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I stared at Kaden from my place on his desk as he worked away on whatever, picking up his glass of scotch I took a small sip, "Lets have sex."

He froze, pen still in hand, halfway through a word. After a moment he shook his head off as if coming out of a daze and continued working, mumbling something to himself.

I frowned, did he not hear me? "Kaden, I want to have sex. With you, like now."

He froze again, sparing me a glance before working and mumbling.

I glared at his stupid head, slamming the glass on the desk, "What the hell?! did you not hear me?"

He didn't even glance at me, "I head this preposterous statement about having sexual intercourse with the blonde woman sitting on my desk."

I rolled my eyes, "oh yeah baby talk proper to me."

A smile tugged at his lips, "Anytime pet."

I mimicked him childishly, "Seriously though, no ones around you banished them all from this wing of the house when you stormed in here all angry like and locked yourself in the office."

It was silent for a moment, "...I did lock the door, how did you get in here?"

I picked up the glass again and toasted my epicness, "I picked the lock!"

"I'm not even going to ask how you know how to do that."

I shrugged, "Doesn't matter, lets have sex."

He ignored me.

I pursed my lips, "Did you not like my vagina?"

He dropped his pen and looked at me in utter shock, "what the bloody hell are you going on about now?!"

"Your fangs didn't fall out, I'm sure your thingamajig will be fine, no risk of falling off your body...I think."

"I'm not having sex with you."

"Sooo you didn't like my va-"

He cut my off with a reprimanding glare, "this has nothing to do with your genitalia."

Ah damn he was in full Lord Dawson mode. "Then why won't you have sex with me?"

"Because Calla, we literally just talked about why I cannot be with you yesterday, or did you forget the whole speech?"

"...wait I thought that just meant we can't get freaky in the pool again."

"No, it meant we cannot cross those boundaries again, ever."

I sipped at the scotch thoughtfully, "but no one's around."

"I am aware."

"no one will know."

"I am aware."

"My lady bits, they need some lovin' you know."

"I am aw- Shut up Calla"

I pouted, "your doing Anglica again aren't you?"

"I am not."

"So why do you smell like her?"

He was quiet for a long moment, "because she came to my room last night."

A pain shot though my chest. I downed the rest of the scotch, "...knew it."

"I turned her away after a few tiresome moments of her advances."

"Why?"

His eyes flickered over me for a moment, "She cannot give me what I want."

I hummed under my breath, secretly relived, "and what is it you want oh master of mine?"

He shrugged, "whatever pleases me, she does not."

Well that wasn't evasive at all, "know what i want?"

"what?"

"Sex. I am so not dying a virgin knowing that you could have mended that."

Kaden shot me a glare, "I am not going to have sex with you Calla that is the end of the conversation."

I poured some more scotch, "but...I don't want to-"

He cut me off with a low growl, Taking the glass of scotch from me and downing in one go, "If you are really that concerned about passing on with your virginity still in tact I got quite a few offers from other pet owners at the ball about breeding you."

I coked on air, "w-what?! breeding me?! ew what kind of sick twisted shit is that?!"

"Sometimes pets get restless...and frustrated. it is not uncommon for a vampire to allow their pet to have a sexual encounter with another pet as long as the possibly of a chid is involved. Many vampires fancy the Idea of having their future pet from the same bloodline as the one they own at the moment."

"thats disgusting."

He shrugged, "It is a requirement by law that the pet gets a choice in their partner, if both pets and owners are in agreement..." He trailed off waving his hand in a small circle.

I scrunched my nose up in disgust, "But I don't want to have some brainwashed bitch boy pop my cherry...I wanted you to do that."

I could have sworn I saw him smile. "Then it is a good thing I told them all that you were not going to be going anywhere near their pet's and that even if I allowed you to breed they couldn't afford the price it would take to get their pets in a room with you."

I let out a small laugh, "ah yes I forgot you're a jealous drunk."

He hummed to himself, "yes well some of the male pets looked rather disappointed to know that they would not be permitted to have intercourse with you."

"Probably a good thing too."

"And why is that."

I shrugged, "probably scream your name halfway through, talk about awkward."

He let out a low chuckle, "damn it Calla what am I going to do with you?"

I shrugged, "have sex with me?"

He laughed again.

"No, seriously, let have sex."

"No pet."

"Are you sure this isn't about my vag-"

"I am sure."

I nodded pouring him another glass of booze, "feeling better now?"

He looked up at me surprised, "what?"

I grinned at him, "you were really tense and angry and talking to yourself earlier. Someone had to calm you the hell down, figured I should give it a shot."

He rose a brow at me, "you asked me to have sex with you in order to get me to relax?"

"Yup."

His eyes scanned my body slowly, "And if I had bent you over my desk and and taken you?"

"Well then I guess that would have calmed you down too huh?"

He shook his head at me, "You are something else pet."

I shrugged, "So...what had you all angry anyways?"

"I believe I have figured out who the human who drugged you was."

I nodded, "I see...lets have sex to celebrate."

I grinned, giggling a bit as his laugh echoed through the room. "I was serious pet, we cannot cross the boundary. Remember that if you ever decide you are serious about wishing to have sex."

I watched him resume his work, debating if I should tell him I was serious about it that last time.

I didn't, instead I told him I was going to get us some food and quietly padded from the room.

It wouldn't do him any good if he had to deal with my taboo desires along with everything else.

Just because I had feelings for the man and knew he was probably the only man I would even get a chance to have feelings for in my entire life didn't mean I should disrupt everything that he had build over however long he had lived. I couldn't do that for my stupid sex drive.

I couldn't do that to him, I couldn't watch the regret on his face every day after the fact for however long, I couldn't possibly ruin everything for him just because I didn't want to be a friggin virgin the rest of my life.

I looked back down the empty hall, a small smile gracing my lips.

Besides just being able to be the one to calm him down and being the only one he allows near him after he's banished everyone else from even being in the same wing of the house as him was good enough.

Right?