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I've been questioning myself for a while now, since I was thirteen at summer camp and I felt really loved by all my friends who were all trying to make me feel better and stop crying after getting hit in the face by a counselor. I'm now fourteen and the day I'm writing this is the day I went to my city's pride parade for the first time. I walked with my temple and two others, and not only did I see more pasties than I ever wanted to in my life, but I also felt the love that was there, and the community of people who simply wanted to come together and express themselves.

Leading up to Pride, I have made a greater effort than ever before to attempt to figure out who I am. I watched YouTube videos on people coming out or educating about different sexualities. The videos helped me to realize that though I told many of my friends I was bisexual, I was mistaken and that label didn't represent how I feel. One series I came across was "ABCs of LGBT" by Ashley Mardell. The trilogy on asexuality opened my mind to new possibilities of who I could be. As of now, I have never been attracted to anyone sexually or romantically, though I know I want those kinds of relationships later in life. I know I may not have had a chance this early in life to find someone I like that much, but I hope someday I do.

The point of me submitting this story to the milestone book is to share that amid all the people who are realizing their labels, though that is amazing and I'm so proud of all of you, milestones can be the first step of the journey, the searching as opposed to the finding. As of now, I could be demi, quoi/WTF, cupio, pan, or anything else on any of the spectrums, and I am more than ready to learn and grow into a more confident me.

P.S. I know I've experienced aesthetic attraction before because you're pretty darn cute.