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homosexuality a topic my dad avoded as much as possible but always found his way to talk about it

i would always want a B.G.F A best gay friend but i never wanted my dad to know about it and he always said NO dating but you knw everone wants to know what dating is like so i dated this boy in elementry but i felt like we where friends more so i broke it off with him my dad kept mentioning stuff about being gay is bad but i never listen something about it made me mad and being little me didnt understand .

All my life i felt like i didnt fit in with the crowned because everyone talked about boys and how cute there where but me i sat in the corner i thought i liked boys i thought that thinking a guy was cute was likeing them but it wasnt likeing someone went into a totaly different path then i thought . ive been stuck in a shell at the time and one night the night i was going to move to florida i looked my self in the mirror and said "am i ever going to be normal."

i met alot of friends in florida but i finnaly got something out of myself when i got to 6 grade i met my best friend we went threw everything together crying , laughter , crying of laughter it was fun and games till 7th them my life hit where it is now i hung out with my best friend alot more now we where almost like sisters and i found out that alot of my new friends where bi and i was happy.

i looked aroound on the internet i saw pansexual i thought it fit me perfect because i thought girls where cute and i wanted to date them .

i started to hang out with this guy alot i thought i liked him because he was nice and not a douch like everyone else . But i thought wrong he asked me out and i got scared so i said yes he kissed me i neverkissed him i only kissed his cheek and i thought he loved me untill he started to ignore me i was alone again so i turned to my best guy friend he was the light that i had without my bestfriend(girl) my boyfriend started to flirt with my other friend i had and she was pretty so i now why he chose her over me i broke up with him shortly after that and he asked her out she being the awesome friend that she is said no because she didnt like him and she felt like it was wrong for him to ask her out after i brake up with him after that during all of this my dad found out about alot of stuff that had been going on with me and my personal life and said i couldnt hang out with thoughs people aka my friends . during all of this my bestfriend said she was pan with me and i got happy because during the boyfriend time i started to develup a crush on her opps . one day i was messing around with her and mentioned dated me and she basiclly asked me out but in a way we both did and then we started dating and now it leads to now i relize boys are jerks and ive never loved or liked any guy nor will i ever so i resently started lableing my self as lesbian