❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

Chapter 23

|Mole in the house|

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I go behind Silas and I take the gun that he wears which I knew where was since I love it when he carries his guns, unfortunately I'm not allowed to carry a gun, yet. Soon I will be able to, and it's going to be fantastic because I'm going to shoot people. Not those that I care about, or maybe I will if we disagree, or I just don't feel like talking to them. I point the gun at the man and shoot him in the chest, where he falls dead on the ground.

It's sad really how someone has to clean this up from my office. Silas looks at me with a questionable look. "What? Who is to say that he was not the mole. He did throw someone else under the bus, we can't take any changes that he will say something about us" I tell him, and he sharply nods. I can see in his eyes that he's angry, and he's ready to kill. I love that look on him. It makes me just want to take him to bed and kiss him and touch him and make him feel things that he's never felt before.

Though he does put his hand out, and I roll my eyes when I set the gun in his hands. "Next time wait to kill them after I've interrogated them" He says, but I just give him a smile. 'He's right, you know. It's better to kill them after watching them be tortured for some time. And we love it when Silas is bloody and angry and ready to kill anyone that he sees' The voice in my head says. I will say that I agree with that voice, but I will not admit that I did make a mistake because I know that I did not.

He deserved to die, perhaps not if he was the mole but because he entered my office and the worst of all he interrupted our session which is the biggest crime that anyone can commit, and he did deserve to die for that reason alone. I don't really care if he was this mole or not. "Leanna, you are to go to our room and stay there. Is that understood?" He asks me as he looks at me in the eyes, his face softening when he does so. I take a step closer to him.

"But, I don't want to leave you" I say to him, it's true, I don't. Without him, I will find myself go to places that I'd rather not, and I will not become calm, quite the opposite. "It's the safest for you, I don't want you to get hurt" He says, but I roll my eyes. "I won't get hurt because I have you and besides if anyone were to hurt me, I would just shoot them. I know of your other gun hiding places" I tell them. Right now he's carrying about a dozen or so guns on him.

How he is able to keep that many guns on him is beyond me, and I've tried to find them all, but I've not been able to, I have no clue on how he does it or why. But, I do know some and most of those places and I don't think that's I want to know the other ones. Silas lets out a sigh. "All right. You are to stay by my side the entire time. Do not stray from me and I don't want you to do anything. Only I can handle these men" He tells me.

I smile at him and nod. I don't know why he's so worried, but I suppose that is just who he is, always worrying about me and I love him even more for it. I go on my toes and kiss his cheek. "What was that for?" He asks me. "Nothing, I just wanted to kiss the man that I love" I tell him. He may be trying to hide it, but there is some red in his cheeks which is caused because of. He loves me. I know this. He has not only told me that he loves me, but he has showed me.

Silas would do anything and everything for me, and he has done so much for me, he saved me from Adam, and he makes me feel who I want to be, this is who I am and who I wish to be, and he does not tell me to be someone else, he wants me to be me. 'What about me?' The voice asks me. You are me, so he does allow you to be who you are as well. I don't know, it's confusing so don't ask. She chuckles in my head.

"When all of this is over, I will find the right time to set you on our bed and make love to you all night long" He whispers to me and pulls me closer to his body. My heart is eager for that to happen as it races inside my chest, knowing that he's touching me, and I'm close to him. My whole body shivers when he speaks, and I simply can't wait for that. I need him more than I have ever needed anyone in my life, and soon it will be the right time.

I give him a smile. "I can't wait" I say to him, and he leans in and takes my lips into his and kisses me. It's rough and possessive e but at the same time I find that it is gentle, and he is making sure that I know whom I belong to, and I do belong to him. There is no questioning that. I am his and he is mine. It's just a fact that no one will ever be able to change. When we break the kiss the two of us walk the hallway. "Where are we going?" I ask him.

"Towards the sounds" He tells me, and it is only then that I start listening, and I do hear these weird sounds, almost as if people are yelling. Silas chuckles. "Don't worry, I'm right here with you. They will not touch you and if they do I will kill them" He speaks, and I giggle. He won't be able to if I do it first. No one but those that I care for can touch me. We walk then hallway and the sounds only get louder and louder, I realize that it are yells and screams but laughter as well, but I think even anger.

I have no idea what is happening, but I get the feeling that I'm about to find out. We are waking towards the side of the house that Silas told me I'm not allowed to go to because he said that it would not be safe and there are dangerous people there but have they ever met me? I'm probably more dangerous than all of them combined. Trina once said that I was sometimes worse than Silas, I have no idea what that means, but I know it's good, I think at least.

We come across double doors when he turns to me. "In here there are going to be swear words, anger, death and loud noises. Are you absolutely sure that you want to go in there?" He asks me as he holds my hand and kisses it. All I do is nod my head and smile at him. "Yes, I want to be a part of your world and this is your world. I love you, Silas. And being in love means that we do everything together. No matter how ugly it can get" I say to him.

Even my own heart is melting here for this was so sweet. I do want to know his world. There are times that I feel sad because I don't know him, fully that is. I've not seen him in his full self and I want to know that part of him. It is who he is and I love him. I don't care for anything else but him and there is nothing that he has to prove to me to make me love him because I love him so much. I love him more than I can ever say in words.

"All right. Do not leave my side" He says, and I nod. He eats go of my hand as he opens the door. Inside, the noises are even louder but as soon as the doors open the noises begin to silence, and it is not before long that the whole room has gone silent. I stare at so many people, mostly men but there are some women in here. I don't know any of them, but I knew that already. All of their eyes are on us, on me for some really stare reason, but I think that can only be because they don't know me.

It's rather uncomfortable to have their eyes on me and watching my every move. It would be so embarrassing if I were to trip and fall right now. But, if that were to happen I can always count on that Silas will catch me. He's the one that is always going to catch me if I were to fall, and I love him deeper for it. He's there for me when I need someone. And now I'm here for him when he needs me. I'm here only for him and no one else.

Silas and I walk through the room until we reach this platform, why is there a platform in a house? I realize them quickly that this is a ballroom of some sort. I never truly realizes just how big this house really is, and it always amazes me. Of course, it has a ballroom since it does have secrete passageways, this house does have everything that everyone needs and more than that even. When Silas stands there I stand beside him, a bit behind but still beside him and I look at the people in the room, there are a lot of them.

It does not take long until I notice that some of them are bloody and some of them have been beat up. 'They're trying to find the mole' The voice in my head tells me. I wonder if this is going to work for them because I don't think beating people up will work, however what do I know? I would just shoot them. Silas stands there for some seconds and looks over the crowd of people that are so silent that it feels like their mouths have been sewed together for the oddest reason as none of them makes any sort of sounds.

That is quite uncomfortable. "A mole?! I have been informed that there is a mole among us!" Silas' voice booms all over the place. It is clear to me that they do respect him, and he's the boss. It honestly makes me so proud of him to see him stand there and address the crowd. I, along with everyone else can see. The anger inside of him that is ready to strike at anyone that disobeys. "I have dealt with many moles through the years, all of them are dead now and everything they stand for has been buried to the ground along with their must mutilated corpses!" Silas speaks.

He's angry, and he's about to snap at someone, I love it. Seeing him like this only makes me want him even more. I can't stare at the crowd anymore because my only attention is at Silas. Sometimes I feel as though he is the siren that has lured me down under but at the same time I want him to lure me, I want him to drag me down to the bottom and do whatever he wants with me. My body, heart and soul is his and his alone and he can do whatever he wants, I allow him to.

His words I see do inspire fear in these people and I find myself impressed by that. He can speak to these people, and they are just afraid, even if his words are not that frightening at all. They are quite nice. "We shall be going into lockdown, where no one leaves until they have been verified. Your rooms will be turned over, and we will search everything. No one can hide anything from me. And when I find the mole...!" He speaks but then stops.

He turns his head to look at me and I give him a small smile after I notice that he's asking me for something, I don't know what it is, but I will gladly give it to him. "I will fucking destroy them!" He speaks so loud and with so much anger inside his voice that even I am taken aback by his tone, but I do not show it. I've never seen him like this, and I think I'm starting to like it. This is who he is or another part of him and I accept it.

The people are however afraid of him and his tone and his anger, and they should be. There are things that he can do that are not pretty, I would know because there are times that I will do things that are not pretty and besides I'm his therapist. I know things that perhaps not that many people know about him and I know that he has dark sides but who in this world does not have dark sides? "What about her?!" Someone from the crowd calls out and all eyes are on me. "What if she is the mole?" The same person asks me I glare at them.

I'm ready to just end their lives right now. I think Silas feels the same way as I notice even from beside him that he's looking angry, and he's ready to kill. Before he could do anything I step forward as the voice is starting to take over me. "The mole is always the one that begins to accuse others!" She speaks. "Is that that right, Blaze or shall I say Karl" She speaks. All eyes are going between the two of us as I jump down from the platform and land on the floor.

I slowly begin to walk over to him with a smirk on my face. Not caring how people are looking at me. "Oh... I know all about you Karl Robertson, how you ran away after murdering a police officer, wanted and alone Silas took you in, and you have been working for him ever since" She speaks, and she is angry. She walks close to him to the point where I see that he's afraid. The voice is controlling me and I like it. "If you're afraid of him then you will be petrified of me" I speak with darkness in my voice, her darkness.