I've learned that the compliments that leave their lips, just feel like pity to my corrupted mind now.

What can I do? They made "I'm proud of you" sound like a vow.

They say I lost weight, but never asked how.

No one asks how you do it, all they do is stare.

Everytime I walk outside and I inhale the air,

And I wish I wasn't there, and I know life isn't fair, but I wish someone would care.

They don't ask why I go into the toilet after every tiny "meal".

Or why I feel how I feel or why my limbs are so skinny, it's unreal.

They don't ask why I haven't eaten in days,

All they do is gaze and praise.

They don't see my hair falling out of my scalp in the shower,

Or how much dry lips always taste sour,

But instead they praise my willpower.

And all I can do is continue and stare,

And ask myself "Why don't they care?"

11th January 2022