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Story: I knew from a young age that I was different then other girls. I've always like to help my dad build things, spend time outside, fish, things boys would normally do. I didn't think that was a bad thing and I still don't. I went to a public school until 2nd grade. That year, my parents sent me to a Catholic school. It was definitely a change. Now, I didn't ever think that being gay or bi or anything was bad, but at that time, I still didn't know what it meant. I look back at my three years at that school and realize that all the girls thought I was weird. I could accept that now, but back then, definitely not. I would always call girls cute and stuff like that. I didn't realize that someone could be gay until fifth grade. I had switched back to public schools and my uncle had a partner. They got married during the school year and it made me really happy. Then I realized my aunt was married to her partner also. It made me happy. But I sit here now, thinking, that I could also be gay or bi or anything. I remember the girls back at my old school and think about that they were cute and I might have liked them. Now, for the first time, I'm confused about a part of me. I don't know wether I'm straight or gay or bi, and it confuses me so much. I'm not sure if I have a crush on a girl. I know that I might have a tiny one, and I know that I would like to experiment being in a relationship with a girl. Does that make me gay? I've dated boys in the past and there wasn't really anything. Even when I did, my last relationship was with a boy. And he was my best friend. So now, I sit here confused, wondering what it would be like to date a girl. I want to be able to accept myself, but I want to know what I am.