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I dislike labels. I mean, it is okay for everyone to have a label if they want, but I don't want them for myself. Despite that, I still find it necessary to label myself. I feel like if I don't label myself, then I am not lbgtq+, but at the same time, I know I am. It is quite confusing.

This year is the first time I got a crush. But that crush turned to be multiple crushes and lots of confussion. At first, as I said in an earlier post, I thought I had a crush on my best friend, but then I started liking other people and it turned into a mess.

At the end, I focused on one of my crushes, who is a guy. But later I realized that he wasn't hot at all. In fact, I know he is really ugly. After that, I started thinking and realizing that I wasn't attracted nor I wanted any physical contact with any guy. But, I actually thought that many girls were really hot. So my mind immediatly placed a label on me: homosexual biromantic.

I wanted to punch myself. I don't like to place labels on myself because maybe I will find a man who I'll find attractive and I would like to kiss. But anyway, after that, I thought that, if I ever got in a relationship with someone I wasn't sexually attracted to, it would be a disaster. I wouldn't be able to fulfill the other person's needs (like kissing or any other physical contact), and I felt selfish. But that is just who I am and, if they love me, then they will be happy with me.