"" I asked her suddenly. I could feel myself slip away, into some desiring feeling.

"" Lily asked me. I finally snapped back out of that controlling state and shook my head.

I feel so stupid right now, I let myself get lost in pleasure.

"" I leaned up and got off of her.

"" Lily confessed.

"" I told her and went to stood up, Lily griped my wrist and I looked back.

"" Lily looked into my eyes, I nodded and sat back down, waiting for her to speak.

"" Lily chuckled lightly. It was like she became the adult now instead of me.

""

I felt like I was going to cry, she was so good with words, how she spoke so calm and softly.

""

I felt a tear rolled down my cheek. I felt so touched by her strong words. Each word that fell from her lips were her own feelings, how she can talk so freely with me about it.

Every doubt that I once had about not having her trust, faded away within the moment.

Lily smiled and wiped the tears from my cheeks, giving me a peck on my lips.

"" I told her in a weak voice.

"" Lily chuckled softly and hugged me.

I wrapped my arms around her tightly and closed my eyes. I could feel her heartbeat, beating at a beautiful rhythm.

"" Lily broke from the hug and kissed my head. I nodded and stood up from the bed as she put her shirt back on.

This time was a mistake, I need to learn to control my actions. Even though she gave me her consent, it still didn't feel right.

To me, if I lose her trust...I will lose her. I'll make sure to never lose her trust in me.

Lily waved her hand in front of my face, I looked up with a confused expression, I must have spaced out while thinking.

"" She asked me. I nodded and smiled softly, Lily also smiled back and took my hand to drag me down the stairs.

***

"" Lily spoke before taking a bite of the pancakes she made for breakfast.

I looked up to her and raised my eyebrow, wanting an explanation for the sudden statement.

"" Lily giggled mischievously.

"" I asked, at least trying to get some information.

""

"" I pouted.

She thought for a minute and the giggled.

"" Lily sang out. It made me more confused, was it a karaoke bar?

"" I asked. She shook her head and giggled.

""

"" I asked. She was killing me with the curiosity.

"" Lily chuckled and ate the rest of her food. I sulked and ate my food in annoyance. I wanted to know more about this devious plan she has.

"" Lily nudged my shoulder while taking our plates out. I hurried to drink the rest of milk and clean my glass out, placing it in the sink.

""

"" Lily interrupted me.

"" I said and trapped her between my arms that were leaning on the edge of the counter, leaning close to her.

"" Lily counter-argued.

Ugh why is she so propelling?

"" I pointed my finger at her while she smirked. I walked up the bedroom in defeat.

I still cant figure out her surprise. It's eating me up inside.