I thought about just letting it ring until she gives up but she called three times in a row, eventually I gave in.

"Hey... oh my god! Your eye!"

All around her left eye and cheek bone was bruised and cut up.

She chuckled. "It's fine.. seriously it looks worst then what it is."

"Jaylen did that to you?"

"You should see what I did to her" she smirked. "She made me ride with her to Walmart and find some makeup shit to cover it up for work."

"It's not funny Mean! You two really shouldn't be fighting! That's your sister."

"She hit me first! Over some shit that was true. That's why she didn't wanna say that shit. She knew I wasn't gonna just sit there and let her do that shit to another girl"

"I can't believe this."

"I can't believe you ain't tell me you were straight." She propped the phone up and started to roll.

"Well... I thought I was now I don't know."

"Oh hell.."

She shook her head.

"I'm serious.. I think I like girls."

She laughed. "Well if you do, let me know something."

"I think I want to try something... with a girl."

She looked up from licking her blunt.

Damn, somehow those bruises make her look even sexier.

"I mean I would offer. But I'm not tryna be nobody's experiment. That shits not fun."

I bit my lip. "I get it... Maybe I'm not ready anyway. I don't know, I'm scared. Now I'm wondering if everything I'm feeling is just from Jaylen messing with my head."

"Maybe, maybe not. Y'all didn't fuck. Maybe you just need to get rid of that sexual tension.. that doesn't make you gay, that makes you horny."

This is the first time Mean has had an actual 'friend' conversation with me without flirting or making it about sex. I guess she really doesn't do straight girls.

I was kind of salty about it.

She watched me on the screen as she smoked.

"What you thinking about?"

I sighed "I don't know. I have a lot on my mind... I should go to bed I'm tired." I lied.

I spent the rest of the weekend trying to do anything I could to avoid my feelings.

Jaylen kept trying to hit me up and call me and find anyway she could to communicate. Bri even had to get cussed out. She claimed Jamal convinced her that Jaylen was sick over me and really needs to talk to me so bad.

I've been talking to Mean here and there. I don't know, it doesn't feel the same. She's chill as usual but half the time she doesn't even try to flirt.

I guess I made a decision because I found myself waiting for her to pick up the phone at 2am.

"Yo" she said sounding groggy.

"Aw you were sleep without me?"

She chuckled. "I mean, you aren't here are you?"

"Well.. that's why I was calling. Maybe I can get there"I said kind of shyly.

"And how would you do that? You know Jaylen's home right?"

"She should be asleep because she has work in the morning... I could get Bri to drop me off."

"Kya, what's going on? You didn't want to talk to me and now you calling me at 2 telling me you want to come over"

"I just don't want to be alone anymore. I've had enough me time."

"Word. Come on. We can smoke, drink.. do whatever you want. Not like I got anywhere to be.

I smiled a little. Part of me thought she would turn me down.

"Okay let me call Bri"

"Cool"

I hung up and called Bri quick as fuck.

No answer.

I swear I called her 5 times back to back before she finally answered.

"Really Kya?! We have school tomorrow! I was trying to sleep"

"I know, I just wanted to call and tell you I was sorry about blowing up on you."

"What do you want?" I could hear the suspicion in her voice.

"Could you drop me off at Jay's"

"Oh did you FINALLY talk to her?"

"No, Mean told me to come"

She sucked her breath in.

"Kya I don't think that's a good idea..."

"I don't care! I'm tired of being alone. I'll just sleep over there tonight."

She sighed. "You can't just solve your problems bouncing from stud to stud."

"Well let me solve this problem and I'll stop!! Please bri!"

She groaned. "I'm on the way. Be ready when I get there bitch I can't believe you got me leaving the house this late."

"Because you love me" I said innocently.

"Mhmm. Don't keep me waiting Kya."

She hung up.

I jumped in the shower quickly. I hadn't showered since Saturday morning when I was with Jaylen.

I put on the cute little matching Victoria secret bed set Bri bought me for Christmas last year. I never wear it because every time I do my mom says I look like a hoe. Even though I'm not going anywhere. It's crazy because it's literally silk shorts and a button up shirt striped with hot pink and light pink.

At this point I think 'hoe clothes' is just anything that she's not confident enough to wear. I sprayed myself down in perfume.

I was already sitting on the porch when Bri pulled up I didn't want my parents to hear her honk.

"Girl. Your lucky I love you. You trippin"

"Your the one who said I was young and can make mistakes"

"I did, but Kya this is just reckless. Jaylen really likes you and-"

"Say her name again and I will walk there myself. Alone. In this pajama set in the middle of the night"

She sighed "well, thank you for wearing the pajamas I got you. They look cute on you."

I smiled "I know."

There's no way Mean can turn me down wearing this.

"I just can't believe your wearing something I got you to go do something I'm actually advising you against. It's usually the exact opposite, me pushing you to live a little."

"Oh my god it's not that big of a deal bitch! I'm just chilling with Mean"

"Your going to fuck."

"You said that so many times and I haven't fucked anybody" I rolled my eyes.

"Bitch it's 3am! I'm not stupid. But it's okay, just tell me how it was I guess."

"Could you turn off the lights?" I asked before she pulled into the yard.

She gave me a look of disapproval but did it for me anyway.

"Don't pull off let me text Mean."

Kya: I'm here.

2 minutes later Mean opened the door.

"There's your little hoe, go head nah. I'm tryna get SOME sleep for school tomorrow."

I gave her a look but got out going to Mean.

"Wassup." She gave me a hug but it wasn't the same. I pouted a little.

She chuckled. "Come on, it's kinda cold for you to be wearing those short ass shorts."

She led me to her room. She already had snacks, a blunt and a cup of What I assumed was liquor.

She yawned. "Damn it's late"

"I know." I said looking away. "I'm sorry I kept you up."

She smiled. "Nah it's cool. I never pass up a smoke sesh."

She picked up the blunt lighting it.

I sat beside her.

"Your okay though... right? When you left Saturday you looked hurt. Were you feeling my sister or something?"

"No. It wasn't specifically her. It's the fact that she had me confused about my sexuality... on purpose, and didn't care that my brain was literally fighting itself"

"Yea I get that. That shit sucks." She said hitting the blunt.

"You really didn't know I was straight?"

" nah, we were flirting and shit... you didn't come off as straight. So I ain't assume it."

She handed me the blunt and I fell back on the bed and groaned.

"Yea, I'm not coming off as straight to me either."

She looked over but didn't say anything instead she drunk from the cup.

"You want some? It's crown."

I bit my lip taking it from her and drinking some.

The alcohol and the weed was getting to me fast.

After we finished smoking Mean opened up some chips. I watched her eat them. Damn she's fine. The bruising around her eye made her look exotic in a weird attractive way.

We chilled and talked for a second. It was really fucking late. I checked my phone and the time was 4:30.

Mean was laid out on the bed looking like she was about to doze off.

I didn't want her to. I didn't want to be alone again. I sat on her, straddling her hips.

She opened her eyes looking at me.

"Come on Kya, lay with me. It's time to go to sleep."

"I don't want to sleep." I bit my lip rubbing my hand down her stomach.

She shook her head. "You drunk Ma. Lay down."

"I'm not drunk. I want you to stay up with me" I said before kissing her.

She kissed me back for a few seconds then pulled away.

"Okay, come on. You need to chill. I told you, I'm not with no 'helping people find themselves'"

"I don't want to 'find myself'" I said unbuttoning my shirt.

That caught her attention.

"I'm tryna fuck."

She bit her lip.

"Damn Kya..."

She sat up making us at eye level.

"Be careful what you wish for." She said scanning my body. Her eyes stopped on my push up bra.

I reached around to my back unclamping it.

"I know what I want"

She chuckled I swear I saw her eyes flash. Before I could process the situation, she had flipped us around.

Mean was on top of me she was holding a titty in each hand, her fingers playing with my nipples.

"Oh shiit" I half whispered half moaned.

She chuckled giving me a look.

"If you wanna tap out ..."

I felt my clit swell. Looking down and seeing her sexy ass playing with my titties was unreal.

She licked my right nipple.

"M-mean."

She smirked "do you want me to stop?"

I shook my head no my mouth hung open as she continued.

She ran her hand down my stomach then stopped.

"Take all that off" she said hopping up.

She rummaged in a drawer then pulled off her sweats and boxers facing away from me.

I obeyed taking off my shorts and panties. I positioned myself trying to look sexy.

She turned back to me wearing boxers that had a dick attached. It was kind of intimidating the color was pitch black

She smirked coming over to me confidently. Me on the other hand. I guess you could say I was less confident. I'm about to have my first girl experience. Mean came over to me and grabbed my legs pulling me to the edge of the bed.

"Damn." I blushed.

She chuckled. I watched her squirt some lube onto the strap.

"You ready?" She asked hovering over me.

"Y-Yea"

She didn't waste any time slowly inserting it into me. It's been such a long time since anything's been inside of me, I was really tight.

"Damn you tight" she mumbled finally pushing through.

"Fuck!"

She started stroking and my eyes rolled back.

"Yea?" she asked thrusting her hips.

"Sh-shit Mean!" I moaned

She started going faster and I lost it.

"Ooohh ahhh fuck!" I grabbed at her waist.

She knew she was driving me crazy she chuckled holding up my legs and pounding into my wet pussy.

"Amina! Shiiiittttt"

We made eye contact. She was blissfully watching my sex faces beating my shit up.

Looking at her made my pussy spazz. "Fuuuucccckkkkkkkk Mean!"

"Damn you wet" she admired before pounding into me faster.

"Shi- damn! Ahhhhhh ooohhhhhh fuuuccc-" she covered my mouth.

"Shut up" she said giving me a dangerous look. That shit just made me wetter.

It was feeling so good I started grinding back as she pounded into me.

She raised my legs up close to my head and my moans flooded out of my mouth.

"Ahhhhhh ooo shiitttt y-yesss oh my!"

She shook her head smiling. "You not gonna shut up huh? I'm beating that pussy to good?"

She pulled out and I pouted a little.

"Turn around." She demanded.

It was sexy. I never see Mean act serious. Mostly laid back, high and goofy.

I bit my lip and did what I was told.

"Mmm shit" I heard her mumbled.

I looked back at her. She was biting her lip gazing at me from behind.

She caught me looking and bent over and spit on my pussy taking me completely off guard.

"Ohhhh oh my"

Then she rammed it back in. She was so deep she had me going crazy. The sheets were balled up in my hands. She had my back arched farther then I knew it could go. Mean was beating my shit in.

"AAAaaaHHHHaaAAhhh Meeeesaannnnn Amina! Shit!" She pushed my face into the bed muffling my moans. She was going so fast the sheets started pulling off of the bed.

"Mean!"

"Stop running." She said smacking my ass hard.

I couldn't help it. She was so damn deep. She grabbed me firmly by my hips and positioned herself with one foot on the bed.

"Damn you look so fucking good." She said before fucking the soul out of me.

"Mmmmeeeeaaannnnn! Shit! AMINA OOOOHHHH FUUUUUCCCKKKKKKKKK!" I felt my cum shoot out coating the dick.

"YO SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Jaylen screamed from her bed room.

I'm sure she had no idea it was me.

Mean busted out laughing pulling out.

"I told yo ass to be quiet" she laughed get something to clean me off.

Her phone dinged. She took one look at it and thought it was hilarious.

She showed me the screen.

Jay: bruh. Shut your bitch up. Nobody wanna hear that shit.

I blushed hard.

I can't believe I just did this... but I don't regret it.

She put the strap away and laid beside me.

"Now can we go to sleep?" She teased.

"Amina you didn't have to fuck me like that." I said serious as hell. I didn't know how to feel.

She laughed. "What happened to 'I know what I want'?" She asked wrapping her arms around me.

I glared at her. My heart was still racing, my adrenaline was still going. My pussy was still throbbing. What did I get myself into?