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How do I start? No... that isn't the question because I have already started. Almost three years ago, I have already started to accept the fact that I'm in love with someone who I know I shouldn't love in a way that my faith forbids but I can't help it. I love him. Sadly, it isn't easy loving someone who I know will never be mine because up until know, I'm still longing for him. Anyway, let's not talk about him.

I am so tired of fighting just to get myself out of the closet. Deep inside, I know that I'm not straight but the reality is still fighting my reality and it keeps on insisting that I can still be normal and everything can still fall according to how words dictate. But they are wrong, everything is already normal. In fact, this is normal. Me being me is normal. Don't let me be someone that isn't me because that isn't normal. They don't understand... all this time, reality thinks that its making me normal but it's completely doing the opposite.

I know what I am so there is no point turning to me to what I am. I am not just a written story that can be rewritten because there is some errors or plot holes or unwanted outcomes and I am certainly not just a poem that is made up of random scribbles of word from one's manipulated mind. Accept it or not, I am a part of the history that we all share and therefore cannot be rewritten nor changed.

I have already accepted myself long time ago and how I wish reality will do the same.