I can't tell you how good it feels to be in New York.

We left at 8:00 this morning. And now, it's noon, we all just walked in to the apartment.

"I swear to god if I hear one thing about the windows this weekend I'm punching you both in the face." Ryan nodded.

"We can get curtains, right Ol?" Connor looked at me.

"Yes." I let out a small laugh.

"It is really beautiful." Tory smiled.

We decided that after Ryan and Abby got back together that if Josh was cool with it that we would invite Tory.

It took calls from mine and Mason's parents for her dad to actually agree.

"You two did so good." Abby threw her arms around Mason and Connor.

"Oh no." Sienna shook her head. "Olivia did good. We went to 4 damn apartments while these two bitched about windows, stairs, lights and outlets. This one, bitched about a garbage disposal." Sienna pointed at Mason.

"And then this one bitched about an electrical fire place because 'electrical fires'" Ryan pointed at Connor.

"And then they both tried to act like they like quiet and aren't OK with parties." Sienna crossed her arms. "Olivia loved this place so much she almost started crying because she thought they weren't going to get it, and these two broke."

"You two are such queens." Ben shook his head.

"Hey, we got the apartment, now didn't we." Mason laughed.

"Because your girlfriend cried." Sienna nodded.

"We may have been a little picky." He shrugged.

"You turned down the first 2 because there were ceiling fans." Ryan nodded.

"Look, I'm 6'5 and I bust my head off the fan in our living room when you guys stay the night. I literally can't have a ceiling fan!"

"Duck bitch." Ben laughed.

"Shut up." He laughed and shook his head. "But, since you're all here. We wanted to do something before we settled in for the weekend."

"What's up dude?" Josh raised his eyebrows.

I sighed. "I have been having a hard time lately." I nodded.

"What's wrong?" Ryan raised his eyebrows.

"UH." Mason cleared his throat. "Therapy, it's been working for me for the most part, but, her not so much." He shook his head.

"Which is why I got this." I lifted my shirt just so they could see my tattoo.

"Jesus." Abby's jaw dropped.

"But, I am scared of needles. So, I asked Connor, if we could save a place above the fire place, for something for Parker." Mason nodded and walked over to his bag. He pulled out the box and looked down at it. "We uh, we haven't seen it yet. The lady we went to, we just, told her the story and asked if she could surprise us." He pursed his lips. "Con is it still OK?" He looked at him.

"Of course it is." He nodded and walked to the kitchen.

"We wanted you here, because we know you would've loved him just as much as we do." I nodded.

Connor came back with an arm full of beer bottles, courtesy of Jake and handed us all one.

Mason pulled his knife out of his back pocket to open the box, but he was shaking so badly that he couldn't even open his knife. "Shit." He sighed.

Connor handed me his bottle and walked over to him. He put his hands on his shoulders. "Do you want me to do it?"

Mason took a deep breath and nodded.

Connor nodded. "Give me the knife and the box."

He sighed and handed him both.

"Con I can do it." I nodded.

"No." He shook his head. "I uh, I think I need to do it. We all process differently, right?" He nodded. "I need to process too."

"OK." I pursed my lips.

Mason came back over, grabbed his bottle off the coffee table, stood behind me, and wrapped both his arms around my waist. "I'm sorry." He whispered.

"Dude, I just got a needle shoved in my body because I'm having troubles." I whispered. "You're allowed to have them too." I pushed my head back in to his chest.

He kissed the top of my head and whispered. "I love you."

"I love you more."

Connor started cutting the tape on the box.

We know it's a glass slab with a stand, but we don't know what's on it at all.

All she asked for was a story, a name, and a day.

Connor pulled it out of the box.

And honestly, he just stared at it for a moment before he looked at Mason and I. "You guys really don't know what is says, do you?" He sniffed.

We both shook our heads.

He took a deep breath and wiped his face. "An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. Then whispered as she closed the book 'too beautiful for earth.' You will always be our favorite what if. Parker Hollow, October 9th."

Abby looked up at Ryan.

"Uh, we actually got you guys something too. All of us, along with Havannah, Carter, Oak and Bebe." Ryan nodded and walked over to his bag. "J?"

Josh walked over, grabbed something out of Ryans bag, and walked over to the fire place.

They left a space in between them, but now sitting up on our fixture, was a picture of all the boys from homecoming on one side, and all the girls on the other.

Connor put the stand right in between them and slid the glass in.

We walked over, wrapped his arm around Sienna's back, and took his bottle back.

"To Parker." Ben raised his bottle. "All of our favorite what if, and the most loved little boy in the world." He nodded.

"To Parker." Tory nodded.

"To Parker." Josh walked over and grabbed my hand.

"To Parker." Ryan threw an arm around Mason.

Abby sniffled and wiped her face. "To baby Parker." She let out a small smile.

"To Parker." Sienna and Connor raised their bottles.

I turned my head and looked up over my shoulder at Mason.

He let out a small smile and raised his bottle. "To our Parker." He nodded.

I sniffled and held mine up to. "To Parker."

And to all the people who love him.