'oh, hey amber.' i said opening the door.

'what's with you?' she asked, immediately noticing that i was upset.

'something just happened between me and him, but it's not that deep.' i said, trying to avoid giving her something to worry about.

'well i think i might be able to cheer you up girl.' she said, obviously trying to contain her excitement.

'i don't think so, amber, not today, but thanks for looking out for me.' i smiled weakly.

'y/n, just shut up and listen to me right now.'

'wow, okay.' i said, surprised.

'remember how you told me about how you missed natalia and you wished that you could speak to her again?' she said.

'well, i guess so, yeah?' i answered, confused as to how this was relevant.

'get in here.' i heard amber whispered under her breath.

the next thing i knew, natalia was standing by amber's side at the doorstep, giving me an uncertain half-smile.

'you're kidding...' i whispered, stepping back.

'hey, y/n...' nat squirmed nervously.

i instantly threw myself into her arms, squeezing her until my muscles were sore.

'i'm so glad you're here.' i whispered to her, conscious of how perfect the timing of her arrival was, considering i needed someone to talk to right now.

'i've missed you so much, i'm so so sorry about everything, it was just that my mom-'

'no,' i interrupted, 'you don't owe me an explanation, i forgive you. come in, come in.'

i mouthed an excited 'thank you' towards amber, and let nat inside.

'i'll be back in an hour or so.' amber laughed and walked away.

'where's mattia?' said nat, as i sat down beside her on the couch.

'he's upstairs. it's a whole thing.' i rolled my eyes.

'no shit, dude, spill.' she said, our vibes reconnecting already.

'to cut a long story short, we fucked, i'm pregnant, we decided to keep the baby and he just yelled at me because i didn't wanna do anything sexual.' i blurted out.

'woah- you said all of that as if it was nothing, y/n, jesus.' she said.

'it's crazy, i know.' i responded.

'well does he know about all the shit that happened with your dad?' she asked, cautiously.

'yeah, that's the worst part.'

'damn bruh, the fuck is wrong with him?' she said.

'i kinda felt bad though, he said that he felt like i didn't love him anymore.'

the word 'love' seemed to make her slightly uncomfortable, i had forgotten about everything to do with the outside world.

'oh.. maybe you should cut him some slack then. he obviously didn't have the wrong intentions. i think if you guys just talked it out it'd be dealt with quick.'

'your probably right.' i said.

'when am i ever wrong though?' she replied.

the rest of the hour we spent together went past like seconds.

we spoke about how her mom was slowly getting better and how apparently mattia and i had become the base of almost every conversation at school.

we hugged and said bye to each other, natalia wished me luck at court and i watched amber's car drive away until it was out of sight.

i sighed contently, i was in a good mood and i figured it would probably be the best time to take nat's advice and speak to mattia.

i assumed that mattia was napping, so when i reached the room and pushed the door open quietly, finding mattia knocked out in bed, confirming my assumption.

i sat on the edge of the bed and reached over, stroking the side of his face in attempt to wake him.

'mattia, baby, wake up.' i whispered.

he flinched a little bit before opening his eyes.

'y/n?' he groaned, rubbing his eyes.

after opening his eyes properly and seeing me, he rushed to start speaking.

'listen, y/n, i'm so so sorry for yelling at you. it was so shitty of me to do that, especially knowing what you've been through. everything i said during that conversation was insensitive and inconsiderate and i'm really sorry and i just- can you please find it in your heart to forgive me because i don't think i can last a second longer with you being mad at me.' he said, frantically.

'mattia, i forgive you.' i said, causing him to release a huge sigh.

'i just need you to understand how much i love you. like, take your love for me, and multiply it by a thousand.' i assured him.

'fucking impossible.' he said.

'i am a complete simp for you.' i stated.

'oh really?' he smiled.

'on god.' i said.

'well i would die for you, that's how in love with you i am.' he said.

'oh really?' i smiled.

'on god.' he said.