Hunter POV

I sat at my desk completely restless listening to all the other members talking, but barely even paying attention. My wolf was basically putting up a fight inside me making it all the more painful. He hated the way I treated our mate, every time I hurt Drew, physically or emotionally he would scratch and pry at my insides.

I knew that I shouldn't have let him go to the doctor alone, I so much wanted to be there with him to hold his hand even if he was just checking a stomach bug.

But I knew this was the best, maybe I was being a coward again but I couldn't face the day he realized I wasn't enough even after I tried to me it was best to just give up now. I got up from my seat when the meeting had finished. I walked home slowly, thinking if all this was actually worth it, if I was doing the right thing.

I walked through the front door, and didn't smell his scent.

He wasn't home yet.

I removed my jacket and sat on the couch. I closed my eyes and thought about him, as usual.

His blue eyes, rich brown hair, his slender body, his kind heart everything about him was perfect, so why was I doubting his feelings.

Should I give this a try??

I heard the front door open and the sound of keys shuffling. I could hear him take every step towards the lounge, where I was sitting. I waited for him to come around the corner and for those blue eyes of his, to meet mine. I saw him enter the lounge smiling before he hid something behind his back and dropped his smile when he saw me. I didn't want to be nosy, but that didn't mean I wasn't curious about what was behind his back.

What he was hiding from me.

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Drew POV

I walked home, holding the picture in my hand Elliot had given me. It looked so small so much so, you couldn't even tell that it was a human being. It was literally just a dot on a page.

Somehow this little dot, in the short time that I've come to know of its existence, had become my everything if that even made sense. That void that I was feeling, was suddenly filled. I could feel the contentment and fulfillment, slowly taking over me and making me whole.

I thought about him, my baby's father and whether he would even want this child. It was evident that he hated me but I wondered, if he would our child as well. I couldn't take that risk at least not yet. I would never forgive myself if something happened to the little dot because of Hunter's hatred for me.

I entered the house so absorbed in my thoughts, that I didn't even pick up his scent until I saw him sitting on the couch, involuntarily my smile dropped. I immediately hid the picture behind my back, why? I didn't even know myself.

"What did the doctor say?"

I studied his facial features for any sign at all that could convince me, but there was nothing, absolutely nothing. He still looked at me like I was the biggest mistake of his life.

"It was just a stomach bug. I'm going to lay down" I said and went upstairs.

I don't even know what I was expecting, but it hurt so much. Maybe I was being extra emotional, but I just wanted him to look at me, to see how much I actually cared. I walked up the stairs and threw myself on the bed. I wiped away the tears that was falling down my cheeks, and took out the picture. I ran my finger along it and smiled.

"I will love you for the both of us"

I kissed the picture and put it in my pocket. I closed my eyes and hummed softly, rubbing my tummy. It was so small, yet I wanted to protect it with my life. I must have fallen asleep, because I woke up to an extremely loud horn outside. I got up and made my way to the window, seeing Jake stand by the car door.

I slowly walked down the stairs, hoping that if I took long enough to open the door, he would just go away, unfortunately not, because he started ringing the bell like a maniac. I opened the door and found him with a huge grin on his face. I raised my eyebrow at him and tilted my head.

"Wow, you look like shit" he said looking me up and down.

"I feel like shit, what do you want?" I snapped. I was in no mood to deal with anyone's bullshit. Even if it was Jake.

"Uh rude much. I came to get you. You never leave this house, come on.. let's take a trip " He said tugging at my arm.

"I really don't want to go anywhere" I pouted, hoping to gain some sympathy, but it got me no where. He shook his head and dragged me out.

"Nope, that's not going to work.." he said still pulling me.

"I said .. I . Don't. Want. To. Go!" I said, spacing each word out and hoping he would get the picture.

"We'll get ice cream?" He said, when he saw me starting to get pissed. I tilted my head at his offer, biting the inside of my cheek, weighing my options.

"Strawberry?"

"Whatever flavor you want." He said ruffling my hair. And that was it. I was in the car, driving with Jake to who knows where, going to do who knows what.

We drove for about five minutes when I felt my nausea act up again. I held my stomach and took deep breaths as he drove, that didn't help and I felt like it was coming out.

"Stop the car!" I said in a panic.

The moment he pulled over, I pushed the car door open and jumped out. I bent over and threw up on the side of the road. I felt my knees growing weak as my stomach heaved in, making it feel like my stomach lining was being ripped out.

"Are you okay?" He asked as he rubbed his hand on my back, in and upwards and downwards motion.

"I just threw up!!" I yelled and used my sleeve to wipe my mouth.

"I know that.. I saw it all. I'm asking if you're feeling better?" He asked helping me get up.

"I don't know what to feel. I'm not sure, how I am supposed to feel?" I said honestly. He looked at me like he didn't have a clue about what I was talking about and yet, he still nodded and smiled at me.

"Come on.. let's get that ice cream." He said wrapping his arm around my shoulder and guiding me to the car.

I sat in silence as I ate my ice cream and honestly speaking, it tasted like heaven. The smooth strawberry flavored substance just glided down my throat.

"So?" He asked as he ate his vanilla one, waiting for my explanation that I had been stalling on.

"I'm pregnant " I said as I looked down at my ice cream, not having the appetite to eat it anymore.

"Okay and why do you look unhappy about it?"

"Why aren't you surprised?" I said raising my eyebrow.

"It was bound to happen, you're a wolf that can bear children Drew, and besides you were bitching for no reason, and you threw up like crazy, doesn't take a genius " he said filling his mouth with ice cream.

"I was not bitching" I said rolling my eyes.

"Sure you weren't, now what's your real deal? You haven't been you for a while now, and I know something is up. What's going on?" He asked. I sighed and slumped my head on the table.

Where do I even begin???

" I don't know if he wants kids yet, he doesn't talk to me. I have no idea what he's thinking, what he's feeling. It's like -"

"Hold up, didn't you mark him?" He asked.

I shook my head and looked down, because the truth is whenever we had sex, once he was done he would just get up and leave, and that had been only two times since we were mated. The night of our mating ritual, and once after that. We had tried again after he had forced me the first night, but it just didn't happen like I thought it would. He hadn't forced me, but he didn't look at me either, didn't touch me with loving hands. He finished and left and I began thinking that maybe..

He didn't want me to mark him.

"I didn't get around to it yet" I said as I twirled my spoon around the bowl of ice cream, that was now melted.

"Drew, its been a month" Jake said utterly concerned in a soft voice while his eyes showed worry.

"I know, it's all new to us. We've never even spoken as kids. We don't know each other, which is why I didn't want to have a baby, not now" I said as I felt the tears slowly gathering.

"Ever heard of condoms?" He said as if it was the solution to my problems.

"You're not helping!" I said as I cried. He reached over and wiped them away as they fell.

"It's okay.. I'm here for you.. It'll get better.. I promise" I nodded my head and smiled at him.

I hoped it would get better.. but that didn't mean it would..