Oh my god today's the day.

It's Friday, officially 3 months.

Connor's party is tomorrow and his birthday is Sunday. He and Sienna are going on a date tonight because we have a busy weekend.

Not only is the party tomorrow, but we're going to dinner with the parents and siblings.

And I am currently waiting over at Mason's for him to get home from practice.

It was about 6:30 when he came walking in.

"Sorry baby." He tossed his bag on the floor, scooped me out of the chair I was in, and set me on the counter. "I was helping Connor find his Khaki's. He just left." He leaned in and kissed me.

"Hi." I smiled. "Happy 3 months of seeing each other boyfriend." I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"What an eventful 3 months." He smiled.

"I'm so excited to finally kiss you in public." I nodded. "Connor said he'd be home around 9:30-10:00."

He pursed his lips. "Look baby, about that." He unwrapped my arms from around him and held my hands. "I think we should wait a little longer before we tell him." He nodded.

"Wait, what?" I shook my head.

"Ol I'm not ready to tell him." He shook his head.

I sighed. "I knew you were gonna do this." I pulled my hands away.

"It's not that I don't want to tell him. I just, I don't want to lose him, or you." He ran his fingers through my hair moving it out of my face. "You understand that right?"

"No Mason, I don't." I shook my head. "Because yeah, I love Connor, his opinion is important to me. But it's not going to change anything for me. He may be mad for a while-"

"At you." He nodded. "You're his little sister, he loves you more than anything in this world. But I'm just his best friend. When he finds out I did the one thing he asked me not to, I may not be anymore. I don't want that. I want both of you. And I feel like the only way I'm going to be able to keep both of you is if we just, wait to tell him for a little while longer.

"Mason, I'm tired of being a secret." I whined. "I'm tired of having to keep you a secret."

"You've never had a problem keeping a secret before." HE shook his head.

"And what the hell is that supposed to mean." I crossed my arms.

"You kept your relationship with Saunders a secret for months." He nodded.

I raised my eyebrows. "No, I didn't." I shook my head. "Everyone knew about him aside from you four." I nodded.

"Well it was easy for you not to tell Connor about him. I'm just asking to keep things the way they are." He crossed his arms.

"I don't want things to stay the way they are." I shook my head. "I want to kiss you in public, and hold your hand at school. I want to double with Abby and Carter. And Tory and Ben. I want to go to movies with Josh and Holden, and golf with Havannah and Ryan. I want to have movie night with Sienna and Connor. I'm lying to all of my friends Mason, and I hate it. I just want to be with you like a normal couple." I nodded.

"Olivia I can't tell him yet." He sighed. "I can't. Please just don't say anything yet. I like what we have."

"I don't." I shook my head.

He raised his eyebrows. "You don't like being with me." He nodded.

"Mason, I love being with you. But I don't like being a secret. I don't want to be a secret. And I don't want the person I love to be a secret." I sighed.

"Secrets aren't always bad Olivia."

"They are to me." I nodded. "I would never want to keep someone a secret and make them feel like I'm embarrassed or ashamed of them."

"OK, and?" He shook his head.

"What?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Olivia, I can't tell him."

I pursed my lips and nodded. There is no fucking way he really just said 'OK.'

"Then don't Mason." I shook my head and jumped down from the counter. I grabbed my shoes and bag from the table, and just started walking out.

"Ol where are you going?" He grabbed my hand.

"Anywhere but here Mason." I nodded.

"Baby why? We should really talk." He sighed.

"Because Mason, it's very clear what's important to you. And that's how Connor feels about you and I. Not how we feel about each other. So this." I pointed between him and I. "Is done." I ripped my hand away and basically ran out the back door.

I didn't even bother going in my house. I jumped in my car, instantly turned it on and pulled out of my driveway, and honestly, I got off the street and parked around the corner just to breathe.

I knew this was going to happen.

I fucking knew he was going to do this.

I wiped my face and pulled my phone out when it went off.

No, hell no. No Olivia. We're not done. I just need more time.

It's been 3 months Mason. You've had 3 months.

Where the hell are you? Your car isn't here.

Just, don't Mason. I'm done being your dirty little secret.

And then he started calling me.

And I started bawling. Because I want to answer. I do. But I don't have it in me to.

I went in to my snap and turned my location off while my phone still rang.

It stopped ringing and I took another deep breath trying to regain my composure.

Then another text.

Baby answer the phone. Where are you.

I'm not answering.

You really turned your location off? Olivia talk to me, please.

I took another deep breath, put my car in drive, and just drove to the first place I could think of.

20 minutes later, I pulled in to the driveway of Jake and Kelsey's apartment home with Robbie and Marcus.

I took maybe 5 minutes to just breathe and stop crying before I got out.

I walked up to their door and started pounding.

But Robbie and Marcus' door opened instead.

"Olivia?" Robbie stepped outside.

I took a deep breath. "Hey."

"Uh, Jake and Kelsey aren't home. They're staying at Kelsey's parents tonight to keep an eye on Logan and Harley." He nodded. "Are you alright?" He leaned down to try and see my face.

I just kept looking to the side. "Mhm."

"Olivia." He reached over and turned my face toward him. His face sunk. "What's the matter?"

I could feel them again. My eyes and throat burning as my face scrunched up. "I just broke up with Mason." I sniffled.

His eyes got wide. "I'm sorry. Who?"

"Mason." I nodded. "And, I don't want to go home and deal with him."

He pursed his lips and nodded. He held his hand out. "Come on. You can stay here."

"Robbie it-"

"It's not fine." He shook his head. "Come on. Lets just, get inside, it's cold." He grabbed my hand and pulled me in.

"Where's Marcus." I wiped my face as he closed the door.

"He's at Rachel's." He nodded.

"Robbie I should really just go." I started crying harder.

"Olivia you're allowed to cry in front of me. You're allowed to talk to me too."

"You ask me out and I start dating Mason, and you want me to talk?" I cried harder.

He let out a small laugh. "Olivia your parents said no. Not you. And I care about you. So yes. You can talk if you want to talk. Or you can cry." He nodded. "I uh, I was about to order a pizza. You hungry?"

I nodded and wiped my face.

"You wanna cry until it gets here and we can eat and drink the bottle of wine that's in the fridge?" He scrunched his face.

I nodded and sniffled.

"Want a root beer float first."

I nodded and whined.

"Do I know girls or what." He nodded. "Why don't you go upstairs, grab a pair of sweats and a shirt. I'll make you a float and bring it up."

"Robbie." I cried.

"Oh Liv." He sighed and wrapped his arms around me. "It's alright." He kissed the top of my head. "Just, go change. Wrap yourself up in my bed. I'll sleep on my couch."

"I can sleep down here." I nodded.

"No." He shook his head. "It gets freezing down here at night. I'm fine on my couch OK? Harry is up there. Snuggle the fluff for a bit."

I nodded. He let me go and nudged me up the stairs. I went to his room and put on a pair of his sweats and a big long sleeves.

But all I could think about was Mason. His shirts are huge on me, but Robbie's are bigger.

I sunk in to his bed dragging Harry right up with me, and he curled right against me and licked my face as I wrapped myself in the comforter.

Robbie knocked. "You dressed?"

"Mhm." I groaned loud enough.

He opened the door with a root beer float in hand. "Pizza will be here in 30." He nodded. "Mushrooms and sausage, right?"

I scrunched my face and just started bawling.

"Oh god. Olivia." He whined and sat in front of me. "It's OK." He hugged me and squeezed.

Do you know how hard it is to down a root beer float because you're crying and your throat burns? It's fucking hard. After the third bite I couldn't do it.

Robbie just hugged me while I cried until the door bell went off.

"I'll be right back OK?" He got up and walked down stairs.

I tried to control my breathing to stop myself from crying.

I honestly felt like I was going to throw up, so the smart thing to do would be to throw my hair up in to a bun.

He walked back in with a bottle of wine, a pizza box, and two wine glasses on top.

"It's uh. It's white. You're OK with white right?"

I wiped my face and nodded.

"It's Marcus' emergency wine for when Rachel's on her period and crying." He nodded. "I figured this qualified since you're crying." He scrunched his face.

I took a deep breath. "Thank you." I nodded.

I patted the bed and wiped my face again.

He came and sat with me, moving Harry to the bottom of the bed.

Now you see, Harry is Jake's dog. Jake, is a 6'4 football player, who does body building, works in a factory bending metal, and is covered in tattoo's. His dog, Harry, is a cream colored Pomeranian with separation anxiety. I have never understood his thing with this dog, but my god he loves this damn dog.

Robbie poured me a glass of wine, and I chugged that whole thing.

"OK, so it's bad." Robbie pursed his lips.

I nodded and held my glass out. He poured me more and opened the pizza box.

One slice of pizza, and the throw up feeling I had, turned in to word vomit, when he simply said. "So what happened."

I took a deep breath. "It started the weekend before we saw you guys at the Valley." I nodded. "Mason and I ended up having sex while Connor was in Hershey picking up Oaken. We agreed to act like it never happened. But the next thing I know, he's walking in to my room at the cabin, laying in bed with me telling me he wanted a chance to be the guy for me." I shook my head and wiped my face. "So I gave him 3 months to prove he was serious. No sleeping with other people. And it shocked the hell out of me when he said deal. We agreed to not tell anyone other than Oaken. But then he slipped to our dads, and Bebe."

"Does Jake know?"

I nodded. "Jake found out when I was in the hospital because I had an ectopic pregnancy."

He sighed. "When you bled out on the kitchen floor."

"Yeah." I pursed my lips. "And, Oaken ended up telling him that I was seeing Mason. And he sent Mason to the hospital. Mason told Trish. And I told my mom I was seeing Mason because Mason told me he loved me, and I got scared. Then this past month and a half has been nothing but amazing. I mean, my hormones all fucky. But he asked me to be his girlfriend, and we've had amazing dates, and he started showing me how much he does love me."

"OK, so why'd you break up with him." HE shook his head.

"Because today the 3 month mark, and we were supposed to tell Connor tonight. And he said he didn't want to. And I'm tired of being a secret."

"Did you tell him that."

I nodded and wiped my face. "And I told him that I would never want to keep someone a secret and make them feel like I was ashamed or embarrassed by them. And he just said OK." I started crying again. "Robbie he's embarrassed by me, and he doesn't want to tell Connor."

"Ol, I'm sure that's not true. He's just, nervous about Connor."

"But if he loves me, why does it matter what Connor says." I shook my head and sniffled. "I know he loves Connor, and how important he is to him. But if he loves me it should be about how he and I feel, not Connor. I feel like Connor will always be more important than me." I nodded.

"Olivia." He wrapped his arms over my shoulders and squeezed.

"We've gone through a jealous ex boyfriend, losing a baby, telling each other we love each other. More than we should in should in high school. And it feels like those 3 months meant nothing to him now." I buried my face in Robbie's shoulder. "I love him. I'm in love with him. And he's only worried about Connor."

I'm pretty sure I cried for 3 hours. Like a straight 3 hours after that. And Robbie, he held me the entire time.

I ended up passing out, but I woke up briefly when Robbie moved to the couch.

I heard him talking as he covered me up and moved Harry back up to me.

"Yeah Jake, she's here. I just, I didn't want her driving home with her face that puffy and un-able to stop crying. ---- It's bad. Like, really bad. I'm gonna sleep on my couch. ---- I feel bad Jake, she doesn't deserve this. All he had to do was tell Connor and this wouldn't be happening. ---- Well when he gets here tomorrow he's gonna hear what the hell I have to say. I don't like seeing girls cry, especially your sister. ---- See you in the morning my guy."

I heard him flop on the couch and mumble.

"Fucking Mason."

I started crying again, but it was finally silently. Not screaming and sobbing. Just tears running down my face.

Mason.