OK, so every time we get a new student, we put a question on the application about what the mothers favorite movie is.

Dawn's favorite movie is Meet Me In St Louis, so Laylynn and I are doing a very simple dance to Under The Bamboo Tree to do at the competition this Saturday.

She's got it pretty down so far.

I've been working with my littles trio.

Abby and I have our duet down.

Will and I have been working on our duet.

And right now, I'm down in my studio, at 9:00 at night working on my solo's.

I was in the middle of a turn when the door opened and Trish came walking down.

"Olivia." She sighed.

"What's up?" I pursed my lips and shut the music off.

She sat down on the bottom step. "Have you heard from or seen Mason?"

I shook my head. "I left school early, and I haven't heard from him since I left. Why?"

"Because he also left school today, he didn't go to practice, and he didn't come home." She took a deep breath. "And neither Hank or I have heard from him. Neither has Connor."

I sighed and nodded. "What do you need me to do?"

"If you know anywhere he could possibly be, I think the only person he really wants to talk to is you."

I pursed my lips and nodded. "OK." I slid my sweatshirt on. "I'll find him."

"Thank you." She nodded.

I walked over and hugged her. "I'm sure he's alright. Just, a lot happened today."

"I know." She sighed and hugged me. "Baby I'm so sorry, but he does love you. It's just the situation-"

"I know." I nodded. "I'll get him home. OK?"

She nodded.

She walked upstairs and out the back door, I grabbed my bag from the kitchen table and headed through the living room.

"Where are you going?" Connor came walking down the stairs.

"To find your boyfriend." I shook my head.

"No, you're not."

"You know what Connor. I wasn't asking your permission. Trish asked me to find him, so I am. Not everything is about you, and you don't get to tell me what I can and can't do. So unless you're going to suck it the fuck up and realize you don't get to control my life, then shut up and sit down." I grabbed my keys off the hook and walked out to my car.

I drove to the baseball field, I drove past the basketball parking lot, I even went to the batting cages, the soccer field, and the driving range. Nothing.

I literally drove for 2 hours until I parked and looked up at the sky.

The sky is full of stars. A really bright one shot across the sky, and then I knew exactly where he was.

My heart is shattered.

With everything going on, it was already broken, and that's my fault.

But now, it's shattered.

I literally pushed her in to bed with another guy because I did the one thing I promised her I wouldn't, and that was hurt her.

I hurt myself.

As soon as she pretty much stomped out of the school with Kalum's arm wrapped around her, I waited 20 minutes running hot water all over my head, went to the nurse, and got sent home.

I did go home, but I didn't stay home.

I went and got my net, my soccer ball, my bucket of baseballs, my pitchers radar, and my glove, and I went to the field I go to to look at the stars.

I don't really know how long I've been here, but when it started to get dark I knew that I had been here for at least 12 hours just shooting, throwing, trying to up my speeds.

I went and turned my headlights on so I could see, and I checked my phone in the process. It was 9:00.

I had 83 missed texts, and 24 missed calls.

I didn't check any of them because there is not a single person I wanted to talk to.

At the top of the list of people I don't want to talk to. Connor.

This is all because of Connor.

I meant what I said at the party Saturday night.

He ruined my fucking life because he can't just, let me be happy.

The problem is, I can't bring myself to actually be mad at him.

Because much like I did the one thing to Olivia that I promised her I wouldn't.

I did the one thing to him that I promised I wouldn't. And that was Olivia.

The more I thought about it.

Last weekend, last week, and this past weekend, the faster my speeds got.

My arm was killing me, but I couldn't stop.

I honestly didn't want to stop either. In the last week this is the first time I have felt any peace.

Throwing these balls and shooting goals under the stars in my favorite spot.

But when I heard someone pulling down the road, all I could think is who the fuck would come out here.

Then an expedition came pulling up next to my truck and I swear to god my stomach felt like it was going to fall out of my ass.

Olivia jumped out of her car with her hair in a wreck on top of her head, in a big ass hoodie, and I wasn't even sure she was wearing pants.

I didn't even know what to say when she got out. Because I'm a combination of pissed, broken, and hurt.

So I just turned around, grabbed another ball, and I kept throwing.

She came and stood next to me, and I grabbed another ball. "What are you doing here?" I grunted as I threw again.

"Go home Mason." She crossed her arms and sighed.

"Olivia, I'm pretty sure you forfeited all rights to tell me what to do." I threw another ball and grabbed another.

But this time, she reached in front of me, grabbed the ball and tossed it back in to the bucket.

"Go home."

She wont even look at me.

"How about you go home, because you made it very clear that you want me to leave you alone. I'm trying."

"Mason I'm not here for me. OK? I'm here for your mom, who asked me to find you. She's worried, and she hasn't heard from you all day. SO please, for your mom, go home."

"How did you even know I was here." I shook my head and looked at her.

She sighed and shook her head. Then she pointed up to the sky. "There's only one place you would be with a sky like this."

I pursed my lips and nodded. "And how many other places did you go?"

"Mason, I've been looking for you for 2 hours now. Just go home." She turned and started walking to her car.

"Olivia." I turned and grabbed her hand.

She turned and looked up.

"Just, look at me, please." I sighed.

"Mason, I really-"

I pulled her in closer to me and put my hands on the sides of her face, and I literally made her look at me.

"Please just talk to me." I shook my head.

"Connors probably flipping shit because I'm not home yet." She pursed her lips.

"Does he know you were looking for me?" I brushed her cheek with my thumb.

"Yes, and he's pissed but I told him unless he's going to suck it the fuck up and realize he doesn't get to control my life, then shut up and sit down." She closed her eyes. "He's probably going to be even more pissed off at you."

"Olivia I really don't care if he's pissed or not right now." I shook my head. "I just, I really need you to talk to me."

"Mason." She grabbed my wrists and pulled my hands away, holding them down at my sides. "You need to go home."

"5 minutes. Talk to me for 5 minutes, and I will go home." I nodded.

"I don't want to talk to you." She shook her head.

Now I know she still loves me. She's slowly sinking back in, because the minute I ran my fingers up her palms and interlocked our fingers, her breath hitched and her hands started shaking.

I know, I'm playing cheap, but I really need her to talk to me.

"And I don't want to go home." I shook my head. "I'm only asking for 5 minutes." I let go of one of her hands and reached for the latch on my tailgate. I opened it and laid it down. "Please."

She took a deep breath, pulled her hands away, and attempted to jump up on to my tail gate.

She couldn't get up, so I lifted her up on it and winced when I lifted.

"Gee, thanks." She shook her head.

"That wasn't because of you. I've been out here for- what time is it?"

She pulled her phone out of her hoodie. "11:20."

"14 hours. I've been here for 14 hours. My arm is sore." I jumped up.

"When you should've been in school." She nodded.

"And so should you, but you were pissed about my weekend and left." I nodded.

"I wasn't pissed about your weekend." She shook her head.

"You could've fooled me Olivia." I sighed.

"I'm not mad that you had sex with Kallie. I don't get to be."

"Because you had sex with Kalum." I nodded.

"And you're not allowed to be mad either."

"I'm not Olivia. I'm not mad. I'm wrecked. I'm completely broken." I shook my head.

"Yeah, I know the feeling." She nodded. "I've been feeling it for a week now."

"Ol, my life is falling apart right now. I don't need you throwing it at me anymore than everyone else is." I sighed.

"You're the reason it's falling apart Mason."

"No, Connor is." I nodded.

"You both are. Yeah, Connor is saying and doing everything he is, but you, you're the one who agree'd to it all. You don't get to be upset with me for trying to move on when you're the one who chose this not me."

"Why?" I shook my head. "I just need to know why you slept with another guy. Him of all people."

"Why did you?" She crossed her arms.

"Because I was already freaking out about you leaving with him. And then I got drunk, and all of your stories on snap. But the one with his arms wrapped around your neck, and the emoji's that were in it. That one set me off, and I found the first person I could that I had a past with, and I rolled with it. At the time I wasn't even concerned about Cameron, and I didn't do it because she's his little sister. She was just there. But Ol I meant what I said. I couldn't even get off because all I could do was think about you. I couldn't stop comparing her to you. I couldn't even get hard without thinking about you. She just, wasn't you. And I know how fucked it was, and I exploded on Connor, but I acted out of hurt and alcohol. I know how badly it looks that it was her. I do. But you had sex, with my cousin, who took your virginity and you knew I was worried about to get back at me for everything."

"I didn't do it to get back at you." She shook her head.

"Then why." I whined.

"I told you why Mason." She sighed. "Because I just wanted to take away a little bit of the hurt that you caused me. He has literally been my saving grace all week. He's the one who's been keeping me from completely falling apart. And when you texted me and told me you missed me, I broke. I started hurting all over again. And the only thing that has taken any of the hurt away, is him. I started crying, and he had me get in his bed to talk to me. I know you're thinking he moved on me. But he didn't. I kissed him first, just like I'm sure you moved on Kallie. He asked me time after time if I was sure. And I was."

"You really are trying to fucking hurt me right now, aren't you." I shook my head.

"No. I'm telling you the truth." She nodded. "The hurt left, until this morning. I exploded on Connor. But the fact of the matter is Mason, this entire thing is killing me because I'm finally realizing that I'm not what you or Connor want me to be. I'm not this sweet little innocent girl that Connor expects me. And with you, you asked one thing from me, and it was to give you time, and I let you down. But you let me down too."

"Olivia I-"

"You wanted me to talk to you. So please, let me finish." She sighed.

I pursed my lips and nodded.

"You let me down, because you asked me for the chance to be the guy for me, and I thought you were, until you did the one thing I was scared of. You chose Connor. I need someone whose not going to make me feel like I'm the second choice. I need someone, who is going to fight for me. And won't back down because of how other people feel about our relationship. I need someone who always has my back, and does what he can to make me happy, and would never hurt me."

I took a deep breath. "Like Kalum." I choked out.

She nodded.

"No Olivia." I shook my head. "No, you can not-"

"Don't." She shook her head. "Mason I love you. I want you. But I need, to focus on what I need."

"Me Olivia. I can be what you need. Just, please. I'm dying." I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her in to me. "I'll do all of that. I'll fight for you. I'll tell Connor he has to deal with it. I'll put you first. Just please." I leaned down and kissed her. "Please Ol." I moved my hands to her face and kissed her again. "Let me be your want and need. Let me be what you need." I moved a hand down to her waist and pulled her in to my lap to straddle me and pulled her in for another kiss. "Let me love you. Please." I moved my other hand back up to her face and kissed her again. But this time, I just held her there, I didn't pull back.

Until she wrapped her hands around my wrists and moved my hands before she pulled away.

She took a deep breath. "It's been 5 minutes." She shook her head and slid off my lap to the ground. "Go home."

"Olivia I-"

And I was cut off by her phone ringing.

She pulled it out of her hoodie pocket. Closed her eyes and sighed.

I peaked down and saw Kalums name across the screen.

She opened her eyes and answered.

"Hello."

My heart sunk. She actually answered.

"Yeah, I found him." She glanced up at me.

I reached down, grabbed her phone, and put it on speaker phone.

"Where is he?" He asked.

She took a deep breath. "He was just throwing balls around to speed read them."

"Is he OK?" He cleared his throat.

I shook my head.

"He will be hopefully." She nodded.

"Well, call me when you get home please, are we still on for tomorrow night? Pick you up at 6? La Rioja for dinner?"

She pursed her lips and nodded. "Yeah. I'll call you when I get home."

"Great sweet heart. Talk to you in a few." He hung up the phone.

I could feel the tears streaming down my face.

"A date." I choked out.

She sniffled and wiped her face. "Go home Mason." She took her phone and walked to her car.

She peeled out, and I sat there for a few minutes.

They're going on a date.

She's trying to move on.

I fucked, everything.

I have never been more hurt in my life.

And it's my fault.