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Have you ever had those moments growing up where you felt as if you were out of place and didn't know yourself? Have you ever felt as if you were weird and stood out too much from everyone else? Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and cried because you thought you didn't look right, and not pretty right, but out of place right?

I remember growing up and I was in Pre-K. We would always play dress up and one day when we were playing dress up, it was my turn to be the prince so I was wearing a kiddy suit, a crown, and a sash. It felt better than wearing a Cinderella dress, honestly. Whenever I wore it, I always felt out of place and once it was time for me to be the Prince, I felt like I belonged. I felt like it was right. It was my job to be a boy. It was my legacy.

So growing up, I wouldn't wear girly clothes as much as I did. Instead of wearing pink skirts, I'd wear skinny and sometimes baggy jeans. Instead of girly Princess shirts, I wore flannel. Sometimes I wore snapbacks and beanies.

Then when I entered middle school, I was learning more about my sexuality. I remember I would look at anime girls and they would look attractive to me. I didn't know why. Then I'd look at anime girls dressed like boys and anime boys dressed like girls. I find it severely attractive. Then after getting a crush on my best friend, I realized I wasn't straight, but I wasn't gay either. I was just pansexual. I liked all genders. Heck, I liked all things and I loved that. Now I'm in highschool and I told my best friend I like her in that way already. She accepted me and didn't judge me. We might not be together because she's straight, but I'm happy she didn't leave and hate me.

I feel more comfortable with my gender and my sexuality. Now I dress like a guy more often. My parents might not like it but who cares about their feelings? As long as I'm happy, that's all that matters.

Hey, just be yourself.

You are fabulous and amazing. Be you. Be what and who makes you feel comfortable. Well. Thanks for reading! Have a great day