Well, Ryan and I almost physically fought last night.

Olivia came very close to winging us both in our shit.

And me, I let my insecurities shine bright like a diamond.

Now, I am rolling over to put my arm over Olivia to pull her closer to me because I am in the mood for a really great good morning from her, but instead of putting my arm over a body, I'm putting it over two, and I'm praying to god my hand just landed on my girlfriends ass.

"Mason, no." Abby groaned.

Nope, not my girlfriend.

I popped my eyes open, leaned up on my elbow, and looked over to the other side of Olivia.

"Abby why the fuck are you in bed with us?" I shook my head.

"I've been here since like 6:30 Mase." She nodded. "It's 10:00."

"Again, why?" I sighed.

"Because I called Carter to come pick me up so we could talk. He brought me here." She pursed her lips and scrunched her face.

"It's OK babe." Olivia wrapped her up and hugged her.

I nodded, and rolled them both so Abby was in the middle, and I put my arm around her and Ol. "How'd it go?"

"You know, I was expecting yelling, or cussing me out, but he said he understood because you can't get over someone in a few months when you were together for years. And, that he was willing to work through it with me if I could just give it some time. But I don't have it in me." She sniffled. "I have never felt like a shittier person in my life." She wiped her face, literally on my arm.

"OK, I'm gonna let the snot slide because you're not OK right now. And since this is all feeling very Grey's Anatomyish, I'm going to be Derek and get out of this bed because I think this means girl time, right shit brick?"

"You're doing so good." She leaned over Abby and kissed me.

"Please check on him." Abby rolled on top of Olivia and buried her face in her shoulder.

"I love you." I kissed both their cheeks and rolled out of bed.

"Love you!" They both yelled as I walked out the door literally pulling my sweatpants back on.

I pulled my phone out as I made my way down the stairs.

It took a few rings, but Carter did answer.

Hey.

You good?

Not really, no.

You wanna go grab a bite to eat and talk?

Did you know she was going to do it?

I sighed.

Yeah, I did. She talked to me about it last night, and I told her she needed to be honest with you. Do you want to talk about it though?

We're still hanging out then?

Fuck yes dude, you're my friend. Abby or no Abby, that's not changing.

Hardy's, 30 minutes.

Absolutely.

I went over to my house, threw on jeans and a hoodie, and headed to Hardy's.

Carter was waiting outside the door to the batting cages for me.

We dapped each other up and went to sit at a table.

We ordered, and he was honestly really quiet.

"I just, I don't understand what I did wrong." He shook his head.

"You didn't do anything wrong dude. This isn't on you."

"Like, I get it, she can't help how she feels. But we were fine literally the day before. I leave for a fight, I get back late last night, she calls me while I'm training this morning, and boom. We're done." He sighed. "Has Ryan even like, attempted to do anything?"

"Not that I know of no." I shook my head. "Like, I know Christmas, he and Havannah took steps, they're not dating yet, but he says it's because he's scared to be with someone again. But, didn't say anything about Abby."

"And now the only thing in my head is that he's going to New York with you guys next weekend, and that that's why she's doing this. Because she thinks she's going to do something next weekend."

"She wouldn't do that with Havannah still in the picture though. I don't even think he knows about it. I mean, I know he still loves her. They were together for so long, and she's Abby Colton, it's impossible not to. But Car, she just didn't want to string you along when she still has hope for her and Ryan." I sighed. "You're a great dude, you're not going to have any problems moving on or finding someone whose all about you. But the thing is, she was all about you. I think it just hit her all of a sudden because she has been fine." I nodded.

"So he doesn't know she broke up with me? Or that she misses him."

I shook my head.

He sighed. "She should tell him."

I raised my eyebrows. "Huh?"

"I'm upset, obviously, it's Abby Colton. But she deserves to be happy. That girls heart, her face when she was breaking up with me looked like it was killing her to do. But she was honest with me." He nodded. "And if Ryan is gonna make her happy, she should tell him. We all know Ryan would sprint back."

"Ryan can go fuck himself right now." I rolled my eyes.

He scrunched his face. "Huh?"

"Oh yeah, Ryan put his hands on me and almost got his drunk ass whooped. Then told me I got caught with my hand in the cookie jar because I was talking to Abby, by myself. Which Olivia knew exactly where I was. So for now, Ryan doesn't deserve it and he can go fuck himself."

"Is it bad that I actually really like being friends with Ryan?" He shook his head.

"No." I shook my head. "I mean, after the whole battle of the bands, I do MMA try again bitch thing, I never thought it would happen. But, Car, he really likes being friends with you too. I don't expect you two to still be friends, but, nothing is saying you can't."

"That's weird as fuck." He nodded.

"Abby and the girls taught Havannah how to give a blow job with a banana." I nodded. "This entire friend group is weird as fuck. But you are apart of it."

"I just, I feel like I was just the hump she needed to get back at him."

"That's not true though." I shook my head. "She climbed in to bed with us this morning beating herself up because she hurt you, she really does care about you dude."

"Good, it's your turn to have the other crawl in to bed with you." He nodded.

"Huh?" I gave him a look.

"Dude, when everything happened with you and Ol, I woke up in the middle of the night once to Abby spooning Olivia while I was spooning Abby. I grabbed Olivia's boob."

"I grabbed Abby's ass this morning." I sighed. "I'm surprised she let me even stay last night."

"Why?"

"This lunch isn't about me. It's about you."

"Come on. We're friends. Not everything is about me, and it'll make me feel better knowing your relationship is fucky."

I shook my head. "Well, with all the Abby stuff, I got in my own head, and after screaming at Ryan, Olivia got on my case, ultimately ending in me asking her if he wouldn't have ended things if she'd be with Kalum instead of me right now." I pursed my lips.

"She obviously said no." He took a drink.

"She said yes." I nodded.

And he straight choked. "What!"

"I told her, that, I had been thinking about it a lot, because with Abby and Ryan, you were the person who was saving Abby, she ended up with you, and that's how it was with her and Kalum. And she told me that she has a hero complex and that when she's saved, she clings. But it doesn't mean she didn't love me. And then I may have said something along the lines of 'I don't want to find the perfect place and you run back to Kalum while I'm gone." I scrunched my face.

He sighed. "I was Abby's Kalum." He nodded.

I gave him a straight smile and nodded.

"Well, at least I got further than Kalum did and dated her." He shook his head.

My face went flat and I shook my head. "Thank you for that."

"Sorry." he scrunched his face.

"Seriously though, you know you've got me if you need me, right?"

He nodded. "Just, don't know how I'm gonna face either of them at school tomorrow."

"Well, you can either be a punk little bitch which we both know you're not. Or you can go in, head held high, take it on the chin, and be her friend. I vote for the second option." I nodded.

"I am not a punk little bitch. You sir, you acted like a punk little bitch." He pointed at me.

"I fucking hate you." I let out a small laugh.

"No you do not. You love me Mase." He pouted. "Or you would not be here eating with me."

I sighed and rolled my eyes. "I suppose you're right."

"Seriously, thank you." He nodded. "But uh, since we're on the subject, you really need to talk to Kal."

"Why?"

"Because you haven't talked to him since the Monday after they went to state college. It's been over a month Mase."

"I don't have anything to-"

"I will wing you directly in your shit." He nodded.

I cleared my throat. "OK then." I nodded.

Now at this point, we both decided we needed to get out of our feelings, so we made our way around the sports center, took things out on golf balls and baseballs, and we both agreed that tomorrow he and I would meet out front of the school.

He made a deal that if he talked to Ryan I had to talk to Kalum.

Because if we're being honest, neither of them did anything wrong when it comes to he and I.

I however, am not sure when I am going to actually talk to Ryan, because he's a stupid fuck at the moment, but I know it has to be this week because we are about to be stuck in New York for 3 days. We're not going to school Friday and leaving Friday morning even though the competition isn't until Sunday.

There's so much that all of us actually need to do.

Connor, Oak, Jason and Jake need to go get measurements taken for Tux's.

Kelsey and the moms are going to look at flowers and caterers.

Connor and I have apartment hunting.

Just so much.

But it became clear hat he knew when he was going to talk to me, seeing as when I walked in my house just now, he's sitting on my couch.

"Can I help you?" I crossed my arms and just stared at him.

He pursed his lips and looked down. "I'm sorry."

"And, what exactly are you sorry for?" I raised my eyebrows.

"What, do you want a list?"

"Actually yeah, yeah I do because there's quite a few." I nodded.

He sighed. "Getting mad, yelling because of Abby, putting my hands on you, accusing you of cheating on Ol with Abby, and just, being an ignorant fuck." He nodded.

"And, I'm sorry for the I'm not you comment, but that is all I'm apologizing for."

"I know, just, I saw tear and her wrapped up in you and I panicked. I tried calling her this morning to apologize but she hasn't answered or called me back." He shook his head.

"That's because she was in bed with Liv and I for almost 4 hours this morning. I am living in a bad episode of Greys Anatomy where my girlfriend and her girlfriend have sleepovers with me in the bed. I palmed her ass thinking she was Olivia." I nodded.

"Yeah, I know the feeling." He nodded. "I just wanna know if she's alright."

"No Ryan." I shook my head and sat down with him. "She's not alright, she broke up with Carter."

His jaw just, dropped. "Holy fuck, is he alright?"

"No." I shook my head. "I just left lunch with him and he thinks he did something wrong, but he didn't. It's just complicated."

"What in the hell happened, they were fine Friday." He shook his head.

"I don't know." I pursed my lips.

"Yes you do." He nodded. "You just had lunch with him, he had to have said something."

"He didn't." I shook my head. "All I know is that Abby literally hates herself right now and Carter is hurting."

"He's still going to hang out with us though, right?"

"Pretty sure yeah. I think it's a good thing he's not going this weekend though. Just, give them a little space away from everything. He's got his fight, and Abby's gonna be in her favorite place on earth. Just, leave it be for today."

"Are you going to?"

"I'm over here, instead of spending the day in bed with my girlfriend." I nodded.

He sighed. "I've gotta get to Havannah's too so I guess I'm going to have to." He nodded. "I just don't understand what happened."

Trust me Ryan, I have no clue what the fuck is going on with any of us.

Can things just, like, go back to normal yet.

No break ups, no fighting?

That would be ideal.