Suho was dumbstruck by Sehun's words, he couldn't believe his own ears that what he just heard the younger man speak was true or was it just his mind playing tricks on him?

"Jun... say something?" Sehun asked looking at Suho's face for any sign of emotion, expect all he found was Suho staring at him wide-eyed.

"I'm trying please Jun..." Sehun begged. he really was trying, he wanted to prove to Suho that he can change and be a perfect husband and father figure for their child.

Suho shook his head, eyes now moved down to the hem of his shirt which had gotten tight around his body. "I know you are but i'm afraid.."

"Afraid of what Jun?" Sehun took Suho's hands in his, gripping them in a secure manner.

"Afraid of loosing you again." Suho whispered dryly. He didn't even have the courage to tell Sehun that without sounding weak. Sehun sighed shifting his chair closer to Suho's .

"You don't have to be worried about that love. I won't ever loose you, you're way more precious than anything. all this time i've been blinded by my work, way too starstruck to attain to be number one when i should've spent my time with you, i'm the one to blame here. i'm really stupid, you should slap me and punch me Jun, i deserve every slap i get from you."

"I would never slap you Sehun .."

"I deserve it though Suho , i deserve it for being a fuck up. i couldn't sleep the entire night when you kicked me out of the hospital room, i cried the entire night. i felt like killing myse-" Suho quickly silenced Sehun by bringing his finger up and placing it over Sehun's dry chapped lips.

"Don't say that please." Suho mumbled. he couldn't imagine his life without Sehun even though whatever happened to him in the past. If something happened to Sehun he couldn't forgive himself.

"Jun.." Sehun choked out, on the verge of crying again. He hated himself so much right now, he wanted to hit himself if Suho wasn't going to do it. He wanted to feel the pain Suho had went through all this time while he enjoyed his life and was too stuck up in his work. Suho on the other hand couldn't stand Sehun crying, he couldn't see half his soul cry.

"I forgive you..." he coaxed. "What?" Suho shook his head bitting his bottom lip.

"I forgive you Sehun .." that was enough for Sehun to take Suho in his arms and start sobbing in the boy's grasp. He knew even though Suho said he had forgiven him, he wasn't fully forgiven and he really had to show Suho now that he would he the most ideal husband.

"Sorry Jun, sorry." Sehun mumbled against Suho neck while Suho rubbed his hand against the back of the taller lad.

"Please just don't hurt me again Hun, please."

"I won't."

"Promise?"

"Promise." that was just enough for Suho to connect his lips with Sehun's who he missed against himself so much. The kiss he had lingered for so long. It started off with a peck but Sehun wasn't letting go, he pulled Suho closer to his body not letting go of the smaller boy's lips as he deepened it.

To Suho this kiss was just as good as the first one he had ever had, which belonged to Sehun as well. He could feel the fireworks setting off and his heart beating rapidly against his chest. the kiss made him feel safe and secure.

"Love you." Sehun mumbled against Suho's lips, craving more of Suho's . He wanted Suho all by himself and he wanted to show Suho how much he truly loved him.

"Sap." Suho grinned, his eyes crinkling.

"What? you don't believe me?" Sehun asked acting offended as he fake gasped still lips in contact with Suho .

"Nah uh." Suho cheekily shook his head nibbling at Sehun's bottom lip.

"Well I Oh Sehun , am in love with Oh JunMyeon so much that it's hard to put in words how much of love and affection i have towards him." Sehun shifted his hands down and placed them over Suho's pregnant belly while smiling.

"This good Sir?"

"Too sappy!" Suho chuckled.

"Just for you."

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the evening was spent lazily with Suho lying in Sehun's arms who slept peacefully cuddled up with Suho.

Suho was finally smiling again, he for once was actually thinking things could take a right turn now and everything would be fine.

Suho turned and snuggled closer to Sehun , nuzzling his head in the taller man's neck. He missed this so much, his body ached for more. the way he was cuddled up against Sehun's body and how he was able to smell the aroma off him made Sehun really happy. Sehun turned towards suho's side, a silly grin plastered on his face and he cuddled up Suho in his arms pulling the smaller lad closer to his body as much as he could and emit any gap between them.

"Hun.." Suho giggled.

"shhh baby, missed you. need you as close to me as possible." Sehun smiled eyes still shut as he placed his face over Suho's head.

"Please stay close to me like this." Suho whispered tracing Sehun's chest peaking out of his shirt.

"Forever ." he smiled opening his eyes as he placed a wet kiss on Suho's temples and then his nose. "Close like this to you and our baby."

When night arose Sehun suggested they go out to eat since he needed to put Suho's health back on track to which Suho obliged.

While Sehun was getting ready in the bathroom Suho was standing next to the bed looking at the three outfits he had spread on the bed, deciding upon which one he should wear.

He really wasn't in the mood for wearing anything too formal or tight, ever since he had started showing he totally despised the thought if wearing tight clothing since it made him uncomfortable and because he also looked like someone who had a beer belly other than being pregnant.

He sighed picking up his black maternity shirt, which was more like a tank top and was loose at the bottom.

Suho was just deciding upon what stretching pants he should wear when his phone rang.

"Hello ?" he spoke putting the phone on loud speaker since he felt too lazy to hold it in his hand.

"Jun?"

"Kai, hi."

Kai knew something was up because the way Suho was talking, the way his voice didn't sound sad and depressed anymore, he definitely knew something was up.

"how are you?" Kai asked obviously the question was more like "did that asshole Sehun pull any tricks to hurt you?"

"i'm fine." Suho bit his bottom lip trying not to break into a grin, he was more than fine now. he was happy.

"You seem more than fine?"

"He apologised." Suho confessed because he couldn't keep it a secret anymore, well there wasn't even a point in keeping it a secret.

"And ?"

"I forgave him."

the phrase "forgave" was enough to trigger Kai again.

"I'm sorry did you say you 'forgave' him?"

"yeah...."

"Suho , what-what are you doing," Kai sighed. "i don't understand Suho , how can you forgive him so easily, he hurt you. he hurt you a lot and after a couple of sorry's and shit you can't just let go of it this easily, you can't forgive him just like that. he hurt you and a simple apology wouldn't do taehyung, you aren't thinking with an open mind."

"he truly is sorry Kai, he apologised. i could see it in his eyes he was genuinely sorry for what he did." Suho defended Sehun , even though he himself knew it was a bit to early but he was sure Sehun was sorry for whatever he did.

"he acted like you didn't exist for two years Suho , he ignored you and only talked to you once or twice a day. he treated you like a tool, telling you not to call him while he's at work and not listening to you at all, Suho you aren't thinking properly..."

"he promised he would change, he's promised me Kai...." Suho was on the verge of crying now, just thinking about the memories how he sat staring at the door at 2am waiting for Sehun to come home ached his heart.

"i don't know what to say anymore Suho , it's not like i don't want to see you happy, it's just i think you're acting too quickly."

"he promised..."

"i know love but that's all i can say i can't force you to listen to me or anything. i just don't want you to get hurt again and completely loose yourself... just please take care okay? i'll call you later now."

the line went dead seconds after, Suho sucked in a deep breath as a few tears fell down his eyes.

"Jun?" Sehun soon walked out of the bathroom, a weak smile plastered over his face.

Suho quickly turned his back towards Sehun and wiped his eyes off. "huh?" he asked, acting like he wasn't crying a few seconds ago.

"you okay?" Sehun asked. it wasn't like it was oblivious to what had happened a few minutes ago, he had heard Suho's and Kai's conversation loud and clear.

"hmm, yeah sorry i'll just be ready in a second okay." Suho mumbled picking up a pair of stretchy pants and turned around making his way towards the bathroom. Sehun caught a hold of Suho's wrist just as he was about to pass the man by.

"i heard what Kai said." Suho looked up, eyes slightly red and swollen. "i told him you promised me..."

"i know." Sehun smiled weakly again.

"he needs to understand this Sehun.." Suho spoke again.

"but i think Kai is right, i don't deserve your forgiveness this easily."

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