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I was in 8th grade not too long ago and I realized that I had been staring at this one beautiful girl. Her name was "M" (for privacy sake) she was a short super skinny girl with dirty blonde hair to her shoulders and the most beautiful green eyes. I knew something was different about her the moment I looked at her with eyes of lust. Not just a oh she's pretty a oh, she's beautiful and I want to be with her. I never realized before that I could like girls. I grew up in a if you are homosexual or anything besides straight, you are weird and you are going to hell family. So naturally I thought. No. This can't be right. But it was and about a month later her and I became better friends. I created a wattpad so I could read her stories and we could talk. She was the first person I came out too and she will forever be extremely special to me for that reason. She is 1 of 6 people who know the real me. So once I came out to her I decided to go even further and tell her that I had feelings for her. Now at the time she was in a relationship with another girl who was not very devoted. I was not trilled about this because she seemed very into her and they had never even met in person. It was a long distance relationship. But that's a different story. So a few months past and M and her girlfriend had split up. Now I was overjoyed but I also had to play the caring friend role. I couldn't be completely soulless. So I comforted her and told her that her ex-girlfriend was not worth it and that if she couldn't see what an amazing person M was then she didn't deserve her. Well now we go forward about 3 weeks. I finally tell M what's been on my mind. That I had really wanted to kiss her for a long time. I know smooth right.

Well she a parental felt the same way. Which was very good. So we planned it out, yes you heard me. Planned it. Who plans kisses. Well we did it twice. They were decent but not what I wanted. Well I was getting more and more into her and guess who came back, yep her ex!!! Wonderful. So she told me well I really missed her and blah blah blah. So I just said ok whatever. Well I still want you but I guess you are leaving me. So yeah I was really sad for about s month and after that we just stayed friends. But the interesting part comes now. So her girlfriend is not faithful at all and is not serious either so it's pretty much a one sided relationship. They break up for real this time and M is fine with her. Fast forward another couple weeks. Now M decided to slip a note into my locker saying how dirty she was about before and how she didn't break up with me because of her ex it was really because she was scared and she really wanted to start over. So I said ok. We continued love letters everyday back and fourth. Until the end of the school year. At the end we did not know what as going to happen and we both did not want us to end. So we continued texting every day. We had an end of the year party with out while class at someone's house. And M and I snuggled the whole time. It was amazing. Then when she had to leave we kissed twice. Which was also amazing. So at this point I'm really happy and everything was good. So about 2 months pass and we have texted everyday but never seen each other. We both had made plans to have one another over and all was going good. Or so I thought.

So know a few days before she was set to leave for camp she texts me yes "texts" me that she didn't think she could do it anymore and that she didn't feel the same way and that she was so sorry for leading me on and I just said. Ok.