I wake up early as usual.

My life had changed alot in past 4 days. I wasn't taking my depression pills anymore. My nights had became peaceful without them. Now I pray regularly.

I am happy with the family I have.

You can't even imagine how soothing is to forgive someone. You feel burden less. I forgave Ibtihaj and now I am feeling so light and free. I want Allah to forgive me then how couldn't I forgave HIS people?

I realized that it was his right as a husband but may be he was too dumb to know that he should be gentle and easy.

Idiot!!!

I rolled my eyes and went towards garden for a morning walk.

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It was now afternoon when I took my notebook and marched towards Amma's room.

All the girls gathered and sat down.

"Start with the same of Allah who is the most merciful and the most beneficial!!

Today we will learn about Surah Noor which means the light.

In this Surah moral values have been described properly. In this Surah Allah commands women to hide themselves and cover theirbody in front of non-mehram males and many other things.

Allah says,

"O Believers, do not follow in Satan's footsteps, for he will incite to indecency and wickedness any who will follow him. If Allah had not shown His Brace and mercy to you, none of you would have been able to cleanse yourself, for it is Allah alone Who cleanses whom He wills, and Allah is All-Hearing, All-Knowing."

So if someone gets knowledge about Islam and gets closer to Allah then it's because of Allah's will.

Allah further added that,

"Those among you, who are bountiful and persons of means, should not swear on oath that they would withhold their help from their relatives, the indigent and those who have left their homes for the cause of Allah: they should forgive and forbear. you not wish that Allah should forgive you? and Allah is Forgiving and Merciful."

So this is the point that is highlighted here about forgiving others.

When we, ourselves expect Allah to forgive us then it would be mean if we don't forgive others.

Allah further says,

"Those who charge with slander those Believing women, who are chaste but simple souls, are accursed in this world and in the Hereafter: there is a great punishment for them. They should not forget the Day when their own tongues and their own hands and test will bear testimony in regard to their misdeeds. On that Day Allah will give them the full recompense they deserve, and they will realize that Allah is the very Truth, Who makes the Truth manifest."

This is how Islam and Quran protect women's status.

Allah havepromised about punishing those who accuse innocent women.

If someone finds himself being accused and forbidden by people he should remember that Allah is here who have promised to do justice.

"Impure women are for impure men and impure men for impure women, and pure women are for pure men and pure men for pure women."

In this way no one will face injustice. You can't say the you were so pious and pure but you got exceptional partner.

Allah says,

"O Prophet, enjoin the Believing men to restrain their gaze and guard their private parts and not to display their adornment except that which is displayed of itself, and to draw their veils over their bosoms and not to display their adornment except before their husbands, their fathers, the fathers of their husbands, their sons and the sons of their husbands(from other wives), their brothers, their brothers' sons, their sisters' sons, their female associates and those in their possession and male attendants incapable of sex desire and those boys who have not yet attained knowledge of sex matters concerning women; also forbid them to stamp their feet on the ground lest their hidden ornaments should be displayed. O Believers, turn all together towards Allah: it is expected that you will attain true success."

So this is conclusion about Pardah.

I have heard down girls say that it's my body and it's my choice whether to hide it or not. Why don't you ask men to keep their gazes low? Why should we women have to cover ourselves?

So my dear daughters Islam doesn't do injustice with anyone.

Where Allah ask women to hide themselves then in the very next Ayah HE also asked men to protect their gazes and private parts.

Quran says,

"Allah is the light of the heavens and the earth: His light (in the universe) may be likened (to the light of) a lamp in a niche: the lamp is in a glass shade: the glass shade is like a glittering star and lamp is lit with the olive oil of a blessed tree which is neither eastern nor western: its oil is (so fine) as if it were going to shine forth by itself though no fire touched it (as though all the means of increasing) light upon light (were provided); Allah guides to His light whomever He wills.He cites parables to make the Message clear to the people; He has perfect knowledge of everything.(Those who obtain guidance to His light are found) in the houses which He has enjoined to raise up and to mention His name therein. In them such people glorify Him morning and evening as are not diverted by trade and merchandise from remembering Him and from establishing Salat and paying Zakat, for they fear the Day when the hearts will be overturned and the eyes will become petrified. (And they behave like this) so that Allah may reward them for their excellent deeds and, in addition to it, show His favor to them out of His bounty: Allah provides without stint for anyone He pleases."

He is the one who has the knowledge of what is in Heaven or what on earth. Each and every living and non living thing glorify Allah. Everything knows it's mode of prayers.

Quran says,

"Allah makes the cloud move gently then joins its pieces together: then gathers it into a mass of thick cloud: then you see that rain-drops fall down from its midst: and He sends down hail out of the high up mountains in the heaven: then He smites with it whom He wills and turns it away from whom He pleases: then a flash of lightning from it dazzles the eyes. He alternates the day and the night: there is indeed a lesson in it for those who have observing eyes."

All these Ayah show that how Vegas a human being is. He can't do anything until Allah wills.

He is firm on his words and says,

"Allah has promised to those among you who believe and do righteous deeds, that He will make them successors in the land just as He made those who passed away before them, and that He will establish their religion, which He has approved for them, on strong foundations and will change their (present) state of fear into peace and security. Let them worship Me and associate none with Me; and the one who disbelieves after this,shall be of those who are perverse transgressors. Therefore, establish Salat, pay the Zakat dues and obey the Messenger; it is expected that you will be shown mercy. Do not think about those who have disbelieved that they will be able to frustrate Allah in the land; their abode is Hell and it is a very evil abode"

Human deeds don't affect Allah. If human beings do such good deeds that they can cover up whole universe then still it can't affect Allah and if they do such bad deeds that can cover up whole universe still it won't affect Allah in anyone. He is not the one who needs us and our prayers but we, humans are the ones who need Him and His blessings."

Amma stopped and class ended.

Author's p.o.v

Surely Anfal got lots of things to do after all this.

She directly towards her room and opened her cupboard and saw that there was not a single dress of her her having duppata or veil. All she got were tiny strollers and mufflers .

She went in front of mirror and saw her reflection.

She used to wear jeans with frocks and for the first time that how her jeans reveal her legs that even their curves were can be seen. Her frock's length was not that much to cover up her legs.

Her hair were dangling on her shoulders uncovered to see.

For the first time she felt disgusted of herself.

She quickly shut her cupboard and ran towards Narmeen's room.

"Can you go for shopping with me please?"

She asked as soon as she approached her.

Narmeen nodded and after doing some of her remaining work they went for shopping.

Anfal bought many simple and classical dresses which had full sleeves. They weren't embroided nor too much expensive. All of them were having long veils with them.

She bought abayas and scarfs.

Today she didn't go to any high class mall but a simple market where normal people go who don't own high status.

For the first time in her life she was happy and peaceful after doing shopping.

Narmeen was first shocked when Anfal asked her to take her low class market and was surprised to see her shopping list but deep down she was delighted to notice this change.

After returning home she took her previous clothes out of her cupboard and set her new clothes and abayas instead.

After taking a detailed shower she slipped into a simple green colour dress.

She went in front of mirror and dried her hair.

After combing her hair she opened a tutorial on YouTube and after watching it for more than 5 times she started making braid.

Somehow it turned cool.

"Woah!!!"

Anfal smiled looking at her reflection.

For the first time in her life she braided her hair happily woth her will or else she uaed to think that braiding your hair make you look like a puppet and it was a low class fashion but now she was loving it.

(Anfal's hair)

(I am so in love with this Dutch braid😍❤)

"Allah knows what I did but it's not looking bad but cool and damn good!!"

Anfal smiled patting her shoulder in admiration.

She quickly went towards washroom and after doing her ablution she drape long veil around her head like a hijab and smiled at her reflection.

Not even a one bit of her skin was on display like before. Her back and front were covered properly. Not her hair were dangling like before and somehow she liked it.

It was so soothing. No tension of making hairstyles and all.

She spread prayer Matt and started praying Esha.

Moon was smiling looking at her who was looking so pure and innocent without any materialistic thing on her skin.