Looking at the paper in my hands

Is it a dream?

Yes it is a dream

Get up sid...if ammu listens to your shit she will roll on the floor laughing

I said to her roommate who is looking at me like a mad man

Oh my god what I'm dreaming if ammu finds that her roommate was into my dream she will leave me for sure

Such a funny dream right

I started laughing loudly

She is shaking me to get out of this stupid dream

Again I started laughing loudly without caring about surroundings

She slapped me at once

At once I grasped the fact that everything is for real

It's not a dream

Tears spilled with the fact

She nodded her head with pity in her eyes

With a hope

I rapidly opened the letter

Stop your fake tears Siddhartha Roy

I know everything is fake your love,your care what not

Thankfully I understood that you are a big liar.I got saved from you

But I request now on please never play with any girl emotions everyone cannot believe you like I believed you that can cause you a threat once if they find you are not what we thought.How much I wanted to hate you I'm falling in love with you where you just had lust on me

I'm thankful atleast I saved my virtue

With the last line I closed my eyes with unbearable pain and tears made it's way.Taking heavy breathes I again resumed to read

Anyhow don't try to search.Offcourse you won't search me instead you would go for another chick.I wish sumitra aunty and uncle should be happy. Good bye

Never wanted to be yours

Reminding you

Not in love with you(From now)

Amrutha Mathur

I got dumbfounded and collapsed

Every word pricked my heart.I don't know what made her to hate me.Yesterday incident we discussed and cleared everything

I can't let her go away from me

I just love her soul not her body

She left me it make me feel like my part of the body had taken by her

Why did you do it Amrutha?

Why?

Don't you think atleast I deserve a reason

I need to know what happened within few hours I lost you

You left me but your thoughts,your talks ,your smile,your dimples,your innocence,your fights everything will be with me forever in my life

I cried like a mad person everyone near me passing looks but I was no where in the state to observe and behave myself

I interrupted her

She gave me an unbelievable look

I requested her joining my hands

I

She nodded her head in no

Pouring my tears about her departure permanently from my life

Rains company made me go out of my senses

I opened my eyes I saw I'm in a room where ritwik was sitting on the chair

He observed my movement and hugged me

I tried to recall what happened and succeeded

I smiled sarcastically and looked here and there I saw the gift I have given to her on valentine's day

I jumped from the bed and kissed the gift I have given

Suddenly ritwik pulled it from my hand

I again tried to pull it from his hands but he did not give me.

I pushed him and taken the ruby flower

I saw ritwik had fallen down

I rushed to help him

I know I can never forget her she is my life long back I promised myself I will never stop loving her

Days passed

Months passed

Years passed

My post graduation was completed

Started learning computer courses in a hope of getting Amrutha back in any way

Time passed away but her memories never left me alone

Slowly I had joined my father's company

He always wanted me to be very practical about work

He can go to any extent to crack any deal

I have many issues with him regarding the business

He never mixes professional and personal life together until the project is very beneficial

Like the same a huge contract offered by my dad's childhood friend

We all are happy with the project and its profits

Everything is going fine except Amrutha's absence in my life

One day suddenly dad's friend wanted to back off from the deal

We all got surprised as a business man he have seen in number of profits and losses but this one is the biggest one of our careers

I tried to talk to them but they were too stubborn about some condition which I was unaware of it

My father tried to ask him thats when they made my father to agree with their condition

Finally my father revealed that his friend wanted his daughter to get married so he wanted me as her groom

I was dumbfounded when he told me about their intrest

I said big no

Fuck the business I don't care as I know I have the capability to create a huge empire again on my hard work

But my father is stubborn as mule

He blackmailed me by various things but I am hell bent

On a D-day when I am working for a new design which we want to publish it on the pongal days I got a call from home staff that my mom got admitted in the hospital

I rushed to find her resting on the bed

She smiled weekly

I looked at ritwik

With that he left the room

She didn't utter anything but her unspoken words clearly mentioned everything she wanted

Directly she can't force me but she wanted me to do it

From the last few years I understood that I can never be happy without her

Why can't I let my parents to be happy

Accepting the marriage I don't know on which path I started walking

Pooja unlike the spoil brats we see she is bit matured and humble girl. My mom is happy that finally I gave a thought to marry someone

I explained pooja everything and cautioned her about our post marriage

I asked her if she can give me some time

By her behavior I understood she is not intrested into this marriage stuff and all

I didn't try anything to find the main reason behind her

After the marriage I reduced my resting hours

Whenever I tried to move on I only get the glimpse of Amrutha

I never knew I'm mad over her to this extent

At a point of time I hated myself for my this behavior. My drinks do not have any end.Day and night I just drink.I would attend a meetings too by drinking.I couldn't eat my food too

3months completed

Slowly 6 months

Later 9 months

Still I don't feel anything for pooja

Starting she tried to Give a chance but I always used to remember Amrutha so later she too didn't bother much

On a fine day I saw pooja walking like a leg burnt cat

I nodded my head as I know this relationship cannot work

I understood her intentions and smiled at her for thinking alot

We both hugged eachother for thinking and taking a proper decision .

I don't know I felt very happy because than staying in a namesake relationship it's better to get rid of it

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Mess

A huge mess

I literally don't know what to say

I asked him in confusion if not because of his divorce then what is the reason behind it?

He calmly looked at me

Another shocker from him.I opened my mouth in shock

I know someday I need to explain him but sudden confrontation caused me nervousness

Thick silence

Atmosphere turned to be very hot with confusions,confrontations,confessions

Past 7 years rolled infront of my eyes made my vision blur and I lost my breathe at the thought of my life in his absence

Don't know what I'm saying but I started puking my saliva

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