Luke's pov:

"I was thinking after we go to the movie's, we could go out and get ice cream." Fawn smiles at me from the passenger seat of my car.

I give her a small nod as I focus on the road ahead of me.

Even though the guys wanted to hang out tonight, I don't think they would mind if I am only a couple of minutes late.

"Why just a nod, did you have plans I should know about?" Fawn asks.

"Well, the guys wanted to hangout tonight, but they won't mind if I'm a little late." I say back.

It has been a week since Fawn and I have started dating, and I guess it's been going pretty good.

I mean from past experiences, at least she knows how to wear a proper outfit and not buy clothes 24/7.

She was the only girl who really cared about me.

But what about her.

Ella.

A lot of times, I can't help but think back to the park.

I'm sure she cares, but, she is my friend.

Although Ella understands what it is like to have parents who are wealthy, she was kinda.. forced to know the real me.

Plus for being my friend, I was giving her a ticket to freedom.

Would Ella.. really choose me if she had an actual choice?

The day she cried about her parents, the day she cried about going back, was when I started to really think.

She never chose me to be in her life, it kinda just happened.

Fawn was given a choice, and she choose me.

I never meant to hurt Ella in the park by saying Fawn was the only one who knew the real me.

Ella knew the real me.

But... I'm just afraid that maybe she never wanted to know the real me.

"Luke whatcha thinking about?" Fawn asks as we pull into the movie theater parking lot.

"What do you mean?"

"You haven't talked the whole car ride silly, what's on your mind?" Fawn questions me, I just rest my head back on the seat.

"Not much, just how things have been lately."

There was a long pause, "You aren't thinking about yesterday are you? All you did was miss bowling, we had so much fun ice skating."

I turn my head towards her, "of course not!"

"I mean, like you said, Ella and you are just friends, right? She shouldn't mind that you wanted to spend time with your girlfriend."

"Ella's cool, she understands, she's my friend, and you're my girlfriend." I say to Fawn.

"I know, but..."

"But.."

"I don't know, at the park... it didn't seem like it."

"Seem like what?" I question her, but she just shakes her head.

"Never mind, let's go get our tickets."

~~~~~~~~~~

"Dude, where the hell have you been?!" Is the first thing I hear when I walk through the front door of the Rider household.

"I'm just running a little late, chill out dude." I say to Zander as he eyes me from the living room.

"Little my ass, the meeting time was an hour ago biatch." Zander says, I roll my eyes as I take off my shoes, the same time Ashton walks in with a plate of nachos, followed by Jake and Damien.

Jake who was trying to steal the nachos, and Damien with a box of sodas in his arms.

"Look who decided to show up!" Jake smirks and walks up to me, giving me a fist bump.

"Should say the same to you, I thought you weren't able to come this weekend because of work and college." I say back taking a seat on the couch.

"I was able to move my working schedule and add more hours next week, might be rough, but Gianna would kill me in my sleep if I didn't come visit soon." Jake lets out a small chuckle as he takes a seat on the couch next to me.

"Y'all need to grow a pair and stand up for yourself, afraid of your own girlfriends, god damn." Zander laughs as Damien hands him a soda.

"Speak for yourself idiot, remember that time-..." Jake starts to say before Zander cuts him off.

"If you mention the time I ran into the sign one more time, I will have to give the news to Gianna that you won't have anything to reproduce with-..."

"Okay! Who wants nachos." Ashton says, shoving the plate in Zander's face as Zander glares up at him.

"That goes for you too."

"Come near me and I will send you to hell and back before you have the chance to say 'Biatch' one more time in your life."

Zander just throws his hands up in defense as we all laugh, well, except Jake.

"How come my threats don't effect you?!" He whines to Zander.

"Because Ashton can actually throw a punch." Zander smirks which causes Jake to stand up from the couch.

"Bet." And the next thing you know, Jake tackles Zander to the ground and the boys start wrestling one another.

Ashton just rolls his eyes and steps over the two, sitting next to me on the couch where Jake was previously sitting.

"You know, ever since you've begun dating Julie all that time ago, you've changed." I find myself saying out of nowhere to Ashton.

"How so?" Ashton says leaning back on the couch, shoving a handful of nachos into his mouth.

Which is crazy because with all that he eats, the dude still has a freakin six pack.

"Well, I never thought I would say this, but you are actually more... responsible?" I almost question, causing a small chuckle to escape my lips.

Ashton laughs, "Well I guess it is true, it's been a whole three days since I spray painted my old highschool teacher's car with pink paint." Ashton laughs.

"Mr. Aaron's?"

"Hey he had it coming, he gave me a three session Saturday the day Julie and I were suppose to have a date."

"That's because you put a fake snake under his desk and almost gave the man a heart attack."

"Well let me just tell you, it was damn funny when the guy screamed like a little girl."

"And I'm guessing Julie doesn't know what you did?"

"And get brutally murdered by my girlfriend, isn't worth it." Ashton laughs taking a sip from his soda.

"Okay but you know what I mean." I say.

Ashton just shrugs his shoulder's, "I guess the right girl will just make you change for the better." I see him try to hide a small smile.

"Yeah." I say back, shoving my hands in my pockets.

At this, Ashton nudges me, "So what's been up with you and this Fawn girl lately?"

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know, it was just so sudden, I honestly thought the one from the hospital would be your last weekly girlfriend." Ashton shrugs nonchalantly as I give him a small glare.

"Look I know I messed up a lot in the past, but she is different."

"Apparently not." I hear Zander say.

I look over to see he has pinned Jake to the floor. He then stands up and takes a seat on the couch next to where Damien was sitting on the floor.

"What does that mean?"

"No offense, but ever since you guys have started dating, you have been inseparable."

"So?"

"As in there are other people on this planet you know, you can't just stop talking to other people because you are 'busy'." Zander says putting air quotes around the word busy.

But I only gave him a confused look.

"Why are you getting so defensive?"

But Zander only shakes his head, "Have you lost your mind? I'm hinting about Ella you dumbass, when was the last time you talked to her?"

"It was actually yesterday-.."

"Telling her you were too busy to go bowling doesn't count, nor every other time you were busy to hangout." Zander crosses his arms.

"What is up with you?"

"No, what's up with you? You have been treating her like total trash lately, you know that right?"

But this only causes me to shake my head at him, "I'm sorry I was with my girlfriend-..."

"Shut up about your girl friend!" He abruptly stands up, which I do back.

I don't know what crawled up his ass, but the fact he was throwing all this shit at me was not sitting comfortably.

"What's your problem?! Why do you keep bringing Ella into this?!" I say frustrated.

"I don't know, maybe the fact that YOU decided to ignore her for a week because you wanted to be with Fawn. And have you realized that Fawn actually looks like Ella-.."

"Don't you dare compare Fawn to Ella."

"Why? Let me guess, because Fawn is different? Because Fawn must be the only damn person on this planet who gives a real shit about you... right?" Zander says walking closer.

"Guys, enough!" I hear Ashton's voice, but it was the least of my concerns as I stare Zander down.

"Well, at least she cares about my best interest, who doesn't always tell me I'm making the wrong choices."

"That's where you are wrong, the right friends will point out your mistakes to make you better, don't you dare pull that 'we don't care about you' crap on me."

"Then why are you jumping to conclusions about Fawn? I am happy."

"Oh really? Tell me Luke, when you are with Fawn, do you think about Ella?"

"Stop-.."

"Answer the question Luke, do you think about her?" Zander pushes, which only makes me angrier by the second.

Do I think about Ella, yeah, so what?

"Why does it matter?"

"Fine then, let me just go tell Ella that you clearly don't need her as a friend anymore, who knows, maybe she will find a guy who will actually-.."

I couldn't help what I did next before Zander had the chance to finish his sentence.

The instant thought of Ella with another guy caused anger to flow through me.

I swung.

I punched Zander.

My eyes widened as he fell back, holding his head in his hands.

I felt my own hands being yanked behind me as Ashton held me back...

From myself.

I was almost in a trance as my body stumbled, I was shaking uncontrollably as Jake and Damien ran to Zander's side.

"No.. no.. no.. no.." It was hard to speak, I couldn't believe what I just did.

My head hurt to even think.

"Luke you need to calm down." Ashton's strict words sounded from behind me as he held me still.

"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT...... up." I felt my knees give out as I fell to the floor.

Ashton lets go of me as I held my face in my hands, in shock that I not only punched my best friend, who was lying on the ground almost unconscious, but I did it because of her.

I punched my best friend because I couldn't stand the thought of her being with somebody else.

Without thinking, I stand up and pick up my shoes, running out of the door.

"Luke come back!!" Damien yells as he chases after me.

But I couldn't look back.

What have I done?