Tonight is the night. I'm so nervous but I have to make this right and if she doesn't take me back I don't know what I'm going to do. But fuck it let's go I tho I to myself as a step into the elevator at the tower. Now there's no turning back

But let me tell you what happened. It was two weeks ago

Nat and I had had a fight and I was out on walk trying to clear my mind. I have no idea where she is but probably in the gym punching the anger out

This is our third big fight in the two years we have been together so even tho I'm so angry at her right now I'm sure we will get through this

Two hours later I'm on my way back. I pretty sure the guy behind me has been following me so i try to hurry not wanting to make a scene on the street

But as I'm about to turn the last corner. Someone grabs my wrist turning me around. And it's the guy. He drags me into a small alley not more then 10 feet down.

"Let me go" I try as I pull my wrist away from him but he quickly slaps me across the face making me stumble. I try to use the few tips Nat has taught me but he steps to the side and throws a real punch that hits my boob

He having way more muscles then me it only took a few minutes for him to beat me up pretty bad.

I was laying on the ground when I kicked me one last time before just walking off. I tried to dry my tears and get up. With blood running from my mouth I stumbled the last way home and into the elevator

It took me up to the main floor and I stepped out. Only about half the team was here so I wasn't surprised when no one was sitting in front of the tv

I dragged myself to our room and was meet with a still pretty mad Natasha. "What have you done?" She asks as she tries to grab my face. "You make it sound like it's my fault someone beat me up" I say pushing her hand away and continuing into the bath room

"You could have just called me and I would have handled it" She say following me

"You would have killed the guy and I can handle myself" I spit out some more blood before I wash my face of some gravel and more blood

"You clearly couldn't. You look like shit. Can you even see through that eye" She say as she nods to my very swollen eye. She tries to help me again but I push her hands away again

"Yes I can see and I don't need your help"

"Well you clearly do" She says looking at me like she is my mom

"You aren't my mom!!! Ok? I can handle myself and I DON'T need you to babysit me"

"I do not babysit you"

"Yes you do. All the damn time. You don't allow me to spar even when Kate says she will go easy and not hurt me. You don't let me help Tony in the lab because it can be dangerous. You always stop every thing before it can even get remotely close to dangerous. SO STOP TREATING ME LIKE I'M A BABY"

"Okey!! FINE. You don't need me. I get it. I guess I will leave then" She storms out of the bathroom as I dries my face. When I then walk out she it throwing her things into a backpack

"What are you doing?" I ask looking at her

"You didn't need me. So I'm leaving until you have moved your stuff out of MY room and back into where ever you are going to live now" I single tear slip down my cheek.

"A...are you breaki..." I don't get to finish it because she walks past me and out the door

"Yes I am" And then I didn't see her anymore. I broke down on the floor until Bucky found me and with some help from Steve and him I was out of there so Nat could have her room

The doors opened and I quickly slipped out and into the mass of people at the party. I found Tony a few minutes later and dragged him into one of the empty corridors. "Hi y/n" He said like I still lived here

"Is eve try thing ready?" He looked at his watch. "In five. Yes"

"And how is she?" I ask nervous about how she will react

"She's okey. She didn't want to celebrate her birthday but I will make sure she sees you sing. Can't promise anything more" I nod before I walk into the big room again. I find my way behind the stage and where the dj is standing right now. Some guy there tells me when and can go on and I try to prepare me

Soon after I'm pushed onto the stage and I sit down on a small stool. My eyes quickly sweep over the crowed and I see her tying to abruptly leave but Steve shoved her down onto the couch and stains behind her so she can't go anywhere

"Happy birthday Natasha. And I know you probably don't want me here but I really want to sing this for your birthday. Hope you like it"

And then I strummed try first strings on my guitar. Soon after I started to sing.

If I'm gonna say it like it is

We've become identical to them

We've become the strangers we don't know

A dying rose

She still looks pissed at Steve but I try to not let her mood distract me

I'm forty miles North of where we met

You're forty miles South of where we live

It doesn't matter where we try to go

If all the exits are closed

There's nothing I could say

To keep my head above water

There's nothing I could do

If I lose one, I lose two

With my confession that I was wrong makes she scoff but I know deep down she wants me to say it

'Cause I thought you were the home-run hitter, the cherry that never bitters

Like the first taste of heat, the feeling I wanna keep until I'm dead (dead, dead)

There's nothing I could do (do, do)

And I thought you were a cold blood assassin, a truth I couldn't imagine

But that light never painted the room

Now there's nothing I could do (do, do) to make it easier on you

That was something I never told her. That even when she did tell me she was an assassin it never felt like to. She was the sweetest person I had ever meet and she was til they day she left

It's more than just the fire going out

It's more than just the candles on the ground

It's everything you wanted us to be

The parts I won't see

She always had plans. She wanted us to get married and have kids and go on vacation and I wanted all that too. But with her and no body else

The door I always locked, you left it open

Too afraid that you would blink and it would close in

And we would lose our vulnerability

Oh, we were so naive

And that we both thought we could have that with some bumps in the road. That was just plain old stupid

'Cause I thought you were the home-run hitter, the cherry that never bitters

Like the first taste of heat, the feeling I wanna keep until I'm dead (dead, dead)

There's nothing I could do (do, do)

And I thought you were a cold blood assassin, a truth I couldn't imagine

But that light never painted the room

Now there's nothing I could do (do, do) to make it easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on you

She had slowly relaxed a bit which made me less nervous. She wasn't giving me that death stare any more. Now she was only giving me the shoulder have done that eyes. Which is a heart step forward

There's nothing I could say

To keep those gorgeous eyes from crying

There's nothing I could do

If I lose you, I lose too

And like that they had soften. She knew a was so sorry and that I had fucked up but she also knew she t would kill me if she just left we silent after this

'Cause I thought you were the home-run hitter, the cherry that never bitters

Like the first taste of heat, the feeling I wanna keep until I'm dead (dead, dead)

There's nothing I could do (do, do)

And I thought you were a cold blood assassin, a truth I couldn't imagine

But that light never painted the room

Now there's nothing I could do (do, do) to make it easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on–, easier on–

Easier on you

When I feel silent the crowed clapped and thanked them before stepping off. I made my way to where I had seen her sit and there she was still sitting with her head in her hands

I looked at Steve who gave me an approving nod before disappearing with everyone else. I slowly sank into the black couch next to her. I ran my hand through hair hair. Still as soft as the day we met

"I'm sorry" I say still playing with the red waves. She looked up quickly before flew at me. For a millisecond I thought she was going to hit me but her arms flew around me and pulled me into a bone crushing hug. "I'm sorry too" She sobbed as my shirt slowly got wet

We just laid there hugging for a while before I felt like we were taking up space people wanted to how. "Do you want to go to your room and talk" I ask pulling a few strands of hair out of her face

She nods and we stand up. I take her hand and drag her out of the party. We disappear into the elevator and it slowly goes up as we stand there holding hands

When we step out she opens the door and we walk in. We sit side to side on their bed in silence before she speaks. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have blamed you for getting beaten up"

"It's okey. I shouldn't have told you I didn't need you" Na then we both started rambling about how we were sorry and it didn't end until she pulled me into a hard kiss

"Just shut up and kiss me" And even tho I knew we had to talk I was more then happy to kiss her again