rahmaan again want to come in her life! Is he not satisfied ruined her.. what he want now?" Aapi yelled in rage making my eyes tear up but I control gulping my tears.

"He is her husband! We can't take this rights from him! Tell me how many days and months do you not let him see her? In the end he will find

A way to see her and talk to her.. like today.. did you able to stopped him hana from talking to you?" First Nabeel bhai told aapi and then asked me and I look down.

"See" Nabeel bhai said as matter of factly.

"Okay.. your right.. as long as he is her husband we can't do anything.. but after divorce he lost every rights on her right? So be prepared yourself for the khula (divorce) hana" aapi declared and my head snap toward her. I looked at her wide eyes. All colours drain from my face. Silent tears started falling down my cheeks.

"What? Why are you looking me like that?" Aapi asked firmly. I look down not knowing what to do or say.

"Tell me hana! Do you ready for this this? Shall we apply for khula(divorce)?" Aapi asked again.. but I stay silent biting my lips trying to control my sob.. She came to me and cupped my face.

"You know I will never do anything which you don't want.. so tell me hanu.. did you accept your aapi's decision?" She asked softly. I gulp and closed my eyes before answering.

"Made divorce papers.. I'm ready to sign it" I said and walked toward my room taking my broken heart and ripping soul.

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