❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

Chapter 19

|Ink and feelings|

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The waves of beauty move in motion as my eyes cannot break from that sight that is right in front of me and I don't think that I want to anyway. There is a sense of calm when I watch the ocean from the newly built dock. My feet are in the water and even when it's slightly cold, and I'm shivering, I find that I like it here. There is a soft breeze but it is so small that I can barely feel it. My hair is moving side to side a little but not too much.

I let out the most quiet sigh of happiness as I stare out into the ocean. It holds more beauty than I could even fathom and my eyes are unable to do it justice. There is a bright smile on my face as I breathe in the scent of the ocean and allow the calm to take over me. It's so sweet when it's everywhere in my body, and it brings me this happiness which is strange but at the same time I like it. When I think about it, I don't think that the ocean even knows that I'm here and with my feet swaying in the water.

And if it does then it does not make any signs that tell me that it is aware of it. I think that the ocean and the water is alive, and I think that it has this power that we don't even realize. Maybe people will never believe me, but that does not even matter and nor do I care for that since all I care for is I believe it and I believe that the ocean is breathing, and it dances. The waves are dancing and showing us that it is truly alive.

I hear the door open and close and I don't even need to turn my head to know that Silas is walking over to me. I feel a blanket being wrapped around me and I turn my head to the side and then up to look at him, and he gives me a warm smile. "I don't want you to get cold" He only says as he sits down next to me. "Says the one that's only dressed in a t-shirt and sweatpants" I say, and he chuckles and gives me yet another smile.

I can never get enough of his smiles and the voice as well, she as well as I love watching him smile and there are times that I wish I could keep him smiling forever and that is what I plan on doing. Making him happy and making him smile with happiness and glee is what I want, and I want him to only show it to me. "You're precious, you know that?" He asks me as he wraps his hand around me and pulls me to his side and I lay my head on his shoulder.

"I thought I was different" I say, and he laughs, and I join in as well. He takes my hand into his and holds it and I feel like everything is perfect. It has been a month since we were reunited once again and life has been nothing but happiness which I do like. We have been together every single day and done so much together. Still, we were limited by the fact that I am still injured but with each passing day I can move a bit more and while it's still healing, I find that I'm much better than I was before.

I can walk now and even when it slightly does bring me comfort, I do like it. I can't swim yet as I will need to wait for some time more until I can do that which is why Silas built the dock (as there wasn't any before, it had been destroyed some years prior in a storm) for me. Where I can sit and enjoy the ocean. Every single day I spend at least an hour here and just enjoy the ocean and all the beauty that it can bring to the world and each day I'm always surprised of the grace that it holds.

"You are. Just precious as well. Leanna, you are the whole world to me and nothing on this earth can change that" He says, and I smile. My heart is melting from his words and just him in general. He makes me feel things that I could never have felt with anyone else and neither do I want to. I love these feelings that only Silas can make me feel. "And you are my whole world" I say, but I hear that the voice in my head is not happy about that. You love Silas just as much as I do so you don't have anything to say in that matter.

The sun is slowly going down and the sky is changing to all these different colors and this is magnificent to watch. To have that in front of me every single day never seems to stop amazing me and I always stare at it with awe. I feel Silas' eyes on me as mine are glued to the sky and the pretty sight that I see, and I find that the blush is rising to my cheeks. "You're missing the beauty" I tell him, but I don't look at him.

Silas only holds me tighter. "I'm looking straight at her" He says to me and the blush only deepens to the point where I think it is the same colors as blood itself, and I'm so red. Though that feeling is one that I like because he is making em feel this way. I lean closer in for his touch and hold his hand tighter. Wanting to be so close to him and never let go again, this is how I feel every single day. I never want to part from the man that I love ever again.

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"You really think this is a good idea?" Trina asks me as I'm almost dragging her to the car. "Positive" I tell her with a smile. I get into the passenger seat, and she gets into the driver seat. But, she doesn't start the car. "This isn't one of your ideas that your going back out of, is it?" She asks me, unsure of this and I shake my head. "I'm going to do this. I need to do this" I tell her, and she gives me a smile, but I can tell that she's not sure about this at all.

That's just her opinion, but I want to do this. I found out that in a week's time it's going to be Silas' birthday and I want to something meaningful for him since everyone tells me that he hates his birthday. Which I don't even understand because birthdays are the best. Now, I want do something nice for him since he's always doing something for me and I don't want to give him something stupid that he won't like. No, I wanted to something so meaningful to him so that he will love me even deeper.

I'm going to get a tattoo. For him. Every single tattoo that he has means something to him, it means a great deal to him. Even got my name tattooed on his chest where his heart would be. He had told me that I'm the reason why his heart beats and the love he holds for me is too great. Now, I want to do something for him. Maybe it's insane but who needs to be sane and have sane ideas because the ones who have the insane ideas are the best kinds of people and I do like them.

Trina starts the car, but I can tell that she's driving slower than normally to make sure that I think this through, she does not agree with this, but this is what I want to do. The voices agree with me. They like Silas and if they didn't then I would just tell them that this is my choice and I want this. I barely go out into the town, but I do like it when I go there, it is beautiful. Though, Silas doesn't like it when I'm not there with him because then we're away from each other.

Silas is in a meeting which he has been going to every single day. I'm not allowed to go there yet but Trina often goes but not always though, I think it has something to do with Ace. There is something going on between the two of them, but I have no clue what that is. Neither Silas nor Trina want to tell me what takes place in those meetings but said that one day I will be ready to attend one, so I just wait for that to happen. Besides, I don't like sitting in a boring meeting for hours that never end.

I watch the town with awe in my eyes as this town never seems to stop amazing me with its beauty. I don't come here that often but when I do I can't help but admire everything as if I were seeing it for the first time. "I can always drive back, you know that?" She asks me. "At any time I can go back, and you don't have to do this" He adds, but I roll my eyes. "I want to do this" I tell her. For some time now I've been thinking of what I could do to make his birthday the best one.

That way he will be able to understand why birthdays are amazing, and it took some time for me to think about it, but I found the perfect thing. A tattoo. It is what I want and no one is going to be able to stop me. This is not just meaningful to him but for me as well. I don't only want to do this to please the man I love, I want to do this because I want to. I want this. I chose this.

And not even Silas and his love will be able to stop me because this is my choice and this is my body. I can do what I want with my body, I'm old enough, and I'm strong enough to handle this. "I don't want you to go through all of that pain and then regret it and go through even more pain to remove it" She says, but I shake my head. "I won't regret it. Not now nor ever" I tell her. She doesn't know what kind of a tattoo I want, but I already have an idea in mind.

It's going to be perfect, and I'm going to enjoy every second that I have it on because it will remind me of the good times and the love that we hold. Trina lets out a sigh. Knowing that I'm right. "What is happening with you and Ace? And don't say nothing because I know that there is something going on between the two of you" I ask her as I look at her. She really freezes at my question, but I can't tell what her look is telling me, but there is this small pain in her eyes.

Pain that is barely there, but I can see it. I want to know why? If Ace is hurting her then I will do great things to him, to show him to never mess with those that I care for. I will make him feel more pain than he has ever felt in his life. "I don't know" She answers me after some while of silence and I could see that she was thinking about it. I raise an eyebrow at her, but she doesn't notice it since her eyes are on the road ahead of her.

"I think that you like him, and he likes you" I tell her, but she shakes her head. "That's impossible. He's just... ugh... he's a player" She finally says, but I let out a giggle. "You still like him" I state, and she sighs. Trina is not hard to see through, and I know that she has taken a liking towards him. Though, it's a bit hard to see if he likes her, but I know that he does. I can read his body language, and he's always trying to be near her and touching her in any way that he can when he gets the chance.

"I think he likes you as well. Men are always so long at realizing their feelings because they think that they should not have feelings, but that's not true. Men can have feelings and they can feel. Once he understands what he feels inside then he will see that he does like you. And I do hope that someday it will go deeper than that" I say to her. I notice that there is a smile on her face, perhaps because she does like him and likes the idea of him liking her as well.

"Where almost there. Last chance to turn around" Trina says and changes the subject rather quickly Possibly doesn't want to talk about it but one day she won't want to stop talking about her feelings and the love that feels inside. I would know because I do love Silas and I just want to tell the world that I love him and I want them to know just how I feel for him. I giggle. "I'm not going to change my mind, I'm doing this" I tell her and she once again let's out a sigh, but I just laugh.

"I'm beginning to think that it's impossible to change your mind when you want something" She says, and I have a proud smile on my face because that is the truth. What she doesn't know that Silas is the only one that can ever change my mind about anything, and he is the one that can make me see reason, but he's not here, and I'm doing this. Even if I will regret it someday, I know that I want this now. "That's right" I tell her with that same smile while she rolls her eyes.

She parks the car in front of the tattoo store with the oddest name; Ink. It's just that one word can it can reflect to so many, but I have to say that this building is not what I had in mind when I thought of a tattoo artist store, I think that this one is classy and the building does look like it has newly been built and finished. We get out of the car, but I can tell that she's nervous to be here, but I'm exited, and then we walk inside the building itself and I can't even hold in my excitement anymore for this is going to be great.