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So, to be completely honest, I was so scared. I have known my crush for a couple of years now, and he didn't know I was gay. I was so nervous. I mean, I go to school with him, we hang out all the time, and I liked him.

Well, we got to high school, same feelings, same issue. I couldn't look him in the eye without getting butterflies. I was so nervous. About 4 months into the school year, he comes out. He tells me he's gay. MY MIND WAS BLOWN. But still, I couldn't tell him. Not when he just came out. So, a month goes by.

I tell him. And boy oh boy did the shut hit the fan hard. He stopped talking to me. He stopped looking at me. He even got his locker moved. He literally pretended that I didn't exist. I felt horrible. So, I told him again. This time, he didn't push me away. Instead, things went back to normal. We hung out one day.

And he kissed me. He was my first kiss. And then, he turned me down when I asked if he would go out with me. I felt so embarrassed. I didn't talk to him, I avoided him at all costs. As of today, my first crush is my first kiss. And, we kinda don't talk.