I sat in the studio with Shun, his brother, and all of my brothers while eating and getting high as a kite.

Suhan was blowing up my shit because Landon was here also and she wanted him there with her and the other kids at a photo shoot.

Landon had already told us both that he wasn't interested in being on the show with Suhan, but she wants him to just because our other kids are on it.

In my opinion, if the nigga don't wanna do it then he doesn't have to.

Shit I wouldn't sacrifice my time to go be in a fucking photo shoot I don't wanna be in when I could be having a good time with my dad.

I mean Landon is older now, he can make decisions on his own.

Shit if the nigga wanna smoke he can, he wanna cook he can, he wants to make a big purchase with his money he can, if he wants a fucking baby then shit he can have one I don't give a damn.

"Bitch you had bout how many slices?"30 asked Wop.

"Don't worry bout it skinny ass nigga!"Wop said and we laughed.

"See how the roles reversed? Get like me nigga"30 said and I shook my head.

"Nigga lose a lil weight and gain some muscle, he think he Hercules"Bsavv said.

"Mane I look better than all you niggas put together, fat and all"

"Who!?"I heard Landon and Shun yell and I laughed.

"Mane you got both of my sons fucked up!"

"Nigga yo ass only 'cute' cause you play ball. Shun nigga you far from it, ion know what the fuck my niece thinking!"

"Aye nigga leave Sam outta this!"I said while mugging 30.

"Ion know what Suhan was thinking either nigga"

"Yea aight nigga"I said while rolling my eyes.

After we ate and smoked, I made Shun and B get back in the booth.

I got a new artist who I'm finna sign, two actually.

A girl and a boy.

This just the beginning though but Shiesty Records finna become greater.

"He's really not answering his phone right now, neither one of them are!"I said while calling Landon's phone then Lontrell's on my other phone.

"Mom just let it go, Landon's not gonna come!"Sienna said and I hung up both of my phones before throwing them onto the couch.

"Okay y'all go stand over there"I said while pointing where the kids had needed to stand.

"Skylar come here and let me wipe your face"I said while following after her.

She ran from me and I chased her.

Once I finally caught up to her she threw a whole tantrum and fell to the floor.

"Y'all see what I have to go through!?"I asked around at everybody else who were in here.

"Sam get him and wipe his face also"I said to her referring to Leon.

I picked Skyler up and wiped her face anyways.

"Mom look!"Sam said and I turned around to see Leon and his clothes filthy with Cheeto puff crumbs.

"You know what y'all get your stuff and let's go!"I said while putting Skylar down.

"So you're not gonna do the shoot!?"Pam asked me.

"No Pam, I'm not doing it!"

"You have to Suhan!"

"I'm not doing anything right now, I'll try again tomorrow"I said while gathering everything that we brought.

"Get their backpack Sienna"I said while grabbing my purse and picking Skylar up.

Once we had all of our things and the kids were settled in the car, we headed home.

"Leon get off of my dog!!"I exclaimed as he climbed onto Everest's back.

I turned back around for a couple of seconds to season the steak I was cooking before hearing him start crying.

"He bit you didn't he? That's what you get, get out of here!!"I said while looking at him as he held onto my leg.

"Ma-ma pick up!"he exclaimed while pulling onto my robe causing me to drop the bottle of cayenne pepper.

"Mama why you cooking in lingerie?"

"Sam please get your brother and take Everest somewhere!"

"Yea as soon as you tell me why you're cooking in lingerie"

"I'm not cooking in lingerie Sam"

"Mama you have on a lace robe and I can see your nipple"

"Mind your damn business and do what I said!"

"What you mad for?"she said and I glared at her.

"Okay okay!!"she exclaimed before picking Leon up and Everest then leaving out of the kitchen.

I continued seasoning the steak before seasoning the shrimp I had made.

As I was doing so I felt arms wrap around me.

When I looked back, I saw Lontrell of course.

He kissed my lips and I kissed him back.

"Where's Landon?"I asked him as I broke away from the hug.

"He went upstairs, how was the shoot?"

"It didn't happen"

"What you mean it didn't happen?"

"It was too much going on"

"When will it happen?"

"When I'm able to have each one of the kids there and have them actually engaged in the shoot"

"Ion think Landon's interested"

"I know he's not but if he knew how important this was to me then it'll maybe change his mind"

"Well talk to em, I'm going to go get cleaned up"he said before walking out of the kitchen and I rolled my eyes.

I grabbed my phone and texted Landon.

❤️

Once you're done getting settled in, come talk to me. I love you son!😘

I sat my phone back down before going back to what I was doing.

"Mom would you ever want to adopt Mr. Stink?"Sienna asked me and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Why would I want to adopt your pet"I said while watching as Lontrell sat down at the dinner table.

"Baby you didn't want to try the sushi I made?"

"Nah"

"Oh okay well that's exactly why I cooked the steak. I hope you all enjoy!"

"Landon where are you going?"I asked him as he were about to head upstairs with his plate.

"To my room"

"I was hoping that you'd eat dinner with us tonight, as a family. It's been a while you know"

"I gotta go study for a test that's coming up"he said while placing his beats on his ears and heading upstairs.

"Landon! We—"I began to say before looking at Lontrell.

He shrugged and I sighed.

"Why do you think he's ignoring me?"I asked Lontrell.

"He doesn't wanna do it plain and simple"

"What would be the reason for him to not want to support his mother? This is going to be on tv, I need every last one of my children there. I don't want to leave him out and have mfs thinking that I just left him out that's going to cause some more bullshit."

"I mean you know Landon ain't ever been the type to want to be seen and shit. He's laidback. Of course he wouldn't want to be on tv. Who gives a damn what everybody else thinks, he knows why he doesn't want to be on tv and you know also. What everybody else thinks, it doesn't fucking matter."

"Landon's going to be on the show regardless. I mean I'm his parent also, maybe I should start putting my foot down."I shrugged before sipping from my wine.

"Well shit I'm his parent too and I'm telling you that he ain't gone be on the show!"

"Why not!? You both know how important this is to me Lontrell!"

"If he doesn't want to be on the show then neither one of us are going to force him to be on the show point blank period, end of the discussion!"

I sighed before grabbing my glass of wine as well as my phone and then heading outside to the backyard.

It's not making any sense to me as to why Landon doesn't want to be on the show.

He shows his fucking face everywhere else, why can't he just fucking support me and show his face on television!?

Not only will he just be supporting me, but he'll also be getting paid for his time.

I think that I might just have to put my foot down and talk to him about it because I'm totally fucking confused.

I understand exactly what my mom is trynna do but with everything going on with Erica and I, I'm not sure about being on tv.

What's gonna happen when I finally tell her about Erica being pregnant?

Will there be fucking cameras in my face?

A whole lot of drama comes with being on tv, not just any kind of tv but reality tv.

Mfs are all in your business and ion want that.

She can continue to live that lifestyle but that ain't something that I'm chasing after of.