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I used to never question my sexuality. But always my romantic orientation. So, I researched that. I've found myself to be demiromantic. But, I then started looking at sexuality. In more recent years, I've been unsure of my sexuality, so of course I'd be curious. And....I found three that fit me. I've combined them into one, unheard of, sexuality. For me, this means that I am sexually attracted to masculine, a male at birth people, and only after developing an emotional bond. Sooo.... I'm attracted to cisgender males and Male At Birth non-binary people who are masculine, such as butch AMAB and agender AMAB. I have only come out to three people. One was an online buddy of mine, and the other was a close IRL friend. But coming out to myself was the hardest. Just as I wrote this, I stood in front of a mirror, and gave myself a good look over. In the mirror, I saw a cisgender girl. I saw a girl who didn't care about gender when it came to sexual attraction, and yet was still sexually attracted to masculinity and the opposite sex. I saw a girl who was feminine in appearance, but androgynous in the way she dresses and the way she acts. I saw a girl, who is perfectly happy with her sexuality, romantic orientation, and gender. I gave that girl a thumbs up. And I told her a single sentence that would make her feel good; make her feel welcome; make her feel valid. I said seven words that will change my life for the better--

I am Mad, and I am demiandroheterosexual.