She was right. The inside of the studio was beautiful. I had no idea what goes on in there. Never In my life did I imagine we'd be drinking and smoking.

When I saw the alcohol I got a little worried. Sometimes Jaylen can take things overboard. Yes I'm 20 but I can't drive worth shit. Luckily she only had one shot, but she did blow down though.

We were all in there high as fuck. Listening to her sing and rap. Ughhh her voice is amazing she sounds like a gay Lauren Hill. I drooled over her mindlessly. Her brown skin, her dimple, her curly hair, her soothing voice.

I could see the pure joy on her face as she headed out of the sound booth.

"How was that?" She asked standing over me.

I was so far in her trance I didn't know what to say.

"That was go- awes- amazing!" I blushed scrambling over my words.

She smiled and leaned over me. "You okay?"

I bit my lip. She had me feeling like a middle schooler meeting their boy band crush for the first time.

I nodded.

"Can I kiss you?" She asked still hovering.

I tried to prevent myself from smiling hard as hell. I nodded again.

She leaned down and kissed me. Slowly. Fuuccckkk. Talk about driving me crazy.

"Aye! Stop tryna fornicate in my studio!" Her guy joked.

She pulled away laughing. "Man whatever TJ"

She winked at me before walking over to him and I blushed hard.

I can't believe this girl has me feeling like this.

Text from Big Meanie 😝

Big Meanie😝: you with my wack ass sister?

Kya: lol don't call her that. Yes I'm with Jaylen.

Big Meanie😝: try to get her to bring me back some food. She might do it if you ask.

Kya: okay, I'll ask.

Big Meanie😝: image attachment

I raised my eyebrow and opened it

I bit my lip looking at a selfie Mean took. She was laying on the couch with a sports bra and some joggers on. Ughhh why does she have to look so good. My eyes scanned her sexy face, then her chest, her tattoos.

Big Meanie😝: I miss my cuddle buddy 🥺

Kya: lol do you really?

Big meanie😝: hell yea. I miss yo little booty on me.

I chuckled at my phone. She so damn silly. My ass touched her for point 3 seconds one time and she won't let it go.

I looked up and caught Jaylen looking over at me, studying me. I closed my phone out and smiled at her giving her a thumbs up.

She gave me a shy smile back.

We got in the car and she turned to me before cranking up.

"You really like it? Don't lie.. if that shit is trash tell me.. your the first person that's ever been to the studio with me"

I smiled. "Jaylen it was amazing. Ive never heard anybody sound as good as you."

She smiled a little. "Thank you. Fuck, I'm still shaking a little. I always get this rush after going"

She started up the car and we were on our way back.

"You wanna stop and get some food?"

"Would it be okay if we go through a drive thru?" I smiled. "I'm just high as fuck"

She laughed "yea that's cool."

She pulled into bojangles.

"What you want?"

"Mmmmm I want some chicken tenders... you should probably bring something back for Mean too."

She crinkled her nose. "Fuck her... but whatever."

It took a lot less convincing then I thought it would.

When we got home Mean was still laying on the couch. Just like the pic she sent me.

Jaylen frowned up. "Nigga put some clothes on." She said walking right past her.

"Ooooo you got me food! You love me" Mean called out behind her.

Jaylen shook her head. "Imma go change."

She left the room and Mean sat up looking over at me smiling.

"Lemme guess. She took you on another wack ass date that wasn't a date but was clearly a date?"

I shook my head and smiled sitting beside her.

"It wasn't a date. She took me to the recording studio, why didn't you tell me she makes music?"

"I'm surprise she let you find out. I didn't tell you cause she doesn't let me hear shit, ever since our people died. She dead ass almost tried to fight me one time cause I tried to come in and listen. I know my sister can blow. I've always been supportive."

"Damn. I guess things are just hard for both of you"

I sat beside her with my food and opened my box. I had the muchies like hell.

I opened my honey mustard and it squirted on my chest.

"Oh no!" I went to grab a napkin but Mean stopped me.

She leaned over making eye contact and licked the sauce off of my chest curling her tongue up.

My insides started swarming. My pussy tingled.

"Yo! Get the fuck off of her! The fuck is wrong with you?!" Jaylen came storming out.

My eyes widened. Everything happened so quickly. I had no idea Mean was going to do that. I damn sure had no idea Jaylen was gonna come out during that.

I expected Mean to be as startled as I was but she sat up smoothly not giving a fuck.

"She's not your bitch bruh." She said uninterested.

I sat there with my eyes wide. I didn't know what to do. I look at Jaylen. She looked like she was two seconds from blowing up and the only thing keeping her from exploding was me.

"On god bruh. Leave her alone." She chuckled looking up at the ceiling. I could see her boiling.

"The fuck? Who gon stop me? You? Ion give a-"

"Bruh you know she's fucking straight! Leave her alone!" Jaylen yelled cutting her off.

I blushed hard. I never told Mean I was straight.

Mean pressed her tongue in her cheek and looked at me then a little smirked formed on her face. She chuckled shaking her head at Jaylen.

"I thought you was done with this bullshit." She said turning towards her.

"I am, I-"

"Bruh. I thought she was at least bi this time" Mean cut her off.

I furrowed my eye brows.

"What are you talking about?" I cut in.

Mean turned to me nodding her head and poking out her lips like she was digesting the scene.

"Bruh. Chill" Jaylen groaned.

"I can't believe this" Mean shook her head. "Jaylen has a thing for trying to turn out straight girls."

I instantly felt sick.

"W- wha-"

"On god imma beat yo ass. Oh my fucking!"

"What do you mean?" I cut her off. I felt confused.

"I mean. She intentionally chooses to try to talk to straight girl. She gets in there head and gets them all confused. Then goes 'I'm a big sexy stud.. you sure you don't wanna try me? Look at me, I have a sensitive side, I'll wait for you. No nigga gonna do you right."

"Amina shut the fuck up!!" Jaylen yelled. She was red. The veins on her neck were poking out. She came closer to us and I started getting scared. But more then anything I felt myself getting angry. Was Jaylen doing this to me? Was I just another 'straight girl' to her? Did she treat all her bitches like this?

"Yea she likes to get them confused then make them feel guilty about 'leading her on' you know what the best part is? After convincing them that she is what they want, That she's what they've been missing in their lives she fucks them... maybe three times"

Jaylen was right in front of Mean now. I scooted away scared of what might happen.

"I swear to fucking god Amina."

"Then she stops talking to them. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with her. Maybe she just wants them to hurt like she hurts. I don't get the shit. What I do know is I'm stuck answering the door from crying straight bitches. Telling them she doesn't want them then having to hurt them again when they come on to me cause I'm the little version of her that doesn't drink like a fucking fish"

Jaylen was standing over her with her teeth and her fist clenched. Mean looked at her fist and chuckled. She stood up making them forehead to forehead.

"Do something then. You mad cause I ruined your plan to shit on another straight girl? The fuck? Nigga I don't care. Leave people alone! You been on this bullshit since Ma died. The shit tiring. It's sad bruh."

"Is it true?" I cut in again.

Jaylen turned to me. I could she the hurt in her eyes.

"Kya, I-"

I cut her off. "Answer my question. Do you like to 'play' with straight girls? Is this a 'thing' for you?" I said disgusted.

She took a deep breath.

"I have done that but-"

I got up grabbing my shit.

"Wha? is my emotions, my FEELINGS a game to you?! What's wrong with you? I can't believe this shit! Your disgusting! I'm ssoooo glad I didn't fuck you!" I looked her up and down.

"Where are you going? Kya please-"

"No I'm not stupid. I'm just gonna sit here after this. The fuck? I don't need to be made into an example"

"No- stop, it's not the same!" Jaylen whined. "Kya!" She called after me as I slammed the door behind me.

I immediately called Bri.

I was so angry she had me confused over her, looking fucking stupid. I was scared of the power she had over me. I didn't even imagine her being so manipulative. When I sat in the studio listening to her voice. Seeing what I thought was the rawness in her eyes. I seriously thought about taking things slow with her. Us figuring out what we were together.. but it was all a fucking lie!

Ring

Ring.

"Bitch! What you doing?"

"C-can you come get me?" I tried to hold my tears back. I didn't want to be dramatic but honestly my feelings were hurt.

"Awww baby what happened?"

I could hear them yelling back and forth in the house. I heard a loud boom and I quickly walked up to the mailbox away from the noise. I'm sure they're fighting.

"I'm at Jaylen's. Please come get me" I felt a tear slide down.

"Okay girl! I'm on the way right now! Do I need to bring my 9?"

I didn't answer her I just sat on the curb crying.

My emotions was really a game to her. I kept trying to keep her as a friend and she consistently tried to make it more. Was she ever even interested in me? Or was it just the chase?

Bri pulled up quick as fuck. She hopped out of the car and came over hugging me tight.

"Are you okay? Did she hurt you? Did Mean hurt you?"

"No I'm okay, I'm okay" I said through tears.

"Do I need to go in there? I will go air that bitch out to send a message."

"No! I just want to go! They're fighting in there and I just- I ca-" I couldn't finish my sentence. This is exactly what I didn't want to happen.

She bit her lip.

"Okay, come on" she said leading me to the car.

She glared back at the house in the rear view mirror as she drove away.

"Am I taking you to my house? Or back to yours?"

I sighed. "Just take me home, I have a lot to think about"

"What do you mean? What happened? Tell me."

"I found out that Jaylen thinks of straight girls as a cat and mouse game. She was just reeling me into her little fucking web and I fell for that shit."

"You fucked?"

"No. Thank god! That's fucking disgusting! How is making a person question everything they though they knew funny to you?! The whole situation just makes me fucking sick. She really had me daydreaming and shit"

"Damn... well how do you she was playing with you? Maybe she was serious."

"I seriously doubt it. I'm not gonna sit here and tell myself I was the one in a million."

Bri sighed pulling up to my house.

"I'm sorry girl. I can't help but feel like part of this is my fault. I kept pressuring you to talk to her..."

"Am I a little salty about that? Yes. But you can't blame yourself for her being an asshole. You had no idea she was sick like that"

She bit her lip. "Okay so don't beat me up for this.."

I raised my eyebrow at her with one hand on the door handle.

"What if she tells you that you ARE different and she's really feeling you?"

I sighed watching my mom move the curtains and peak at us from the window.

"I have to go." I said without giving her answer.

Honestly I didn't want to answer her. I'm tired of feeling Gullible and vulnerable.

I got in the house and my mom had a huge smile plastered on her face.

"Oh my gosh my baby is home on a Saturday?!"

I gave her an annoyed smile, "yep" I said walking right past her.

"Where are you going? You just got here" she pouted.

"To my room"

I went straight I my room and locked the door. Finally a moment to myself. I sighed and laid back on my bed.

She didn't have to make me feel like that. Who does that to somebody? Who does she think she is?

I sat there for hours alone, in the dark. Not sure how to feel until my phone started ringing.

FaceTime Request from: Big Meanie 😝