Mathew stayed the night after they came from park. He slept at 2 am after finishing the work he had to. Since, he wasn't in deep sleep he woke up to Ryan's tossing and turning. It looks like he woke up and trying to be silent as he didn't want to wake Mathew up. He tossed for about a ten minutes and finally woke up and went to bathroom. Mathew woke up fully when he heard the shower run from bathroom and looked at bedside clock. It's 3 am. He got up to see what's wrong with him thinking 'What the hell is he doing at this time.'

Upon opening the door he saw something that froze him on the spot; with a hand on door handle, a foot into the bathroom. There was a very naked and very erected Ryan standing under the shower with his eyes closed. His side profile is facing him, so he could see his biceps flexing under the water and the beast which has woken up, it was a beautiful sight to watch. Mathew never noticed how long Ryan's fingers were until then as they were curled around a hard shaft which can be able to fit in only those hands. He doesn't think anyone else's hand can be able to hold it that perfectly.

Ryan gave it two strokes upwards before stopping it completely. He left it unattended as he took a cold shower at 3 am in the morning which didn't help his condition much except waking him up fully. He finished his shower, wrapped a towel around him and turned to go into bedroom only to find Mathew watching him. He was startled at first, next came embarrassment. He didn't say anything as he tried to walk past which was blocked by the person standing there. Ryan cleared his throat "Umm. Sir..." he said low feeling guilty.

"What were you doing at this time?"

"I woke up and couldn't sleep."

"So, you thought a cold shower will help you?"

"Umm.." Ryan was flushed, didn't know what to say "I-I-"

"Why didn't you finish?" Mathew asked sternly. He was fully awake now and was trying to understand the situation.

"I did."

"I am not talking about shower." Ryan's eyes were all over the place. "Why are you feeling guilty?" Mathew understood his feeling as he saw Ryan's embarrassed face enough times to notice it as he's not embarrassed but guilty. "And don't say you're not." he knows it's not easy to for him to say so he continued. "Have you ever masturbated Ryan?" Mathew saw Ryan doing it with unsure hands and immature movements.

Ryan then knew Mathew was being really serious about the situation. He stopped calling him by his name after he came up with that stupid name. He doesn't know what to do so he just walked past him into the bedroom.

Mathew caught his bicep which still has water droplets on it and stopped him from walking away. They were both staring at each other, then Mathew remembered something.

"Have you taken a vow to celibacy?" Ryan was about to talk something but was cut off by him. "I know you were a regular to church. Does Amanda know about this? Cause I'm sure she wouldn't have accepted to it."

"What? Sir. Stop. No, I haven't vowed to anything. Just because I took my Sunday church little too seriously, doesn't mean anything."

"Okay. Tell me this, how many times have you jacked off" paused for a second "and actually finished it?"

Ryan wanted to lie about it, but the way the teacher was looking at him dragged the truth out of him. "Once." he finally gave in with a helpless sigh. "It was an accident." his eyes were everywhere except on the person he was talking to.

Mathew was never surprised in his life more than he was at the moment "You had only one orgasm in your entire 18 years of life and that was an accident?" he was flabbergasted.

"I didn't know what I was doing back then. Okay?"

"Why didn't you continue then?"

"It is wrong. I shouldn't do it. I shouldn't even be thinking about it."

Mathew finally understood him. The church goings did a number on him. Mathew heard about the church when he was teaching at the high school, it was so absurd, he didn't like any of it's teachings, he is surprised that Ryan goes to that church and still supports same-sex relationships. He decided then and there that he's not going to let Ryan go this way another day.

"It's not wrong Mary." he started in a soft voice without any accusation or anger in his voice, cause he wanted him to see the reason. "It's a natural process. Everyone is born through that process. Hell, even you and I are the byproducts of that act."

"I know that." came a silent reply.

"Then why are you doing this to yourself? Being a virgin is your choice and I'm not going to say you should start sleeping around. But, I'm not letting you torture yourself."

"I'm not torturing myself." Ryan's lower lip jutted out a little.

Mathew chuckled "What do you call waking up at 3 am in the morning and not being able to sleep?"

"Insomnia?" Ryan tried.

"Shut up Mary. Don't try to get smart with me. I'm older and smarter than you." he thought for a while "How many times do you loose sleep over this? And how the hell did you manage to hide that?" he pointed to the tent the towel was forming "Cause trust me, that's not something you can hide easily."

"I wear tight underwear and long shirts." Ryan said nonchalantly.

Mathew went to Ryan's closet and took out a pair of boxers and examined them. "How the hell did this beast fit inside them?" he pointed to Ryan's crotch and then the pair of underwear that was in his hands. Ryan either didn't notice or choose to ignore either way he didn't comment on his teacher's choice of words. "Seriously Ryan do you know how much your health is going to affect because of this? I can take a 2 hour class about why you shouldn't wear these tights which obviously limits your blood circulation, and you're wearing them even in the night. That's the reason I've never felt you in the morning, isn't it?" the person in the question just stayed silent. That's all the answer Mathew needed as he yanked off the towel Ryan was wearing. His heard shaft slapped his stomach making noise.

Ryan didn't try to cover himself. He's not insecure about his body. The only thing he doesn't like is people knowing about his 'problem', Mathew already know about it so he has nothing to worry about as he stared at Mathew without even flinching.

"Take care of it." Mathew said pointing to Ryan's hard flesh.

"What?" Ryan is not dumb enough to not know what he meant, yet he asked.

"I said take care of it." he repeated again. Ryan was just staring at him with a blank expression which pissed him off as he went on "Your partner is not going to jump at the fact that you're a virgin Ryan. Even if you marry someone and tell them the fact that you waited for that special one, they don't give a fûck about it. You can't perform well if you don't even know how to jack off. All everyone wants is a good time. And sèx is a major part in any marriage. Do you know how many marriages failed due to the fact that their s*x life isn't good?"

Ryan just shrugged "Who said I care about that?"

"Forget about satisfying someone then. What about your own body and needs? This can keep you healthy physically as well as mentally and is a good stress reliever." he knows how to convince Ryan as he said "You can concentrate on studies in the time you loose sleep over this." that seemed to get through Ryan as he spends at least 10 to 15 hours a week on his 'problem' it would be either to get it under control in the middle of day or loose sleep over it like now. Even then he is as stubborn as a mule. It's not easy to suddenly realize that your beliefs aren't exactly ideal and to break the resolution you've been making over the years.

Mathew knew he need to push him further so he said "Either you take care of it or I'm gonna do it for you." he went close to Ryan as if he was about to kiss him "Since you're a good boy I'm giving you another option" Ryan looked into his eyes wishing it would be something good, but what came out of his mouth certainly shocked him to the core. "I'll blow you." he got even closer, their lips were almost touching when he husked "I've never been with a man. I can't say I'm good at it. There might be too much teeth involved." to make his point he nipped Ryan's lower lip. "It might hurt, but don't worry I'll kiss it better." Ryan placed his hand on Mathew's naked chest, as he goes to bed only in boxers, to stop him from going for a kiss. He gulped before saying "I'll do it." Mathew backed off with a triumphant smile on his face.

Ryan started for the bathroom, but was stopped by a hand on his bicep once again. "Whoa there, where do you think you're going?" Ryan gave an expression as if to say 'isn't it obvious?'. "Nu uh. I'm not taking the risk of you standing under the cold shower for some time and saying you're done. You're doing it here, in front of me. Besides I'll teach you if you're doing something wrong."

"What next? Are you going to grade me as well?" Ryan asked sarcastically.

"I might be." the teacher said with a serious face as if he would do it really. Ryan shook his head at that and got on bed.

Ryan took a deep breath and reached to his hard shaft. He's feeling different things at a time, being excited about what he is going to do is also one of them. He started giving it forward strokes, he didn't even have tight grip on it as if it would hurt him, yet he felt nice. He didn't exactly remember the first orgasm he had, all he remembered was it felt good and wanted to do it again. As he was giving slow strokes he can feel Mathew's eyes on him, he thought he would feel weird about someone watching him do something as private as this, but he felt relived that Mathew was with him, watching him.

After watching few more moments, Mathew felt the need to interfere as he himself reached to Ryan's unsure hand that is moving. "You can drag your hand down as well not only upward strokes. It won't hurt if you have a tight grip. Trust me." he said as he took the hard flesh into his own hand from Ryan. For now he is telling himself that he is only helping him as he squeezed it, his fingers didn't meet around the shaft as Ryan's did. He was staring at the way his hand curled and stroking up and down in a slow motion with a tight grip enough to not hurt him but to give pleasure. He watched as the flesh turned into pink and clear liquid came out of it acting as lube making it easier to stroke than before. He heard a sharp intake of breath that followed by a throaty moan which seemed to break him out of the spell which he was into as he said "See? It won't hurt." he took his hand off "Now try it."

Ryan nodded as he started to follow the previous movements of an experienced hand. This time he had a tight grip, it felt good. He closed his eyes as he only concentrated on his hand movements, he forgot about everything as he started to feel even more good, his hand started to move fast on it's own as his other hand was curled into a tight fist.He increased his speed even after he started to feel something strange inside his stomach after few more strokes. Finally he came silently spilling all over his stomach and chest as he felt his penis pulse in his hands. He didn't stop moving his hand though as his primal instinct took over, he rode out his orgasm feeling even more ecstatic than the one time he can remember. Panting heavily he opened his eyes only to see a transfixed Mathew watching his penis intently which had just stopped spurting.

Mathew gave tissues to Ryan to get cleaned as he observed Ryan closely. "How are you feeling?"

"Sleepy." Ryan started to clean himself.

"And?" Mathew couldn't help but notice he spilled a lot. 'Well, it was his first time in like forever what did I expect?'

"I don't know sir." he finished cleaning up "Kinda guilty." he finally admitted.

Mathew chuckled "There's nothing to be guilty Mary. You'll get used to it don't worry."

"I'm assuming this isn't the last time you're going to make me do it?" he questioned.

"Nope." dragged covers on both of them.

Ryan turned to his side facing his teacher as he got comfortable under the sheets. "I did what you said. Can't it be the last time?" he mumbled sleepily, eyes drooping.

"No." Mathew pushed the hair away which has stuck to Ryan's forehead. His hand lingered on Ryan's forehead for a while before he retreated it.

Mathew slowly fell asleep with a smile on his face as he watched calm and serene expression on Ryan's face.