I feel like nobody wants me,

I wish they'd see me for who I want to be.

But all that they all see is 'she',

Makes me feel like ripping out my teeth, one, two, three.

No one ever praises me, they say I'm okay,

If they knew what I do, would they still feel the same way?

I tried to push my troubles away,

But no matter what I do, they always stay.

Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe through my lungs,

Feels like I'm dying and speaking in tongues.

Cause I can't explain my grudges,

So instead I try to judge his.

Slice away the skin on my legs,

Then aid them, pull out my needle y threads.

Cutting away the suffocating webs,

Tearing my flesh into shreds.

Sometimes I ask myself, am I sick?

Then I realize, my heart's made of bricks.

Feeling like I'm worthless, a prick,

I'm slowly dying as the clock ticks.

Look at me, do you think that I'm strange?

Would you like me to change?

I wish my thoughts were something I could rearrange,

Then I wouldn't wonder about people my age.

I wish someone would appreciate my work,

Every night I write until my knuckles hurt.

I hate all my attitudes and quirks,

Cause they make everyone icked and shirk.

Daydreams flood my stupid brain,

These thoughts feel like a heavy chain.

I'm terrified of judgement again.

I feel like jumping toward a train,

Cause my relationships never ever remain.

June 21st 2022