You slowly wake up, feeling a warm breeze against your neck. You rub your eyes to make yourself wake up before opening them up completely.

You look up from the bed to your small balcony through the glass door to see the sun shining bright in the blue sky with beautiful white with a little bit of faded grey clouds scattered around the sky, as some of the clouds were forbidden to be away from each other or force to.

You take your eyes away from the scenery and look down to your hands to see your small hands in large warm and soft hands as both arms are wrapped around your waist. You softly smile as once you and jungkook talked out about each others feelings, just genially speaking the truth, you both went to your place and had a sleep over.

Both you and jungkook were having a good time as you both played hide and go seek, pillow fighting, dance competition even though the two of you just goofed around.

And here you are now, in jungkooks arms. Your thoughts get interrupted by movement. Jungkook still being asleep, wraps his arms around your waist more tightly, bringing your bodies more closer than it should.

You turn over the side as you stare at jungkooks peacefully state. You move your right hand and move his bleached silky hair to the side, to see his forehead. You trace over his soft perfectly shaped eyebrows before moving your fingertips to his eyes, tracing underneath his closed doey eyes. Your eyes move to stare at all of his cute moles that was placed on his face.

You slightly and gently poke them one by one, first on his cheeks, then his mole under his lips. And before you can take away your hands, a hand grabs your wrist.

You jump slightly and look at jungkook as he slowly opens his eyes, his doey brown eyes are now open as a small and soft smile is placed on his pink lips. "I know I'm pretty and beautiful but I didn't want to be waked up like that." He muffled but with a tad of rasp in it before his smile is replaced with a small pout, you giggle before maybe knowing what he wants.

You move closer to his face as you begin to give soft pecks on each mole on his face. His pout is long gone as he smiles, a small bunny smile in display. "Wasn't expecting that but that was better." He says as he leans to your face, pecking your lips. You roll your eyes at him.

"Hey doey eyes, we ain't together to be kissing on my lips, you gotta earn that." You playfully say as jungkook pouts. "But yesterday you let me kiss you." He says in a small voice. "Aw, your such a baby." You say with a small smile as it was cute that jungkook was being all pouty.

You playful boop his nose as jungkook smiles before he hides his face into your neck with his arms still wrapped around your waist, you roll your eyes with a smile as you hold him back while running your left hand into his soft hair as your fingers tips massage his scalp. Jungkook hums into your neck in approval that he's enjoying it.

"Don't worry tiny, I'll earn that kiss and you will be mine." You stop running your hands before you flick his forehead, jungkook whines as he pulls away, rubbing his forehead. "What was that for?" He says. "Bold of you to assume that I'll say yes to you." You day with a grin. Jungkook smirks. "Oh I know you will tiny." He says with confidence.

You snort. "What makes you think that?" You ask. "Because you like me." He says.

"Nope."

"Yup."

"Nop-" he interrupts you as he begins to tickle you. You stare at him still unfazed, while trying to hold in your laughter. "Your not ticklelish?!" He says with wide eyes. You shake your head. "Aw man." He says with a pout. You burst into laughter at his failed attempt to make you laugh.

"No wonder it's so hard to make you laugh." He says while rolling his eyes. You give him a smile while shrugging your shoulders. "Also what are you doing with me being in your arms?" You say with a glare as he gives you a grin.

"Well you see little one, I kinda tend to sleep walk and-" you instantly interrupt him. "Your making up lies huh? You liar. We literally played rock, paper and scissors to see how will sleep on the bed and who will sleep on the floor or couch you dingo head." Jungkook flashes you his toothy smile. "That won't work on me bunny boy." Jungkook shrugs before slowly getting up.

"Well at least I tried." He lastly say before he begins to run out the room, away from you. You instantly follow behind him while calling out names.

"Just you wait for your funeral doey eyes!" You shout out loud as Jungkook begins to laugh while the both of you run around the house the minute you guys were down stairs.

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After you had tackled jungkook to the ground and tickled him, you were now going to take a shower as jungkook decided to lick your face.

Ew.

"Aye tiny! I'm on my way out okay?" Jungkook shouts out loud on the other side of the bathroom door as you were under the water. You instantly shout back at him through the bathroom, still under the water. "And where do you think your going biker boy? I'm not finish with you!" You say while rinsing your hair out.

"Um you do know I got a life right? I'm going to the gym tiny pants." Jungkook says while a chuckle leaves his mouth. You roll your eyes. "Mhm, alright twiggy." You say with a grin as you wait for jungkook response. "Twiggy?!!! You must be blind since you haven't seen this dic-"

"Yah! We don't talk about that in this house hold young man!" Jungkook begins to burst out laughing on the other side of the door. "I'm joking, well maybe not but call me buffy princess." You roll your eyes with a smile.

"In your dreams twiggy." You lastly say as you both say goodbye.

After finishing a shower as I check the time to see that amber was off at work. I smile.

While working out, all I did was only thinking about her and maybe I didn't even realized that I was smiling like an idiot but I didn't care.

I like her.

And I'm pretty glad that she feels the same despite we'll might get hurt in the end but I was willing to get hurt rather than waste time and live in regret.

I put on a grey hoodie with grey sweat pants before I was already on my way heading out the door.

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I park my car before turning off the engine and locking it behind me. As I head closer to your door, I see it was cracked open while it was pitch black in the inside, I begin to panic as I thought something bad might of happened.

I quickly rush into the door and turn on the lights and as I did, I instantly feel something soft but rubbery hit my forehead, I look on the ground to see it was a nerf gun bullet. I look up and see you behind the couch, as if you were protecting yourself from a shooting but with your beautiful toothy smile while the orange and blue nerf gun was in your hands.

I felt as my heart was beginning to warm up more than it should as if it was going to burst out of my chest as I'm not use to seeing your angelic smile but it was something I was willing to try to see while I can.

I smirk at you as I look to the couch to see there was another nerf gun, I quickly take my shoes off before jumping over the couch and take the nerf gun into my hands as I begin to shoot at you. You squeal before trying to run away, trying to find somewhere else to shelter yourself from me.

Both of our stomps from our feet were tangled with our laughs as you run away from me before you would try to turn around and shoot at me with every chance you get, as we both ran out of bullets, we both smile at each other before I tackle us to the ground, I hover over you and your amber eyes were already staring back at me with the light and glow that I came to miss.

But now I got to see it again.

I lean more closer to your face as I close my eyes while I peck a gentle kiss onto your forehead. I pull away and open my eyes to see your cheeks have redden.

"Im going to kill you pretty boy." I smirk at your words. "Like to see you try princess." You roll your eyes with a smile.

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You walk out with your guitar as we both wanted to go under the sky and get lost into the stars, just wanting to be stress free or not be sheltered into our thoughts.

You sit next to me with a small smile but it look sad.

"What's wrong?" I ask worriedly. You look at me with your amber eyes. "I can trust you right?" I furrow my brows worriedly before slowly nodding my head. You give me a small smile as a sigh leaves your lips.

"Well this guitar is my mother's. She would always play the guitar to me and Johnny so we can sleep peacefully at night." You say while looking down onto the guitar with a small smile, gently tracing your finger tips on the guitar strings.

"Wait amber..." I say gently as you slowly look up at me. "You don't have to tell me soon you know? You can tell me when your ready to." You flash me a small smile. "I need to talk it out loud besides, I always wondered why we went to jeju island, not that I regret it or anything but I wanted to know why s-" I interrupt you.

"I saw tears in your eyes when we were on FaceTime, your not type to show emotions so I thought it was unordinary that you were about to cry. But I remember you telling me when we became best friends that if only I distracted you." You nod.

"And haven't you wondered why I was crying?" I nod. "Yes but I didn't want to question it because I don't want to force it out of you." You smile.

"Well you have the right to know as you helped me much more than you should have." I frown but you still give me your smile.

You smile as you hear beautiful rain pouring out the outside of your window. You stare at the small clear tears rolling down your bay window as fog clouded the clear glass windows, only able to see the blurring forest outside and see the close up tears eye to eye.

"Time to sleep am." You turn your head to look at the most beautiful angel as she walks towards your direction with her beautiful smile. "You love this bay window huh?" Your mother ask, you eagerly smile. Your mother smiles and then sigh as she sits on the other side of the bay window as you both hear a faint lighting.

"Come here." Your mother gently says, waiting for you to be in her embrace, you gladly accept it as you move closer to hear before your mother wraps her arms around you as she begins to smooth your head with her soft hands. "Remember what we always promise little one?" You nod in your arms.

"If something goes wrong tonight, Johnny is my top priority." You say while you look up at her to be met with her smile. "One day I'll be able to tell you everything when you get bigger okay? But come on, right now is time for bed." You nod as you pull away and stand up, your mother afterwards, before you can put your small tiny hands in her large ones, you hear panting.

You look up at your father to see he had tears in his eyes while looking worriedly at the both of you and your mother. Jonathan comes right behind him as small streams of tears fall down his cheeks, the minute he sees your mother, he smiles while putting his hand up, wanting to be carried.

"Their here." Was all your father say before you get force to turn to your mother to be met with tears in her eyes. "Why are you and daddy crying mommy?" You sadly ask as you move your hand up to wipe her tears away.

Your mother sadly smiles at you as before you can put your small hands down, she brings it back up to her cheek, placing one of her hands over yours and gently places it there as more tears begin to fall. "Remember the promise little one?" Your mother softly ask. You nod.

"Well that's what it's going to happen right now okay?" You frown as you begin to feel sad. "Mommy?" You ask as both your father and mother bring you and Jonathan into a hug.

"Hide with your brother okay?" You frown but nod. You bring your brother into your small arms and run inside the closet.

"We love you." Both your father and mother softly say and begin to close the closet door but before they can fully close it, you hear a loud thud as of something huge fell, through the crack, you can see both your mother and father look towards the living room, you look to see what they were looking at and watch as many people in police uniforms come in through the door.

In your arms, you begin to feel your brother shake in fear, letting you know he's about to cry, you silently and gently shush him while rocking the both of you and him as Jonathan begins to silently cry in your arms.

You look back into the crack to watch your parents get taken away and you have the urge of running out and yell at the police to stop.

But you remember the promise that you made with your parents...

So you watch as one of the police look into your room as they search around it, still not going into the closet.

You silently stay quiet with your brother in your arms, silently crying as you watch both of your parents get dragged away.

And once you can't seem them in your sight, that was when you changed. That was when you threw away your whole childhood and changed completely while the rain was still pouring outside, crying it's heart out, wanting to be heard.

"And so yea, every year on feb 20, that's the only day I cry on because even if I wanted to cry on that very day, I wanted to stay strong for my brother when he was crying in my arms. So it's now been 15 years since I've last seen them get taken away and I don't know the reason."

"And in that same night, I had to sing to my brother for him to sleep as once the police left, he cried out loud saying he wanted to see my mom and dad or where did they go but I didn't tell him because come on...he was just a four years old, he shouldn't have to see that kook." You say while you feel as you wanted to cry.

"So were you amber, you shouldn't have to throw away your childhood at a very young age." Jungkook says while bringing you into his arms. "Let it all out amber, you deserve to cry, don't hold it in, it's okay to cry, I won't judge you." That was it for it to take you to let it all out, you sob into jungkooks embrace as you try not to scream or hit your chest where your heart is.

"I wanted..to tell Jonathan jungkook...so many times but I couldn't bare to see him cry as I saw the more he grew up, the more he was happy. He even plays soccer just like my dad." You say between sobs. "Just like when he would play with my dad in the front yard."

"And on the very next day, I made me and my brother leave, I didn't bother putting on a coat while I made sure he put one on as he was my top priority and as we walked away from our house, hours of walking, we saw a near by hotel, and as we stopped there to take some shelter, I met my grandmother, not blood related but she was one to me but before she saw me all soaked and was worried, she was about to call the cops but I had to beg her to not to."

"And while me and Jonathan were planning on staying there for a night, I ended waking up every morning to help out around the hotel so we ended growing up in that hotel, but the more Jonatan was growing, i wanted him to learn and go to school so my grandmother helped me out with that as I dropped out of school to work despite I was too young." You say while you were forcing yourself to calm down.

"I'm- I'm so sorry you had to go through that but I won't pity you but I'm honestly glad that Jonathan had a sister like you." You pull away from jungkook to look up in his chocolate liked eyes. "You think? Am I hurting both of them for always putting them up first before me?" Jungkook sighs as he brings his hand up to wipe your tears but leaving his hand on your cheek.

"Well yes, they loved you for that but maybe the more the years went by, you lost yourself in the process, isolating yourself from others while you only focused on one goal. Which was your brother and your grandma." Jungkook says softly.

"Now look at me and breathe okay?" You nod as jungkook tells you to close your eyes.

"Now in and out okay? But slowly." You follow his directions.

You inhale and exhale a breath and repeat that process. When you had manage to calm down, you look up at jungkook and give him a smile. "Thank you." You say softly while wiping your last remaining tears. "No, thank you for telling me. You took a big step into trusting me, you are really brave enough to tell me something that you refused to tell anyone. So thank you for letting me slowly in." You give him a real soft smile.

You hesitantly and slightly raise your arms to hug jungkook, he notices and he instantly engulfs you into his arms as you wrap your arms around his neck.

You both stay still and quiet under the stars, just appreciating his warmth and presence. And your mind begin to wonder.

Are you really sure that letting jungkook slowly in was the right choice?

Because just for him listening to you and not pity you, helped you breathe for the first time. And now you wonder...

When will you be able to tell Jonathan about it? When will he be able to deserve the truth that he waited for years to know?

And if you were to tell him, would you be helping him or hurting him?

You didn't know what to do but you were hoping that you can be able to see your parents again, for Jonathan and your sake, that you were hoping nothing extremely bad has happened to them.

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Sorry loves, for the long chapter, forgive me.?^

Now we finally know about ambers past but hmmm....I wonder why her parents were taken away? 🤔

But besides that, what are your thoughts about this chapter, how are we feeling about it?

Welp that's it for now folks but stay tuned for more and I'll be right back with an update. :)

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