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My name is Frankie and I am 14 years old. My whole life as a girl, I never found too much interest in doing things considered "girly." I mean, I got dolls and my little ponies for my birthday and christmas, so of course I played with what I had.

In preschool, my best friend was a boy, and I still remember him to this day. He was a great friend, except he always got pronouns confused and called me "him," like if someone wanted to play with him, he would just point to me and say "No, I want to play with him."

I didn't really care, and I even kind of liked that he called me a him instead of a her.

When I was 4, my dad introduced me to video games, and I ended up completing my first video game when I was 6. I was so proud of myself, that I told everyone at school but most of the kids just said "But video games are for boys, why would you want to do that?"

They had all told me that video games were for boys. I didn't really care, because I was a 6 year old at the time, and I thought of it as a "tomboy phase."

I continued playing video games every day, and throwing fits when someone tried making me wear a skirt or dress...

In fourth grade I learned about the LGBTQ+ community. It made a lot of sense to me back then because for some odd reason I thought boys could only fall in love with boys and girls could fall in love with anyone, and the only reason boys married girls was because they had to.... I don't know it was complicated

I still didn't understand the whole concept of transgender, but around then I thought it was kind of wierd, just because I didn't expect it.

As life progressed I started realizing how suckish being a girl was.

I noticed how women were shamed a lot in society and at my school guys seemed to be really cool and laid back and the girls seemed really stereotypical.

Me, being the odd one out of the girls, the only one who didn't spend an hour doing their hair, and not wearing any makeup... I was really not popular.

I was starting to think about reconsidering my gender, because I started realizing how different I was from other girls. I didn't want to consider transgender, because I was scared of the whole transition process and I thought I'd be too shy to come out to my friends as a boy.

Also because I thought I couldn't be transgender because I don't like girls. I mean, I'm not meant to be a boy if I like boys, right? and

In February 2016, before I turned 14, I told my friends I was agender and that I would like they/them pronouns. The majority of my real life friends are LGBTQ+ so of course they accepted me.

I was really fine with myself, but the dysphoria returned around mid March, just before my birthday.

I would be lying awake at night trying to shoo away those thoughts. But then, I just really thought about it, and realized maybe I really am transgender and I was just too scared to admit it to myself.

At midnight that night, my group chat with my friends happened to be rather active, so I came out to the chat, and they accepted me right away.

So now, I identify as a boy, and I don't care that I'm a homosexual because of my decision, I'd rather be a happy gay boy than a dysphoric straight girl.

I still haven't come out to my parents yet, and my curves and chest make me unhappy at times, but I feel much better about myself now that I have made my final decision about my gender.

Thanks for your time!!