Hushed inhaling of breaths through nasal oxygen pipe and the drops of iv drips were the only sound resonating in the other wise silent room. For others it might be too peaceful but for taehyung it was suffocating.

He has been sitting beside the bed where his world was lying since past two hours how, holding the soft hands in between his bigger ones, staring at that pale yet ethereal face, begging the deities to let him see those glistening bambi eyes which held nothing but unconditional love for him.

His face was blank, eyes too tired to shade any more tears, heart was heavy with guilt but there was also a hint of anger and disappointment with it.

Few hours ago, he received a call from jin,

"Hyung", taehyung whispered.

"Tae.. Oh my god please tell me jungkook told you about his condition", jin asked frantically as he has been calling jungkook but the younger wasn't receiving, and it was making jin crazy.

"You knew?", taehyung rather asked.

"He called me yesterday and sent me all the reports to be assured.. I told him about the risk but he was insisting on keeping the baby.. Tae please tell me you both are doing the abortion", jin asked desperately.

"He wanted to keep the baby?", taehyung asked in disbelief, his body was frozen thinking about the consequences.

"Yes... Apparently he thought you loved kids and you would be upset about it, he wanted to hide the consequences from you and bring the baby to this world for you.... I somehow managed to change his mind... Please take him to the hospital as soon as possible, Tae..give him sedatives if needed but just do it", jin didn't want to tell everything to taehyung but seeing jungkook's stubborn self earlier he thought it would be better if he tells everything to taehyung, before it gets too late. Well only if he knew.

"We are a-already in the hospital", taehyung chocked out and jin didn't know whether to feel relieved or sad.

"Tae bear... Don't be sad.. You both can have another baby when jungkook would be stable enough or there's always other options too..", jin held back his own tears and tried to console the sobbing male.

"H-hyung.. I messed up earlier... I just heard about the abortion and misunderstood him.. He ran after me... then he lost consciousness because of pain..now he is in the ER", taehyung managed to explain in broken sentence while shuttering badly, thankfully jin could grasped the situation.

"Oh my god.. How is he now?", jin asked in shock.

"The doctor didn't come out yet", taehyung mumbled.

"Tae calm down he will be fine okay... Just keep me updated please", jin pleaded.

"I will", taehyung hung up and the only thing his mind was screaming was jungkook decided to leave him alone in this cruel world, not even thinking what would he do without him.

Taehyung snapped his gaze towards his hand where he felt jungkook's fingers moving a little.

"Koo.. Love", he upped the other's face frantically as he saw the kist beautiful eyes in the world, blinking softly before fixing the gaze at him.

Taehyung was quick to press the bell and soon a nurse came in followed by the doctor.

She checked his vitals and whatever needed before smiling at him.

"How are you feeling now?", she asked softly.

"Numb", he mumbled.

"It's fine...take rest for now and call me if you need anything alright", the doctor assured before leaving the room, not forgetting to offer a smile to taehyung.

The family came inside after the doctor left and asked about his health. Jungkook was answering everyone but his eyes were continuously finding the silent male at the corner of the bed.

Jimin understood the situation and ushered others to leave the room to give some time to jungkook as he needed rest.

After everyone left, taehyung sat on the stool again letting out an heavy sigh, eyes fixed on the bed without muttering a word.

"Baby", jungkook called softly reaching out to hold taehyung's hand who took it in between his, still not looking at him.

"Why koo?", taehyung almost whispered.

"Why did you take such a big decision.. You didn't even want to think about me. What would have happened to me after...after you", taehyung spoke as drop of tear rolled down stubbornly.

Jungkook's heart clenched at that as he squeezed taehyung's palm.

"No baby.. I-",

"How could you think I would be able to live knowing you decided to keep our baby just for my happiness? How could you think I would be happy without you..we would be happy without you?", taehyung asked in broken voice, indicating the unborn fetus.

"How could you do this to me?", taehyung's voice trembled as tears were rolling down his cheeks.

Jungkook's bottom lip were wobbling but he felt his throat clogging not knowing what to say. He indeed made a stupid decision.

"I am sorry", he whispered loud enough to reach taehyung's ear.

"I didn't know what to do..How to tell you about the news and then snatch away the happiness..also I couldn't just agree to k-kill our sign of love", jungkook sobbed.

"You are most important to me than anyone or anything, koo", taehyung mumbled as he sobbed along with jungkook.

"It was our first baby", jungkook exclaimed as he sobbing loudly, his other hand clutching the cloth above his tummy, feeling empty again. Taehyung sat on the bed and joined their forehead as they cried together, expressing their feeling and aching heart.

"We couldn't even hold our first baby, taehyungie", jungkook spoke again in between his cries.

"We couldn't name them.. We couldn't hold their tiny fist.. We couldn't even know if it was our prince or princess", jungkook rambling while crying as taehyung was caressing his cheeks to provide some comfort while himself was wailing.

"Shh! I-it's o-our f-fate-", taehyung tried to speak but chocked on his sobs because he didn't know what to say.

They didn't plan a baby, it was really unexpected but imagine to be forced to kill your own blood. No one can understand that feeling other than a parent. Even if it was a matter of life and death, a mother would always...always choose their child above themselves.

The four individual outside the door heard those agonizing pleas and desperate cries, they couldn't help but to cry in each other's arms trying to be as silent as possible. Their heart was clenching seeing their strong willed son broken like that.

The whole night taehyung and jungkook shade tears, mourning for their unborn baby and consoling each other when it would be too much to take. They held each other closer whispering sweet things about how they would have raised the baby, with tears in their eyes, and sometimes comforting each other, wishing together to feel these happiness in future.

The next day at evening, jungkook was discharged from the hospital. Doctor prescribed him some medicines and proper bed rest for at least a week, as he would be really weak at the moment. He need to come for regular check ups after some intervals.

And if they decide to conceive again in future, which shouldn't be before one year though, he need to go through a treatment procedure. As his womb was weakened because of the critical condition but still they assured that he would be able to carry baby again, which was a relief for the emotionally overwhelmed couple.

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"Taehyung, you didn't inform your family?", minho asked with a frown.

"No", taehyung said shortly as they were sitting in the living area, after jungkook fell asleep they gave him some privacy to rest.

"Why?", he asked in confusion.

"I just don't want them to know about it...", taehyung stated sighing. He knew minho had no idea about his family drama so he didn't really know what to say.

"Honey.. Let him do what he think is right.. Anyway he is stressed, don't shower him with questions", shinhye said sternly, minho was still confused and curious but his wife was also right, thus he dropped the topic.

"Dad..should we postponed the launch", yoongi asked, as the event was in the next week, all the preparation were also started.

"Yeah.. Kookie needs rest, we should postpone it", jimin agreed.

"Yeah..", minho sighed, his baby star worked so hard for this day but seems like fate wasn't with them at the moment.

"Appa, ask koo about it first.. I know he is not stable but don't take decision without telling him or it might anger him", taehyung suggested.

"Alright.. I will ask him tomorrow then", minho muttered while nodding.

Taehyung returned back to his room after dinner and freshened up. He dialled hyunbin's number as he had many missed calls from him and waited for it to be received.

"Where have you been, taehyung?", came a furious voice of hyunbin.

"I am at the jeons", taehyung replied tiredly.

"And why, if I may know? You have skipped two days without informing, didn't even received calls and now talking as if you are doing a favor on me", he barked.

Taehyung pinched the bridge of his nose. He wasn't stable enough to take this shit, he just lost his baby and almost lost his husband. Though the older didn't know but still he was really annoyed. He shut his eyes and took deep breaths calming himself down.

"Dad.. Jungkook is not well and I am taking a week off. I need to be here for him.. But don't worry I will arrange someone who would do all my works for the time being", he explained calmly.

"What happened to jungkook?", hyunbin asked.

"He...um.. He lost his consciousness due to h-high f-fever and some personal problems..", taehyung had no other choice than to say that because that's the only way his father won't question much.

"Oh", hyunbin said awkwardly.

"Okay.. But report after a week, also assist the man you will choose so that no problem arises, you know your hyung doesn't like mistakes", he instructed like usual as they hung up.

Taehyung chuckled bitterly. It's always about your hyung this, your hyung that... And that particular hyung never cared about his own brother. And now that he think, his father didn't even ask how was jungkook at the moment.

Sighing heavily, he laid beside his sleeping husband and pulled him closer in his arm, kissed the other's neck softly before closing his eyes to sleep.

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