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It was early in the morning next day and Taehyung was walking to and fro in the living room, his face showing utter fear and worry.

He had seen Jungkook walking out of the house after coming down from the terrace late at night. The blonde was a little scared, the trapidatiion has him praying to God again and again to Keep Jungkook safe.

The clock stuck seven and the blonde walked into the kitchen to prepare breakfast for his son who would be going to school as it was Monday.

Taehyung prepared the breakfast somehow,his thought wandering to his husband every now and then and the tiredness wasn't helping at all. The blonde couldn't sleep all night after Jungkook left.

"Morning Mom!!" Taegguk's voice made the blonde look at his son, his sleepy, tired eyes made the brunette worried.

"What happened,Mom....you okay?" He asked checking Taehyung's temprature. The concern in Taegguk's voice and worry in his eyes made the blonde smile.

"Good morning to you too, baby....and don't worry, i am fine." He replied pulling the chair for Taegguk.

"Then why are you looking so tired?'' Taegguk asked holding Taehyung by his shoulder and making him sit on the chair after placing his bag on another seat.

"I woke up early to complete the p-painting." He lied stealing eyes from his son who took the excuse and sat beside his mother.

"You shouldn't overwork, Mom...Your health is important than anything else." He said picking up the plate and placing it in front of Taehyung.

"Yeah...I'll take care from next time." The blonde replied smiling.

"Where is Dad? Why isn't he here yet?" The brunette asked serving his mother who became nervous immediately. The brunette looked at his mother confused when Taehyung didn't reply.

"Something happened?" He asked getting serious.

"Uh...N-No...nothing happened. He had to go to office early so he left." The blonde lied. He didn't want his son to worry about his father in the school whole day instead of focusing on his studies.

"Oh...he didn't come to me before leaving? He never does that." Taegguk asked a little disheartened. Taehyung immediately shook his head and smiled hiding his hesitancy.

"Its not like that, Gguk.....he was in a hurry. He told me to tell you that he will make it upto you." The blonde lied, not wanting his son to think anything negative about his father.

"Oh-Okay.....''

''Mom?''

''Huh?'' Taehyung looked at his son confused.

''Why are not you eating?'' Taegguk asked looking at his mother observingly making the blonde nervous.

''Oh...I-Its nothing. I am not hungry right now s-so I'll eat later.''

''Bu-''

''You are getting late, Gguk!'' Taehyung didn't let his son complete his sentence making the brunette nod. As Taegguk drunk his milk, Taehyung again looked towards the door worriedly.

''I'll be going now, Mom.....I'll see you.'' Taehyung's attention was grabbed by his son making the blonde nod. The brunette kissed his mother on his cheek and left after saying an 'I love you'.

Some more hours passed increasing the blonde's anticipation. Some not so good images that flashed in his mind made the blonde restless. He only wanted to see his husband once but there was no sign of Jungkook.

As the clock stuck ten, doorbell rung making the blonde run towards the door immediately but his eyes widen when he saw Namjoon holding the ravenette to keep him in place. Jungkook looked so dishevelled with his hairs a complete mess, eyes drooping, hands lying lifeless to his sides, legs wobbling as he struggled to keep standing.

''H-Hyung.....What happened to him?'' he asked getting worried. Jungkook looked so dead.

''Nothing serious, Tae....he got drunk.''

''What?''

''Let me get him in first....I'll explain everything later.'' Namjoon replied smiling as he struggled to keep Jungkook from falling making the blonde nod.

''Hyung......Take me to myyyy Taeeeeee!!'' Jungkook slurred smiling like a bunny, eyes squinting just a little to look around. The blonde looked at his husband in disbelief. He was behaving like a kid.

''We are here Jungkook!'' Namjoon replied in a done tone.

''We here?'' the ravenette asked excitedly and looked around, trying his hardest to keep his sleepy eyes open and a wide smile appeared on his face as soon as his eyes landed on his beautiful husband.

''Taeee...I misshed you!'' He exclaimed, walking towards his husband but his legs wobbled and he almost fell but the blonde held him by his shoulder while Namjoon held Jungkook from other side.

''Jungkook......don't do that.'' Namjoon scolded the boy making the ravenette give him an eye smile. The boy rolled his eyes at the ravenette's extra cute behaviour. Taehyung took Jungkook's arm and placed it on his own shoulder as they walked towards the ravenette's room.

Jungkook looked at his husband and pulled the blonde more into himself making the blue eyed male gasp. He looked at his husband with wide eyes only to see Jungkook grinning at him.

''You are shooooo beautiful, Taehyungie!'' The ravenette commented out of nowhere. His compliment may have fluttered the blonde's heart but he didn't give any reaction.

''Tae!!''

No reply. The blonde was angry at his husband for some reason.

''Taetae!!''

Again no reply as Namjoon and Taehyung struggled to carry a muscle pig into his room.

''TAEEEEEE!!'' The ravenette cried stomping his feet like a kid making the blonde huff.

''WHAT?'' The blonde asked irritated only to get a sheepish smile from his husband.

''Jungkookie is sowwy!!'' He said cutely. The blonde looked at his husband in confusion as he struggled to understand why Jungkook was saying sorry to him out of sudden. The sadness behind the ravenette's smile made Taehyung feel so weak.

Namjoon looked at the two husbands and felt like he was invading their privacy so he cleared his throat making the blonde avert his eyes and look ahead, continuing to carry Jungkook to his room. Namjoon looked at the blonde blankly for a moment before smiling a little.

They somehow safely brought the muscular bunny to his room with Jungkook mumbling things every now and then that was making Taehyung even more angry.

First, the ravenette made him so worried.

And now, he was acting so sweet like nothing happened.

As if everything was fine!

"Me don't wanna sleeeeeeeppp!!" The ravenette protested when Namjoon and Taehyung tried to lay him on the bed.

"Jungkook....you will fall if you don't lay down!" Namjoon warned making the ravenette look at Taehyung with a smile but it disappeared and something more intense, more strong, more passionate made its way into Jungkook's eyes as he said the next words.

"I have already fallen!"

Taehyung felt like his heart had never thudded like it was right now, as if it was racing in a game to chase what he thought was unattainable. He forgot to breathe, too busy searching Jungkook's eyes but his trance broke when the ravenette almost lost his balance again.

Jungkook laughed in his drunken state while Namjoon and the blonde looked at him in disbelief.

"I told you....I have already fallen..." He chuckled again and sat onto the edge of the bed with a little difficulty.

"Jungko-"

"I am fine...am fine.... don't worry, i am fine....." The ravenette sing songed cutting the blonde in the middle when Taehyung tried to help him as Jungkook struggled to get into the duvets.

"Let me help you, Jungkook..." Taehyung asked helplessly,his eyes watering watching his husband struggling in his drunken state, his smile doing nothing to hide Jungkook's pain.

"I am f-fine, Taehyungie....I am really fine. Its not hurting, i swear....I am happy....I am not crying, its not hurting in my chest.... Don't worry! You go.....you are so tired....go and sleep" the ravenette replied still smiling.

Jungkook's words made the blonde's tears roll down his cheek. He didn't know what he should do right now, what he should feel right now. He was stuck between his heart and mind.

"Jungk-"

"Ohoo Tae....you are so stubborn. See, there are no tears on my face, see...i am smiling....why are you crying??" The ravenette asked looking at his husband with a playful scowl and it made Taehyung chuckle amid his tears.

Jungkook was looking so cute right now with his lips jutted out in a pout.

"Let me cover yo-"

"No...I'll do it myself" Jungkook snatched the covers from the blonde in urgency making Taehyung look at his husband wide eyed.

The ravenette smiled sheepishly, showing his front teeth but it didn't make the blue eyed boy feel better.

"Am a big boy, Taehyungie!!"

"Jungkook...let him help you...you are drunk!!" Finally after witnessing the scene in front of him, Namjoon couldn't control himself from scolding the ravenette who looked at his Hyung with a pout.

Namjoon rolled his eyes and sighed in defeat.

He was tired of watching Jungkook throwing tantrums since the moment he walked into that bar.

The ravenette looked at his husband through his hooded eyes, immediately feeling bad watching the blonde crying silently with his head hung low.

"Sorry...." Apology left the ravenette's mouth making Taehyung look at him. The innocent doe eyes of Jungkook made the blonde feel so helpless.....he desperately wanted to bring back the bright shine in them.

Those brown eyes looked so empty without their usual glint.

"Shut up!" The blonde scolded his husband and took the covers from his hands. Jungkook didn't protested, he let his husband take care of him but his eyes never left the blonde's face.

''You are worried, Tae?'' Jungkook asked suddenly, his voice getting husky towards the end making it hard for Taehyung to not look at Jungkook.

The eye contact made Jungkook's heart roar in his ears, his eyes getting soft, desperate to hear a yes from his husband.

Last night, after Taehyung left him on the terrace, the boy had cried until his tears dried, the heartache was too much to handle for him. The self loathing made the ravenette feel so angry at himself that he felt like he will do something with himself in order to punish his careless self.

When he couldn't take it anymore, he left the house and crashed at a bar thinking alcohol will make him numb to the pain he was feeling inside. In last seventeen years, he hadn't even looked towards alcohol but today, he felt like he will die if he didn't drink.

They say alcohol is the bestest friend of one who is breaking from inside, who is letting his soul die day by day, for a person who realised that he lost everything.....there is nothing else in this world that can make him feel better than the relief Alcohol provides by making your mind, heart and soul numb to every emotion.

''You s-should sleep...You are tired.'' Taehyung replied changing the topic but Jungkook held his hand and pulled him closer making the blonde fall onto the bed and half hover over his husband.

Namjoon looked around himself awkwardly.''I'll wait for you outside, Tae...'' He said and left but Taehyung was too lost in his husband's eyes that he didn't even listen anything.

''Yes....I am tired Tae....Very tired.'' Jungkook said, his breathe fanning Taehyung's lips and even when it stunk of alcohol, Taehyung didn't try to pull away.

The blonde could feel the ravenette's heart thudding under his palm which was placed on his chest to support his weight while his other hand was held by Jungkook in a possessive grip.

''It hurts s-so much here.'' Jungkook placed his other hand over Taehyung's which was placed on Jungkook's fast beating heart. Taehyung's mind stopped functioning as some old feelings resurfaced inside him.

''I am bleeding here....'' He sobbed giving a pang to Taehyung's heart.

''Please help me, Tae......Please!'' He begged, eyes closing as a tear rolled down his eyes, his eyelashes getting damp. Jungkook looked so broken right now that Taehyung wanted to pick every broken piece and join them together, to make the ravenette smile again, to make him live again but the fear that had settled in his mind didn't give him the permission.

''You are not in your right mind, Jungkook.....We will t-talk later.'' The blonde tried to pull away but the ravenette didn't let him.

''No....you will leave me.'' The fear in his voice was evident in his eyes. The desperate shake of his head made the blonde sigh.

He knew it wasn't the time to feel anything, Jungkook was drunk and that's why he was saying all these thing otherwise he knew that his husband never feared losing him, in fact, he was the one who sent him away all those years back but he couldn't stop himself from feeling special just a little.

The fact that Jungkook was scared that Taehyung will leave him, it made the blonde's heart flutter in happiness.

''I am not going anywhere....Just go to sleep.''

''Promise?''

''Hmm.'' The blonde nodded, pulling back and sitting straight on the bed. Jungkook smiled and closed his eyes, not leaving Taehyung's hand, too scared of being left alone when he wake up.

The blonde looked at his husband with blank eyes. He couldn't understand why Jungkook was making it so hard for both of them.

There was no need to create complications. It was only a matter of three more months, both of them would have walked on their separate paths after that. They wouldn't have been hurt but these actions of Jungkook were making it hard for Taehyung to keep his feeling buried deep inside himself.

They were resurfacing, his heart was beating again, he was trying his best to control himself but he had started dreaming again and it was a danger sign for him. He know it will hurt him even more this time but they say we are a toy in our heart's hands.

He sat there with Jungkook trying to get some sleep, twisting and turning to get into a comfortable position. His face having a permanent scowl, tears stained cheek pressed against the soft mattress, damp eyelashes covering his weak brown orbs and even in his half sleepy state, the ravenette kept holding Taehyung's hand close to his chest.

Taehyung kept watching the ravenette blankly, his mind not in a condition to think properly but his eyes widen when the ravenette raised his head a little and came forward to place his head in his husband's lap, the scowl on his face immediately getting replaced with a contented smile, arm coming to wrap against Taehyung's waist as Jungkook buried his face in Taehyung's belly.

Just the way Taegguk always does!

''Please don't leave me, Tae!'' He mumbled for the last time and handed over his drunk self to the deep slumber. The blonde kept sitting in his position stilled, his breathe stuck in his throat and heart racing inside his chest, his eyes looking into the distance wide eyed.

Moments turned into minutes and Taehyung found his fingers playing with Jungkook's hairs subconsciously while he tried to think why Jungkook was behaving this way.

Why was he so desperate to earn his forgiveness?

What he wanted to prove from all this even when he know nothing was going to change in the future?

That both of them will only end up hurt?

The blonde came out of his thoughts and looked around. Jungkook was already asleep. He slowly placed his head on the pillow after freeing his hand from his husband's hold with great difficulty. Looking at the sleeping figure of the ravenette, he walked out.

He needed to sort out his thoughts.

As he walked downstairs, he found Namjoon sitting in the living room. The blue eyed boy walked over to him and sat on the opposite couch. When Namjoon noticed him, he locked his phone and placed it on the table and smiled at Taehyung who couldn't even muster up a weak smile in return even after trying.

His mind was clouded with so many thoughts.

''He slept?'' Taehyung nodded in reply looking at his clasped hands. Both of them sat there in silence, lost in their own thoughts.

''He never drunk in these seventeen years.'' Namjoon's voice made Taehyung look at him. He didn't know what he was supposed to react so he just kept looking at his Hyung with blank eyes.

''You know when you left, there came a point when he was admitted to Hospital. We couldn't reach him for three days because he was at a bar, drinking his anger, frustration or whatever it was. The manager of the bar called informing us that he had blacked out. We took him to hospital where he had to be admitted for a whole week. He was dehydrated. When he woke up a week later, he didn't want to talk to anyone. He was angry....very angry but I don't know on whom? He not even once asked about you.....you know how he was?'' Taehyung nodded his head.

Why Namjoon was telling him all this? What if Jungkook was admitted to hospital? He was going through worse at that time. Nothing can make Taehyung feel sympathy for his husband who called his son a mistake and ordered him to abort it like it meant nothing.

He may have loved Jungkook but the hate inside him for his husband was no less. He was naïve back then to keep trying. He thought that his efforts and determination can change anything in their relationship.

Wedding is a two wheeler vehicle, like a cycle, if one of the wheel decide to not co-operate, the relationship falls down...he understood that after going through the worst.

Now, he didn't want to try anymore, he didn't want to go back to being normal with his husband and behave like everything was fine between them while his self respect was crushed in that relationship, when he was made to hate himself thinking that there must be some fault in his naïve self that his husband hate him, when he was left alone to face an animal who was after his dignity, when he was left to struggle to raise his kid alone.

Jungkook didn't deserve his sympathy.

He only deserved the same amount of hate, pain, lonliness and self loathing.

''When I went to him with the property papers you had signed before leaving, he was sitting on the hospital bed and looking into blankness as if he didn't want to come back to reality. I remember him looking at me with his blank eyes when I gave him those papers. I thought he will be so happy to get everything back because all of us know that Jungkook loved money more than anything else but what surprised me was the tear that left his eye as he looked at your signatures. He wanted to be alone so I left him there......'' Namjoon stopped again when he felt his throat clogging up.