I hid in the bathroom crying my eyes out. The clock literally just hit 12.

"Mamas open the door..." I heard Silas yell.

I stayed silent. I wanted him to go home. I didn't want to risk going crazy on him and losing him for good. Especially when he just came back and left because of that.

"Kleoooo."

"You know we both going through it. We could be there for each other and find ways to cope healthily. I'm not your enemy babygirl. Just let me in."

"I'll kick this door in, I just want to make sure you okay."

"Go away." I said loud enough.

He sighed before walking away I guess.

He's not here to hurt you. He's here to love you and protect you. He wants to help.

He's not here to hurt you. He's here to love you and protect you. He wants to help.

He's not here to hurt you. He's here to love you and protect you. He wants to help.

He's not here to hurt you. He's here to love you and protect you. He wants to help.

I repeated to myself in my head. I wiped my face that had tears still falling, bracing myself. I tiptoed out the bathroom to see no Silas. My heart started thumping faster. I started crying harder.

What if he left me again.

What if this was his last straw.

I walked to the living room to see no Silas... I looked in Major's room... No Silas still. I let out a loud scream falling to the ground crying my heart out.

I'm not supposed to be alone today of all days. The rain could be heard outside as well as the thunder. All of a sudden the power went off.

Just my fucking luck.

"Kleo. What the hell you doing?"

"You left me!" I yelled crying.

"I was outside smoking trying to respect your place. It started storming bad so I waited until it let up, which it didn't. The fucking neighborhood dark as hell. I come back you rolling on the fucking floor looking a fool."

"Why you didn't tell me?"

"You told me go away." He said picking me up tossing me on the couch. He grabbed some firewood and started the fireplace.

He sat down on the floor in front of me.

"I miss him." I sniffled after some time.

"I do too mamas." He sighed grabbing me. I laid on his chest while we sat on the floor crying my eyes.... Well we cried.

He wiped my face just staring at me.

"I love you." I mumbled.

"I love you more."

"I'm sorry for pushing you away. I don't mean to intentionally. I know I keep fucking up. If I keep pushing, I might push you into somebody else. I don't want that."

"Babygirl stop crying. I'm here to stay. I'm here. We gone work on us individually and as a couple. Then we'll work on a family together. We don't need friends, we just need one another at this very moment."

I looked at him smiling when he kissed my nose.

"Let's talk mamas with your mean ass."

"About?"

"Whatever will get your mind off the day."

I nodded thinking.

"When will we move in together?"

"Whenever." Silas shrugged.

"Tonight?"

"Kleo this lil place nice for you and Major. You know I got a lot of shit. You might as well move with me."

"No... I want our own." I pouted.

"Let's look then." He shrugged.

"Really?"

"Whatever makes you happy."

"What's the budget?"

If looks could kill... I'll be dead.

"Lil bit, you know it's no limit with you. If you love it, I'm going to get it."

"Okay."

"I got rules though and a question."

"Rules first."

"I buy this house you pick, there's no running. If we argue you lay your mad ass down with me. If I eat all the cereal, don't have an attitude. Tell your man so he can fix it. If I was out all night and it upset you. Tell me so it won't happen anymore. If some bitch eyeing me too hard... Tell me! I'm trying to be the man for you, but you got to want to be the woman for me. No shutting down, no running. We communicating. No sleeping in the guest room. We grown and married. You sleep in the King size bed with me." He said looking me in my eyes.

I nodded slowly while looking him back in his eyes. He began licking his lips while maintaining eye contact to the point I eventually got nervous looking down blushing.

"Shy ass." He laughed.

"Bills?"

"I got everything." He shrugged.

"No."

"Yes."

"Let me take the cable and electric bill."

"Hell no! Groceries and house shit. That's final."

"Fine." I pouted.

"Question?" He started.

"Be honest Kleo."

"Okay."

"You been harming yourself?"

"Huh?"

"Kleo, if you can huh you can hear."

"No I haven't. Why you ask?"

"We lying?"

"No... yes..."

"Your body got cuts everywhere."

I looked away.

"Why?" He asked grabbing my face.

I got up going to the closet grabbing a few blankets and pillows. I made us a pallet on the floor.

"Insecure. I was so upset my body just reminded me of Messiah. Then you left me I just hated myself... still do." I whispered the last part.

"Well I love your body and you."

Silence took over us.

I got my phone seeing Silas had it the whole time outside.

"Handsome." I said looking at the picture he took.

"Thank you."

I got comfortable laying on a pillow in front of the fireplace. Major ass decided he needs to be warm too so he literally pushed me over.

"Damn Maj!" Silas laughed.

"It's not funny..."

"It is."

I smiled while rolling my eyes. We laid cuddled up enjoying each other's presence on this sad day. Happy birthday baby-boy.