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I had a pretty good childhood. Lots of friends, a good family, and a happy life. Everything felt perfect.

That is, until 6th grade. I felt alone. I felt different than all the other girls, and I just wasn't happy. I still continued with my life, but my friends started drifting away. I realized they were just fake friends who just didn't want anything to do with me. I felt alone. I only had one true friend at the time.

He meant everything to me. He was the yin to my yang, the water to my fire, etc. I developed feelings for him a few months later, and I finally confessed it to him. He didn't like me back though. Not anymore. I found out that he used to have a crush on me before he realized he was gay.

I was happy for him for accepting who he was, but I felt broken inside. I eventually got over my crush for him, and we are still best friends to this day.

In 8th grade, the depression started to kick in. I truly felt alone. I wouldn't talk to anyone. I would just sit in the corner and read a book or think. I felt like nobody else could help me. I stopped hanging out with my family. I would go to my room and cry. I felt like my parents could t understand what I was going through, and I never talked to them about my depression.

During summer vacation, I finally decided it was time to stop moping around and do something else. During Archery, I started developing feelings for this girl, but I never told her about it. I thought to myself, "What is wrong with you? You're a girl! You're not supposed to like other girls!" To this day, I have not told her of my feelings because they diminished a bit.

I still had crushes on other boys too. That's when it hit me. I liked both genders, male and female. I realized I was bisexual. I told my gay friend about it, and he was so happy for me! I truly felt happy again! I even told my sister about it, and she came out as bi too!

High school had rolled around, and I was so scared to see the people I knew before. My mom assured me that there were lots of new people and I could make so many friends here. During the first week of school, she was right. I had made so many new friends that week!

During my Freshman Seminar class (Computers) I reconnected with my childhood friend. We exchanged numbers and Wattpad accounts and became best friends again. I did have a tiny crush on her too.

One day I was scrolling through her Wattpad account, and I saw in her profile that she was bi. I was shocked. I could t believe that she was bi too! It made me so happy! I felt alive again! Words can't describe how happy I felt! I still haven't told my parents that I'm bi yet, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

They say high school is a bad experience, but it really isn't. High school is the place to find who you are, and to be in a community with others like you! I'm a freshman right now, and I'm having the time of my life!

Remember everyone, it's okay to be different. That means that you are unique and weird, but in a good way! You don't have to fit in in order to have friends. Sometimes the best kind of friends you can have are the ones that are different, they are ones you can learn from and that will support you. Never give up hope that you will never not be alone. Never lose sight, because maybe the thing you want or need is right in front of you.