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I moaned into Kades lingering kisses, my mind hazy from all the wine I had consumed, "mmmh...Kaden wait.."

He pulled away from my lips dotting kisses down my jaw and neck, "mmhmm?"

"...will you call me a trollop again in the morning?"

His body went still, grip tightening on my hips a moment, "no baby, I won't ever call you a trollop or any of those things again."

I bit my lip leaning back onto the bedroom doors which Kaden had locked the moment he closed them behind us and pressed my body against the cool wood, "Am I acting like one? letting you...wanting to..." I trailed off.

"Do you feel like one?"

"...No should I?...I'm confused."

"You shouldn't love, your in charge tonight-"

I grinned cheekily, cutting him off, "So I can tie you to the bed?"

"No. thats not ever going to happen, but you can tell me what you want, if I go to far, if theres something you don't like, if theres something you wish to try."

I nodded a bit, "and if I tell you that that I want to take it easyish tonight?"

He shot me a teasing smirk, "easyish?"

"...I may have a thing for a dominating vampire between the sheets."

His deep, sensual, laughter echoed through the room, "don't tempt me too much baby. Ill be good if you do."

I blinked, "Well then I guess I'm fucked in more ways than one..."

He pressed his forehead against my own, flashing his fangs in a grin, "yes, I supposed you are."

His lips crashed against my own and before I knew it, my feet were no longer on the floor.

I moaned, wrapping my legs around him as his tongue snaked between my lips; a primal, masculine, growl escaped his throat.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, my head was screaming at me telling me after this nothing would be the same, if anyone ever found out I would be killed, it was too early in the relationship to be doing this, it was stupid to do this at all no matter how much I cared about him.

But unfortunately that was the back of my mind and the rest of my brain was zoned in on how hard his chest was pressed against mine and how soft his lips were. How nice it felt to kiss him, how nice it had felt for him to touch me the night of the ball.

I started unbuttoning his shirt, practically ripping it off his shoulders and down his arms once the last one was undone.

Pulling away I kissed down his jawline, Kaden was easily the best looking man I have ever laid my eyes on and part of me could not wait to run my tongue over his abs and his scar.

The more I looked at it the more I liked it actually, sad as the way he got it was, it fit him well. "Kaden..."

His voice was rough and husky with need, sending shivers down my spine, "yeah baby?"

"Get your ass on that bed, I want to lick you."

The way his muscles moved beneath his skin as he laughed did not help my patience level. Still he took a step back, keeping ahold of me so I wouldn't fall from my place wrapped around him, and another and another until his leg hit the bed.

Then after a sly grin on his part, we both fell into the mass of sheets.

Unable to help it I let out a giggle on top of him as he laid back with his arms behind his head, one eyebrow raised as if to say 'well my perfect ass, its on the bed. now what?'

scrapping my nails down his chest lightly I smirked, leaning down and kissing him again, letting my fingers draw patterns on his body I decided to be bold.

Slowly I reached for the zipper on my top, pulling it down before I could even think to change my mind, the ties on my skirt followed, leaving me in nothing but a tiny pair of panties.

I flushed when my eyes connected with his, "Would now be a good time to tell you how much I want you?"

He smiled at me, reaching up to trace his knuckles down my cheek, "Pretty sure its one of those moments where we're not supposed to use words."

I think he knew how nervous I was on the inside because he gently flipped ups over and kissed my lips lightly before dotting my body with soft kisses as his fingers caressed my legs and thighs.

I moaned softly as his lips moved over my hip bone and to the edge of my panties, his tongue darted out to taste my skin just above where the silk of my underwear started. Then with a quick teasing grin, he removed them.

With his teeth.

grinning over me like a cat he licked his lips, "have I ever told you how fucking gorgeous you are?"

I nodded slowly, very conscious of the way his fingers reached my body as his other hand oh so slowly removed his belt.

He kissed me again, murmuring against my lips about how he thought I was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen in his entire life.

I melted against him with a moan as his fingers made their way into my slick folds, wasting no time in slipping his fingers inside me. I squirmed underneath him as his lips captured my nipple, moaning softly at his surprisingly gentile touch, "Kaden..."

He looked up at me eyes softening, "I'll be gentile tonight Calla, I want your first time to be all the things it should be, all the slow kisses and sweet nothings whispered in your ear. Even if things go bad for us baby I want you to remember tonight, okay? remember my favorite color and I'll remember yours, I want you to remember each moment and in those memories I want you to remember me making love to you. not taking my pleasure out of that beautiful vulnerability you have, but me showering you with all the affection your small body can handle. Okay?"

I felt a tear slip down my cheek at his words and the gravity of what we were about to do hit me.

I could die.

I could die for wanting to be with the man who was smiling down at me and brushing my tears away, If anyone found out about this I would be killed and Kaden would to.

But he still wanted me.

And I wanted him too, I wanted to see his face every day I woke up and I wanted to make him smile I know the way no one else can. Offering my own soft smiled I pulled him down to me and kissed him softly, slowly, sweetly, murmuring against his lips, "No matter what happens Kaden I won't forget a single thing, not this moment. Not tonight, not any night before that."

He smiled against me, "good."

It was then I felt him against me completely, I hadn't even realized he had fully stripped until his fingers left where they had been stroking my thighs keeping me aroused even as the situation turned serious and intertwined with my own, he warned me softly that it would hurt a bit but he wouldn't let it last.

He acted as if he could keep it from hurting a bit, like he could magically stop it. And that made me smile. It was just another thing that reminded me that this wasn't a mistake because even if I started to doubt myself later on Kaden would never let this be a mistake.

His tongue slipped past my lips and tangled with mine as he pushed forward, I gasped a bit and tried to close my thighs as the uncomfortable feeling of being stretched filled me but Kaden just kissed me more and held my hands tighter, a silent way of telling me to relax. I tried my best but failed when I felt him push past the barrier of my virginity.

I gave out a little yelp, my nails digging into his hands and my legs wrapping around him in a silent warning for him to keep the hell still.

He did, pulling his lips from mine, "shh baby its okay just relax okay?"

I glared at him, "If it didn't hurt like a bitch I would kick you in the ass."

He hissed as I shifted under him, trying to get more comfortable, "baby...fück you need to stop that."

I did it again figuring if I was in pain he could be annoyed.

That was a mistake because once I did, he gripped my hands tighter and pushed himself all the way inside me, I let out a shocked gasp as he practically growled against my neck cussing lowly.

Everything was quiet for a moment before he let go of my hands and kissed me fiercely, his fingers trailing down my body before wrapping around my hips lightly, "hell baby your so tight...fück. so fücking wet..."

I flushed as he rocked his hips a little causing us both to gasp in pleasure. By now the pain had faded leaving behind a kind of fullness I didn't even know existed, it was like ever nerve in my body was alive and everything was centered at my sex. his grip tightened on my hips as he moved inside me, starting slowly, building a tempo that had me gasping and withering on the sheets.

Digging my hands into his hair as he teased my nípple with his tongue and teeth, I practically screamed, "god, Kaden!"

my keening mewls and tiny shrieks of pleasure only seemed to spur him on, causing him to pick up the pace even further, playing with my unoccupied breast with one and snaking the other one to rub my Clít. My hips raised off the mattress thrust for thrust as my moans raised in pitch.

I wrapped my legs tightly around him clawing at his back in abandonment as his name spilled from my lips in the form of broken moans and in-between encouragements.

Suddenly his lips left my breast and he was kissing his way up my neck, nipping at my earlobe and whispering in my ear, "Calla baby...cüm for me."

I did, I came with a scream, my whole body shuddering in pleasure as I heard him moan on top of me his own body shaking slightly with the force of his own orgasm as he bit my neck, almost hard enough to break skin. The small flash of pain caused me to man again, wrapping my arms around his shoulder as a tiredness took over my body, "...Kaden..."

He rolled off of me and pulled me to him, my body curled into his on instinct and I cuddled into his chest. He kissed the top of my head stroking my back softly, "thank you Calla."

I furrowed my brows in confusion, what the hell was he thanking me for? I would have asked but my eyelids had grown to heavy to keep open and I slowly drifted off to sleep.