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"I d-didn't meant t-to do that!" I cried sitting on the tiled floor "oh my Allah! Why are you crying sis please stop it!" Someone hugged me tight kneeling down beside me.

"I h-hurted him asfu I hurted h-him very b-badly!" I hiccuped not being able to say it properly as pain engulfed my whole body.

She caressed my back while holding me tight "please don't cry I'm sure you didn't meant to do that, he'll understand but please for Allah's sake stop crying!" She pleaded in a soft tone but I shook my head "that's the problem asfu he understands me and always end up getting hurt either way, I feel so guilty I feel so ill about myself I just hate it when he gets hurt because of me! He doesn't deserve any of this heartaches which I'm giving him!" I wailed clutching her gown as she struggled to calm me.

"I'm trying asfu I'm trying very hard to forget my past and move on with him, but its not easy whenever I make a move something or the other happens i remain in that same position I'm so tired of being stuck in the same place and on top of that he always understands me never imposes his rights on me and he's such an incredible father for zain which swells my heart seeing them happy together he's a great man asfu any girl would be over the moon to have him but look at me a girl who's stuck in the past and cannot able to move on!" I sniffed while wiping my tears harshly.

"I tried to forget dani but I failed every single time no matter what I do everything reminded me of him and whenever I think to give zaamin a chance or whenever we get close, I look at him in a different way his nature character everything pulls me towards him but at the same time I feel like I'm his feelings how can I allow zaam to get close to me when I claim to love dani! My mind is so twisted that I constantly run in the same circle which has no end!" I let my heart out in front of asfa maybe it was the first time I'm confessing this, my inner thoughts.

"I have no idea how can I ever solve something which I'm not able to understand! Its damn hard!" I cried not being able to withold anything.

Asfa remained silent throughout my rambles but she cupped my face and made me look at her wiping my eyes "look at me sis just listen to me ok? I know its hard for you losing your husband when you needed him the most would've hurted like hell i won't even understand the pain which you've gone through but also listen to this!" She smiled at me lightly.

"I'm not asking of you to forget him all I'm saying is not many people get a second chance at love you're getting it so you should embrace it without any guilt and you don't have to forget dani bro or replace him for doing that he will always hold a special place in your heart you just have to allow someone to make place for themselves and believe me when it'll happen you know he's the one and dani bro would have only wished for you to be happy always and he would've want you to make new memories and live happily!" She told me with a gentle smile and her every word pierced my soul maybe she's right maybe this is the sign I needed.

"But will he forgive me?" She asked as fresh set of tears escaped her eyes and asfas own was brimming with tears "he will sis he will because his happiness lies in you!" She told hugging me tight but my eyes widened "B-but where is he ? He was so hurt by my actions that he stormed off will he be alright? I'm so worried for him?" I asked her sniffing and wiping my tears, I wanted to ask his forgiveness I've taken him granted for so long and now its my turn to correct my mistakes but the main question

Where was he?

The sky had turned dark with twinkling stars and the moon glowing on its might giving it a soothing view for the eyes.

Zaamins car was parked on the cliff area with the head lights blinking continously on the side as he sat on the edge of the cliff with his legs dangling in the air.

His suit jacket was gone hair messy with a broken heart he looked miserable in his own way.

He just sat there looking at the beautiful sky with tears filling his baby blue eyes as he exhaled a heavy sigh like all his strength went away indeed he exactly felt like that.

Why was he such an unlucky fellow?

He asked himself as his tears seemed unstoppable is loving someone more than himself wrong? Rejection and pain is this what they get for loving someone with all their might?.

A sarcastic laugh escaped his lips of how he's the one that always end up paying for others mistake he wiped his tears harshly as the agony in his heart continued to burn.

Was he not good enough? Or wasn't he worthy enough for anyone's love? So many questions popped on his mind making him pull his hair out in frustration.

When his eyes landed on her for the very first time he knew she was the only one whom he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, He married her because he felt a connection with her, he accepted zain as his own and that kid was such a blessing for them he respected her decision to take everything slow he gave her space he gave all his attention, care and love but what did he get in return?

Why is life so unfair with him? Why can't he get happy ending like everyone else?

The loneliness which he dealt in his entire life felt nothing in comparison to what he was feeling now

Why his heart always loves the one who cannot reciprocate his feelings? Will he be ever happy ? Despair and hopelessness filled his heart.

He was the only one fighting for their relationship from the start, he was the one who put all his efforts to make it work, he did all the things to finally end up in nothing

Absolutely nothing!

He didn't knew what hurt him most her rejection or her tears of helplessness ?

Can he be any more pathetic? If she doesn't want him in his life then why should he make useless efforts to only get hurt in the end why should he put them both in misery?

But his stupid heart still loves her deeply!

No matter how much she hurt him his heart will never be able to hate her because he was a pathetic fool in love!

Her lucid jade eyes which always held him captive because it showed him various emotions which he wanted to explore.

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e didn't knew how long he sat their wallowing in self pity after what felt like eternity he stood up with a firm determination his mind was set but when he stood up he was already on the edge of the cliff that his leg tripped from stepping on a slippery mud that he lost his balance as he fell off the cliff but his reflex was quick that his hand caught the huge rock and was hanging from the cliff.

The depth of the cliff was so high if he fell he didn't knew if he would even has the chance to survive he grunted in pain as the sharp edge of the rock was cutting his skin and blood was seeping out.

He tried to climb but his every attempt just made him weaker and he was losing his strength, he looked down and everything was dark a humorless chuckle escaped his lips as he thought maybe this is the way his life was going to end.

But did he have any regrets in life? And the answer was no! He gulped when his hand become to lose its grip on the rock as his fingers was sliding from the rock one by one.

He closed his eyes as the smiling face of aala was the last thing he saw before his grip slipped from the rock..

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