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Hey, I'm and right now I identify as a panromantic asexual girl. But I'm only 15 years old. Who knows what'll identify as when I'm 18? No idea. But I want to be myself!

I always knew I was different than other girls. I never played with dolls, put on make-up or liked dresses. I was the girl who only hangs out with boys.

When I turned 10 someone asked my mother if I was a lesbian, because I don't dress girly. At least that's what she told me two years ago.

At age 12 I had my first crush on a boy named Adrian. We never dated or anything. But for me it was exciting to have a crush.

A year later I met a girl called Leya. And that was when I realized I like both boys and girls. It was really confusing and kinda scary, because I thought it was not normal.

But I did my research and learned much. I read books and watched TV shows with same sex couples in it and it made some things easier for me.

My family is not homophobic, neither are they supportive. So I didn't come out to anybody, but myself.

Earlier this year I read the word pansexual and I looked it up. It perfectly described me. But then I did research about asexuality and it fit me too.

And since that day I finally know who I am.