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okay. Here goes nothing.

I started out as a girl that never questioned their gender or sexuality.

That changed very quickly.

I never really saw my self as a girl all the time, something's I did, sometimes I didn't. As I became agender, I was afraid to tell anyone. I finally told someone who funnily enough, I barely knew. In a weird turn of events instead of judging me, she came out as bi. Didn't see that coming.

A few months later, I started to questing myself again. I was lost in the gender jungle and was also starting to trek through the sea of sexuality. During that time, I came out to an internet friend, and then finally, to my best friend over text message, I tild get I was gender fluid. It scared me so much to think of what she would say.

Then again, I got a unsuspected answer.

She was trans for a short period of time, and after seeking support from her family and getting none, she decided she was actually bisexual as well. After a long talk and me explaining to her what gender fluid was, I started questioning my sexuality.

At first, I knew I wasn't gay, but I wasn't exactly straight either. After changing many times, u still haven't found out. But I'm slowly starting to become who I am, and that's what's growing up is about, right? Finding out who you are? This takes me back to my playground days. Wanting to be excepted, wanting to just be my wild, crazy self. I am scared to face my classmates when school resumes. I'm not exactly your average joe. An no matter how much more taunting I'll have to endure, I want them to know.

I'm the girl that's not always a girl, and you need to learn to except that.