"Okay look at mommy!"I semi yelled before snapping a picture of my girls and posting it on my Instagram.

Yes I said girls.

It's been a year since my last link with Shiesty and ever since then I've been taking care of two children.

Not one but two.

I've been trying to get in touch with him because after adding all this shit up it all comes down to him being Sienna's dad.

Around that time I was only fucking with him.

Then on top of that my baby even has some of his features.

I'm not sure if he knows or not because every time I message him he never answers.

In the past whenever I would hit him up he'd answer but he stopped.

I've been trying to ease up on him because he's just now getting very popular in his career and I don't wanna fuck that up.

Soon I may have to go public about this shit though if he keeps ignoring me.

"Mommy where are we going?"Samaria asked me.

"Didn't you tell me that you wanted to go shopping?"I asked her as I picked Sienna up.

"Oh yea!!"

"Mmk go put on the white shirt and your shoes"

"Take this one off?"she asked me while pointing at the shirt she had on.

"No keep it on"

"Why?"

"It's cold your gonna need two shirts babe"

"Okay"she said before running out of my room.

"Mmk where's your coat?"I said while looking around for Sienna's coat.

I walked into the living room and her coat was right there on the couch.

After putting her coat on I strapped her down in her car seat.

I headed upstairs to grab her diaper bag then went to Sam's room.

"You need help?"I asked her.

"No I'm done"

"Oh okay"I said while grabbing her coat from the closet.

"Put your coat on and come on"

"Mommy can I take my iPad?"

"Yea but when we go into the mall you're gonna have to leave it in the trunk"

"Okay"

"Alright come on" I said before we headed back downstairs and headed out to the car.

Once I got the both of them in along with myself we hit the road.

"Sam stay over here"I said while looking through some clothes for her.

"Mommy do we have to keep getting clothes? I want to go in the Disney store!"

"We can go in the Disney store but you need more clothes for school"

"I have a lot at home"

"Well we're gonna get you more"

"I only want toys"

"You'll get toys after this and after we eat then go find Sisi some clothes also"

"Okay"

"Just wait baby"

"Sisi is sleep already mommy"

"She is?"I asked while looking in the stroller.

"Yep"

"Aww my little baby"I cooed while looking at her.

Before we got here I fed her and now she's out like a light.

Right after Sam eats she's gonna get tired also.

I headed over the the cash register and got in line to checkout.

We were in H&M.

"Oh wow look at that"I heard the lady at the register say and I looked back seeing a crowd on the other side of the mall.

I raised my eyebrows before turning around.

I was unbothered until I started seeing the workers go to the door.

When I turned around the second time I noticed the crowd on this side and security guards at the door.

I grabbed Samaria's hand and we watched as someone walked through the crowd along with a group of other guys.

Whoever it was, he had on a ski mask that covered every part of his face except for his eyes.

Those eyes looked familiar to me but I didn't really pay it no mind.

My focus was on them getting the damn crowd away from that door.

Shit when my kids and I get ready to leave we gone get the hell up outta here.

Once the door was closed I turned my attention to the guy and he was standing right in front of me.

"Wassuh"he said and I looked at him.

"Pooh!?"

"Yea, wassuh?"

"Oh hi"

"Wassuh you been trynna get in touch with me"

"Yea I have but this isn't the place to talk about it now"

"Nah if you got some to tell me gone and tell me now"

"No seriously it can wait"I nodded.

"Nah I'm wanting to know now Cus ain't no telling when ima see you again"

I sighed as I looked at the dudes standing around him then at Samaria.

"Can you at least just answer my calls or messages? This isn't the right time or place to tell you what it is that I have to tell you"

"I can try but I can't guarantee you that I will"

"Oh okay that's fine"I said while nodding and going up in the line.

"Aight you'n wanna tell me right here in front of everybody, let's go over there and talk"he said while pointing to a corner in the store that was ducked off.

"I can't leave my kids right here"I said while looking at him.

"Aight, 30 come watch them for us"He said to one of the dudes.

"Nigga I ain't good with kids"the chubby dude said.

Looks like you ain't good with taking care of yourself either.

Big bloody bottom lip having ass.

"Nooo it's fine"I said while looking at Pooh.

"Nigga all you gotta do is stand here and watch em, bring yo big lazy ass on!"He said to him.

"Aight"the dude said and I pushed the stroller to the side.

"Sam baby stay right here with him don't you go anywhere else, I'll be back okay!"

"Okay mommy"

"Mmk keep an eye out for your sister"

"Okay, can I hold your hand?"she asked him.

He hesitated before giving in and holding her hand.

Sure is fat and lazy.

I walked with Pooh to the corner.

"Wassuh?"

"Okay so you remember when we linked back in December, about a year ago?"

"Yea what about it?"

"Umm right after that I had found out that I was pregnant and I had the baby sh—"

"Aight so what that gotta do with me?"

"She could be yours"

"Mmcht. Mane hell nah! The last thing a bitch finna do is pin a fucking baby on me! Aye let's get the fuck up outta hur!"he said before walking away from me.

I almost started crying but I kept it together.

I headed back over to my kids and the big mf was still standing there holding Sam's hand.

"Thank you"I said to him and he nodded before leaving.

Luckily nobody came in the store, I was able to get in line and pay for everything.

We headed over the food court and there was a crowd right in front of Chick-fil-A.

I thought that mf had left.

"Okay we can't go there because it's a lot going on but where else do you want to eat?"I asked Sam.

"At Sonic maybe"

"Alright let's go get in line"I said before we headed over there.

We stood in line for about five minutes.

I ordered Sam a burger and fries with a nerd Slushy on the side.

I wasn't too hungry so I didn't get myself anything.

All I know is that my babies needed to eat before I did.

"Mommy she's woke!!"Sam yelled after stuffing her mouth with a fry.

The people next to us looked at me and I gave them an evil grin.

Bitch I know she was loud.

It's never that serious though because she's a child.

I went into Sienna's diaper bag and grabbed her bottle.

As soon as she started pouting I took her out.

"Hey my stinka butt!!"I cooed.

I tried putting her bottle to her mouth but she kept it closed.

"You not hungry mama?"

"Maybe she just wants her pacifier"

"You think so?"I asked Sam and she nodded.

"Yea me too"I said while grabbing it out of the stroller and putting it in her mouth.

As soon as she started sucking it she went back to sleep.

"Mommy after school is it going to be Christmas?"

"Umm Yea baby you have like three more weeks"

"Three!?"

"Yep then you'll be home with mommy and Sisi for two whole weeks"

"That sounds fun!! Are we gonna have to go to grandmas?"

"I'm not sure yet I'll have to see if I'll be working"

I looked at her as she started crying.

"What's wrong?"I asked her while putting Sienna back in her stroller and going to sit by Sam on the bench.

"I don't want you to go to work"

"Baby I have to make money so I can pay the bills and buy you and Sienna all these cool things"

"But do you have to go all the time at night"

"Yes if I don't then we'll be homeless"

"What is homeless?"

"That means that we'll have no house to live in and we'll have to live at the shelter with many other families"

She put her head down before crying harder.

"Sam, baby, talk to me what's wrong?"

"People at school call me homeless because they said that I- that I don't have a dad!"

"Oh Samaria don't worry about that. Tell them that your mommy is your dad. Tell them that you have a mommy who makes more money than their parents. Don't take what other people say serious they're all just haters. Look at me"I said to her and she looked up at me.

"No matter what, with or without a dad, I'm your mother at the end of the day. I do everything that I can to make sure you and your sister are straight. Don't listen to what other people say, fuck them. You go to school with your hair done everyday, clean clothes, new shoes, lunch money, and your own lunch. They're all just hating because they don't have all that you have. Just as long as they don't hit you or anything you're good. And if they do knock the shit out of em. I love you and you are very beautiful forget what they talm bout"I said while wiping her face.

She nodded.

"Okay now eat your food so that we can go buy you some more new clothes and shoes and toys"

"Can we get toys first?"She asked and I nodded.

Hopefully after this mall run we're in the house for the rest of the day.