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I was born a female, and that is that. I had never questioned my sexuality or gender because I only thought there were two genders and a person could only like the oposite gender. There was confusion. As a child, I always knew I was different. I played football and basketball with the guys, and never hung out with any of the girls in my class. I felt like I related more to the male population, but still felt feminine. I also found both males and females to be attractive, which added a bucket load of confusion. Not knowing why I felt this way, I brushed it off, knowing I would figure it out later.

Time skip to the end of 7th grade---

The feeling that I was both male and female never left, it only got stronger. By the end of 7th grade, I had learned about some of the different sexualities, and knew that there was more than just two genders. I actually had a couple friends that were openly gay, and they helped me a lot in this journey. I was starting to figure out who I was. When 8th grade rolled around, I knew that I was bisexual. I liked both guys and girls, but was still confused. I didn't feel like a male or female. I stopped wearing dresses, because I simply didn't like them, and I started wearing mens clothing. I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, but according to my mom there was. She tried to get me back into wearing dresses and skirts, and I hated her for it. It wasn't me.

After doing some research, I found a list of the different genders. I saw gender fluid, and felt that it was me. I identified as gender fluid for a while, before changing it to gender queer as I felt more on the male side all the time, but I still felt female at times. When I came out to my mom as bisexual, she was not accepting. She told me to face reality, and to change because it was just a phase. I don't think she will ever know that I identify as gender queer, because of what she said to me.