"Valerie why you haven't texted me back we was suppose to meet up almost a week ago what's up let me know something, hit me back Rari" I said to the voicemail. Nikki been blowing my phone up like crazy. I been ignoring all her calls and texts. She called the other day and I finally answered the phone and she was talking about some abortion money. I told that bitch if she was to kill my baby I wouldn't hesitate to end her life.

After she drop this baby I want full custody. When she said she was gone get an abortion, I already knew she didn't want a baby. The funny thing about that is when me and Nikki was together that's all she ever talked about and wanted, and now that we are broken up she don't want a baby. Nikki was my biggest mistake. She was cute and had some good head. Also, on top of that she had a nice little shape to her so of course I was digging her, but I was just trying to fuck and that was it nothing more nothing less. Nikki on the other hand she didn't want that. She wanted more than just to fuck or be friends. She wanted a relationship. I agreed because I noticed how desperate she was and how she was down to ride for me. I remember like two years ago, I had got pulled over by the police because I was speeding. I was dirty, I had some weed on me and a bag of pills. She stuffed the weed and pills. The police searched the car and I got off with a warning but she did it with no questions asked, or an hesitation. Nikki some how grew on to me.

She took my virginity, I ain't take hers. I guess i loved the shit she did for me, because for some reason i couldn't love her. She was a hoe and she knew it. Even tho she seemed loyal she wasn't. There has been plenty of times I caught her talking on the phone with different niggas.

Then there was a lot of rumors about her fucking like three niggas when we first started talking. I stayed with her though only because she was good for business. When she first introduced me to her family she never mentioned Terra. It was like Terra never existed to them. She slept on an old dirty couch while the others had beds. I used to always tell Nikki to be nice to Terra but Nikki real live hated that girl for no reason at all. Nikki was just green ass fuck and I see why. Terra is beautiful like beyond beautiful. After, I seen her I always wanted to see her. Terra made me feel some type of way just when she looked at me my heart always started to race. I wanted her to be honest, deep down inside I did. When we was in class I used to always be checking her out. I didn't come on to her till later because, I didn't want to look like a player. They sisters. People would of thought I was playing games, and I didn't want Terra to feel like I was playing with her emotions. I just wished I could of took the time out to notice Terra first. Maybe this shit wouldn't be all fucked up.

I pulled up to some beat down apartments. There was crack heads everywhere and trash was all over the ground. There was some thugs posted up on each side of the project buildings. I got out my car and locked the doors. I always kept my piece on me just in case shit was to pop off you feel me ? I walked thru the building hallways and it smelled horrible. The smell was unbearable. I pulled my shirt over my nose and mouth. These hallways real live smell like a dead body and cat piss. When I got to Nikki apartment I knocked slow but loud. The door swung open, there wasn't a "who is it" or nothing just straight opened the door. These apartments ain't safe for shit. Well in my opinion they ain't and just to open the door like that is just dumb. I could of been a robber or some.

I looked and seen who it was and they immediately hugged me "Rari what's up" Kayla said hugging the fuck out my waist. "Damn girl what's up" I said hugging her back. She let me go and invited me in her place. It actually looked good on the inside. It smelled good also.

Nikki was sitting on the couch with red eyes. She was higher than a kite. "I'm a leave y'all two alone" Kayla said walking to the back. I sat on the opposite couch of Nikki. Her belly was very noticeable. "You can touch my belly if you like I mean it is your baby" she said standing up walking over to me. I placed my hands on her hard belly. I smiled I couldn't believe I'm about to be a father ! I looked up at a smiling Nikki and for some odd reason she looked prettier than ever. Her skin was flawless. "We can finally be a family Rari" she said. I snatched my hands off her belly "we will never be a family Nikki" I said. "I know I wasn't the best girlfriend but Rari I love you and I miss you a lot and I can't take care of a baby on my own I barley can provide for myself I'm trying to find me a job and shit believe me we can make this work just let me know what I have to do" she said tearing up pulling at my arm. "Nikki there will never be another us I came over here because when you drop my child I want full custody you can come around sometimes but other than that I can take care of the baby me and Terra got it" I said. "YOU AND THAT FAT BITCH AINT TAKING MY BABY ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS" she yelled reaching back and smacking the fuck out of me.

"Don't disrespect T" I said putting my hands around her neck. "And don't ever put your hands on me you don't want the baby you said it yourself your selfish Nikki just face the fact you don't care about no one but yourself" I said letting her neck go. "You love her" she said crossing her arms. I looked Nikki in her eyes "with all my heart" I said. She nodded "Can I have some money me and Kayla don't have any money for food because we had to pay the rent" she said. I reached in my pocket and pulled out at least fifteen hundred dollars. "Here Nikki put some food in the house and text me whenever you have doctor appointments only" I said. She nodded and slammed the door in my face.

I got in my car and drove home to T.